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Beep Box Sample Pack Vol. 1

I made another sample pack and I’m giving it away for free as I’m in the giving mood lol. The sample pack was made with Beep Box a free online Chiptune sequencer which I made the patterns using Beep Box and whisked them away to my DAW Fl Studio to cut the loops up even more and make something out of it adding my own drums to the beats.   

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Selling Out To MAGA And The Foreseeing Consequences Of Your Legacy

INTRODUCTION

Man let me lick it got to come in on this one and there I was minding my own business trying not to hate on people and there beliefs but boy do they ask for it. I never cared for MAGA or Donald Trump and I’ve already gone through the issues I have with Trump but this one is for the supporters who enjoy throwing away their credibility and fanbase all for the bag IE cold hard cash. People like to pretend it’s not this far right movement that it is and welcomes people from all nations and backgrounds and I find it hard not to do my own cancelling of these people who like to sell out for the cash. One song comes to mind which is The Adventures of Stevie V Money Talks where it states “I have no excuse I just want to use me, take me and abuse me, I have no taboos I make a trade with you, do anything you want me to” this sums up what happens when you start ass clapping for the devil yes ass clap for Donald Trump and MAGA. It’s not the fact they support the man Donald Trump as the far as I see it he’s just a man with a Twitter following it’s basically sticking on the MAGA hat and becoming a part of the issue which a normal person would run away from not to be part of the problem but each to their own as they say. I don’t care who they are they could be a person who I adored and bought all their albums for instants support MAGA and that’s the last time I’ll be playing your music even when you’ve been had cos it’s going to happen I still won’t show any sympathy for you what’s so ever. I mean something I’ll probably bring up a few times is it worth it selling out for the precious bean cos the way I see it credibility is way more pricy then some cheap affair which is going piss a lot of people and most importantly people who you said you cared for now everything seems like a surgical move for that pile of gold, power and to clean slates or so say clean slates cos as someone pointed out in a video I watched everyone still knows and remembers what they did so is it worth it cos they would probably treat you the same or they would be shady in some sort of way towards them. I’m not the one to hate or gossip on someone but it’s like some people beg for it like they are attention seeking whores of Babylon but it’s not that it’s selling out saying and doing something you were or say you were against to people who never cared for you or your race but more on that later. As much as they like to pretend it’s harmless it’s actually quite potent and causes people to be white supremist which I think is the foundations of MAGNA and the new Republican party cos I said it before Donald Trump  made George W Bush seem like a innocent loveable man and to the people who saw 9/11 know mainly his cabinet were doing some shady ass stuff and war crimes against humanity just like the people they were going to war with. It makes me reflect and think dang George Bush may of done war crimes and acts against humanity but at least he was sensible and didn’t try to inflict a race war with his own people and the whole wide world as the barriers have broke and I’m from the UK and I’m now watching people side and show real emotion when it comes to MAGNA and Trump and I must admit saying that I’m impress how the English people took it without any pointers or jumping on the bandwagon. It is easy to jump for someone you like and be on the defence of that person and I see where they get it wrong but there is a thing of having a bias opinion and far right when they shouldn’t be dancing in the moonlight with the devil but granted some people are just far right and pro all the things I’m against and Trump and MAGA so recklessly throw out there so go awff then.           

BARBIE TO BARBARIC

As I said before I’ve been minding my business though tuning in with all the current affairs she had going like her beefs, her manipulations, her subs so many things but after the Lil’Kim beef which I sided with Kim and they had a major rap battle which as a rap connoisseur Kim won the battle with her bald finished mixtape okay maybe too much but after that I was done as I kind of liked Niki giving her one prop her inventive Barbie flow made me listen to her and her glitch appeal was something new and worth listening to with the delivery I never cared for Roman that was laughable and something I never bought into but I had several problems with her disrespect and her ever needing need to topple the other rap bitches respectively lol and be the only one on top. Anyway I’ve been putting up with Niki and her shenanigans since after the Kim beef trying not to become too much of a hater I mean on top of her barbie flow I’ve always liked Up All Night and later on Yikes but apart from those two I haven’t kept up with her music as there are plenty of other female rappers who I prefer and that’s no shade but they are the two songs I know and can rap to. Where I really started to find issue with her was the UN appearance I mean from the right angle it looks like a sweet and innocent move and something people should be aware of which I’m not saying it shouldn’t be talked about but a colonizer comes to mind and more scratching tallies against Muslims. Not only that the  American government has a hideous track record of sticking their noses where it doesn’t belong which is why we are all in this mess in the first place so to inflict more damage and pain against the people who are at their wick end with them isn’t a smart move. Now I’m not denying there is a problem in Africa particularly Nigeria of course there is some rift between the two religions but the issue here is making out like it’s a bigger problem then it is and undermining the fact that Muslim persecution is higher and the way Trump with the aid of Niki founded a well it might as well be a social cleansing cos what kind of funding is it anyway he could of easily give it to a charity who crosses both faiths and bring people into unity but I believe it’s not that kind of funding. She also inserted herself as the Nigerian speaker when she’s from Trinidad but that’s not it she inserted herself into something that is blatantly another way to reinsert Christianity into Nigeria and I’m a Christian and believe this isn’t god’s plan or how he and Jesus wanted to happen or see going on I mean isn’t this another way to use God’s name in vain cos I’m pretty sure it states in the bible we must forgive the non believers and the people with other religions I mean I’m asking for a friend lol. I mean doesn’t it also state not to try too hard to convert the non believers I know God was a jealous man but he didn’t say it was okay to populate the religion only find your flock and they will come. Anyway the way Trump and his administration with the aid of the newest puppet Niki is inserting Christianity into a divided country but making out like they care cos that’s the other thing yeah they may care a little especially Trump but another word comes to mind strategic moves and snubbing anyway that is some serious bitter attuite you have coming from the ones who started it in the first place it’s like they don’t learn from their own unforgettable history. But woo hoo she speaking up for something she believes in point scored to Niki. I was like whatever I’m not about to go all out yet even though like many people went off her with her beef with Megan Thee Stallion and her 48 hour rant after Megan came for her neck with her line throwing shots at her sex offender husband  Petty  bringing up Megan’s law into the mix a right to know where the sex offenders live in the United States. Now that was the other thing I was like whatever about I was like whatever I’m not trying to tell a grown ass woman or so I thought who to date and forgive and I can see why she chose him let’s just say it meets the family requirements I mean her brother is also a sex offender. But moving on I didn’t like the fact she went all cray and in my opinion not how a real rap bitch would act. I mean a little “oh this bitch think she’s got all the smoke well soon come bitch” you know some tough talk and finish with your diss track so many hours or days later would of been the correct way to handle it instead of showing your true colours and losing your mind over something you meant to be equipped from but something I should realized she’s a sore loser and hates to lose or be the one person they just don’t rate but to be fair who doesn’t even though I just don’t care if you rate me or not to be honest and respectfully. So I wasn’t trying to start my own send Niki Minaj back to Trinidad campaign I was like whatever making up excuses or coming up with how she really felt and was going through especially the YouTube videos I watched. When she really turned the daggers into people stomachs was when she made a appearance at a conservative event (AmericaFest) with Charlie Kirk and JD Vance, speaking on Christian persecution in Nigeria supporting Trump’s claims, sharing anti-trans content, and engaging in feuds with Democrats like Gavin Newsom. Now to be honest I didn’t know most of this and I just looked it up and not the point I was going make but hmm you done goofed. Anyway being in that convention or whatever it was is problematic enough but is hilarious as I’m pretty sure she knows exactly what she’s saying and once again ass clapping for Trump after she blasted Trump on her Queens Radio and thanking Obama for all his hard work sincerely. When she really start to ass clap franticly for me and the bits I know about as if I can bare to sit me through the whole episode I will. But it was two occasions and I already was saying Niki sit down with her UN appearance but she went too far now how should I say this as diplomatically French sticks it there’s no light way to put it  as possible she knows exactly what she is saying and is what I call master appealing. She tried to say “we as black woman” black woman and her doesn’t need to make a blonde hair blue eyed woman feel insecure about her looks to make themselves feel pretty or valid whatever that troll mouth was saying. Now first of all if people really see what she’s doing I call it black baiting and stems from badger baiting a blood sport here in the UK where the badger get’s thrown to six vicious dogs and eaten alive. As I said she knows what she’s saying and what she’s really doing empowering the wrong people and stupid people who now think all black woman are insecure and are or would ask a white woman with blond hair and blue eyes to “downplay down her looks” to make her more attractive or feel more attractive. She firstly said as black woman which does imply the whole race of black woman which okay some might but it’s not the majority she’s making it out to be. She once again over stepped boundaries and become dare I say a mammy a yes sir and mam kind of bitch ticking all their boxes of what they like them to talk about and know will make them look good and superior to the people who they think is the problem black America the same people who are behind Niki and champing for her all this time cos she’s that bitch from Queens *cough Trinidad. I mean it wasn’t done in the Monique fashion like your best Monique voice “Baby you are beautiful you don’t need that fake image to feel your valid” it was a direct attack on black woman and a classic example of what dare I say a Aunt Jemimah looks and sounds like FYI selling out to the white man. The other bit that strikes me is when she called Donald Trump handsome and dashing like bitch try to pick your knickers up when you done won’t you it’s embarrassedly low and grovelling it was and also contradictions of what she was saying or just as I thought selling out for the dirty man and I hate to use such a corny word but I’ve been using this phrase for a while now it is what it is. I mean let’s be honest it’s was all rehearsed green lighted material to get the voters into their arms. I mean take Kanye now I went easy on him as I do believe he wasn’t thinking straight with his mental issues and he didn’t know well he knew what he came to do take over the government which is why Trump was so quick to dash him out the window but he wasn’t fully aware of his surroundings whilst Niki is strategically moving fully aware she’s appealing to her masters and dare I say she wishes she was white and superior. Now she’s got me thinking all the lines now I know I said I’ve only listened to a couple of her tracks but I heard enough anyway now she’s got me thinking those funny lines she put in that I thought were funny like the Rosa Parks line “Uh oh bitches Rosa Parks get your ass up”  who she really was appealing to I mean it’s only funny if you ain’t a right wing supremist which okay she’s not that but I used the words Mammy and Aunt Jemimah for a reason and the simple fact it is what it is I mean I call a spade a spade and only use such underlined words when someone is that thing excluding the harder words. And believe me I hate slurs of all nationalities and never undermine someone believes or what they see which I don’t stuff I don’t even understand like the Republican party or even the Conservatives here in the UK and especially MAGNA but I have a understanding on their stances  and where they even fit in in the good VS evil scale and track records of who really was a good world leader and who was the evil one who didn’t do nothing to help or save their own people and flourished in greed and dictatorship and no not just George Bush. The other issue I had is not only did she kiss both cheeks I mean kissing ass with calling Trump dashing and handsome she said young black men be like Trump don’t be like I never heard of the mans name before but guessing he’s on the opposition side. I mean what are you asking black men to be cos okay in one hand he’s a successful billionaire who knows how to run a business which is what he should of stuck to by the way but he’s hardly a role model I mean I would of went with someone substantial which is what she’s not being paid for or getting the chance to voice her opinions about the people who paved her way like Martin Luther King, Malcom X, Rosa Parks and countless more. But noooo not any of those people it’s Trump young black America be like Trump at least come with a message like be like any of those people I mentioned and die with a message you know something drastic but hard hitting without coming off as a Jihadist or terror cell nut case. She could of easily picked a influential black man it makes me wonder is she really throwing shade to Jay Z cos that’s the other thing I was just minding my own about the whole Roc Nations feud. I’m going get into it Niki and by the way Niki being now the pathological liar as she has lied so many times I myself can never take her word seriously. She tried to ignite a beef with Cardi B and Megan Thee Stallion which if you haven’t been on this planet in the last decade they did two songs together W.A.P. and Bongos  and are quite close as I make of it. She tried to make claims that Megan called Cardi dirty and a Mexican when she’s Latino but not only that she made that wild claim that Megan told Niki in a drunken moment to abort the baby she was carrying as it was with a sex offender which was something I took up issue with but still played her music as papa don’t know what she said was valid or rings any truths or just another classic Niki moment where she fabricates stories to send her Barbz into a feeding frenzy and gain more traction for some more time. Gurl start fake beef to sell your little weave and mixtape then like she’s done countless times I’m getting this impression that she doesn’t care where she gets it from but she hungry for the money and power and fame of course as I do think she is self centred which hell no am I saying all celebrities are self centred but Niki definitely is. Now where was I ah Jay Z Niki seems to claim that Roc Nations owes her all this money for the time she spent working with them even though she didn’t do nothing whilst working with Roc Nations no it wasn’t it was for his streaming service he started and owned called Tidal which started the beef. Now work with me here Jay Z and his wife Beyonce is heavily tied to Barack Obama a Democrat and Trumps rival and we all know Obama ain’t going give away any green cards or passes to offenders without them being innocent so what does she do jump ship and jump on the bandwagon though which is embarrassedly funny and shameless she claims she’s not jumping on the bandwagon but not only that I also believe she’s trying to get at Jay Z and his streaming platform Tidal cos she feels he owes her money when she might be being greedy and demanding money that she didn’t earn. Whatever I always preferred Lil’ Kim, Foxy Brown, Megan Thee Stallion Cardi B and Khia and so many more. Do check out Khia’s Gag Order on Niki and her husband it’s a read and a half alllways comes with so much energy and foulness and FYI I love a good foul read. Anyway I’m not bias one bit and know how to leave my beefs as a open debate to other music fans apart from the Lil’Kim and Niki beef which I found issues I didn’t like. 

THE BRAND OF MAGA

You know I used to like Russel Brand I’ve always known him as the funny guy from the TV here in the UK and later a actor and later a podcast host also wife to pop singer Kathy Perry. Not so long ago he was talking about all this meaningful and deep stuff like corruption how all our governments bleed us and the system even colonizing and the rainforest it had me listening. Come to find out he openly sold himself out on camera when he realized he might get the bad press away with his open sex allegations cases and earn a bit of money. I know he’s dirty as part of his stand up routine was how he was surprised he’s not in prison for sex crimes as he was what he called himself a sex pest so it wouldn’t surprise me if he was a bit of a rapist. I don’t know what it is with the Cola/Cocaine addicts and Trump/MAGA only it meets their high expectations and big headed views. Apart from that bad stand up  act he pictures himself as this free for all hippy sticks man when he’s a sexual predator and a contradiction of what he portrays himself as this caring voice of reasoning which I’m getting tired of seeing and I’m  not trying to be righteous I’m genially sick of people celebrities saying all this positive stuff only to go “never mind what I said did I tell you I brought the MAGA hat last week I know cute right” I mean with me and not being so showy showy I stick to my word with fundamental issues not that I’m trying to keep it real I actually take hard stances against people who I see manipulating or doing something I’m against no matter what kind of shit I or my family was in I wouldn’t sell myself to the MAGA franchise cos it might as well be who I know are not for me or the people and is just another pawn in their expansive game of chess which is all about conquering or Battleships. He’s a sell out and a shit stirrer like the other person I’ve been on about Niki and someone I turned away from once I knew he wasn’t messing about and started to talk about right wing issue he even called Tommy Robinson a quote unquote good man and started to waffle on how he was a Holocaust denier now making himself out to be the antagonist seeming quite excited and bursting with thoughts he probably doesn’t even believe but once again money and power talks and once he knew Donald and his administration was giving out free passes whatever that might be but as soon as he knew that he so quickly flipped the script and was back peddling with all the stuff I personally thought we were on the same page about. I shouldn’t be fooled by the celebrity glaze no more and shouldn’t surprise me as Trump and MAGA is a brand so once they find out it’s a brand and there’s some legs and arms behind it they start to weigh up the odds and boy do people’s feelings get hurt and they think all different which is why I don’t want to become famous but granted I love the money or so say money some of them have. Bringing Lizzo’s brief take on the matter of Niki going MAGA I agree with what she said actually that number one celebrities opinions about politics doesn’t matter I’ve been thinking about this topic for sometime now and the original title was going to be how hip hop and celebrity lifestyle meets right wing politics doesn’t mix which is what they wouldn’t say not to sound only a certain party can only gain votes by influential people of the other side but sure if you are dumb vote for the dumbass and the dumbass party that follows the dumbass leader. The other thing she said is we are going see a influx of people who are going upset us and our views and Russel Brand is no exception to those people but the fact is do I care for him well I did at first when he was doing what he’s meant to be doing speaking about pressing issues and sticking with the unity theme most celebrities stick to or do their part for the world which is even better but you don’t have to but he already made himself to be the angel and the one who cared when he was so quick to turn it all around as it just wasn’t paying the bills and after he got into hot water and the press was hounding him. My issue as I probably brought up a few times is reckless me me attuited where they don’t care what they say or who it offends just as long as their pockets are being lined it’s like their legacy or what their fans think about them doesn’t matter and keeping politically relevant in order to pay the bills is more important and seems like looking like a contradicting fool who would say anything to be  favoured. I mean in Russel’s case Britain is done with him after the sex allegations or most British people so what next be the next puppet in the game of chess and Battleships oversees and be liked and not hounded or be with people who don’t care what you did as long as you are a Trump and MAGA supporter and can make those horrible nightmares disappear overnight “with the wave of my wand.” He’s already weighed up his supporters and Trump and saw on they adore the people who are Trump and MAGA’s sided and got excited of the thought of being seen as the next messiah well make a cult then Russel like you wanted cos he wants to be the next messiah.       

AZEALIAN NOS

Someone now to go easy on as it’s someone I like and I do tune in to her opinion and I think the 212 but particularly 1991 which is real house vibes and that Niki is how you go higher then a mother fucker bitch get out of here. But sometimes she goes too far and her drags are at times proof that she is a bully and can and have said some horrible things to people I do and do not know especially towards darker skinned woman. I didn’t want to see her nasty side come up again after she apologized for what she said which I accepted and she began talking about real issues stuff I wasn’t even aware of but she had a positive turn around and the fact she rebuked voting for Trump made me realize on top of her articulate side I saw already she wasn’t selling out or ticking boxes she like people with Brexit was dupped into make America great again or MAGA and was curious to see where it would lead. I don’t know how long she’s been on her quote unquote truths but one appearance particular really got me like “back where we started from” and I wasn’t amused or adoring what she was saying for reasons I’ll give later. On the Cheeky Two Cents Podcast Azealia Banks really went all out war on Africa just to recap what she said she didn’t like Afrobeat music which okay it’s not for everyone so I can’t say too much about that. But Nigerians has no culture and went on a mocking spree calling their food salty rice and made a mockery of Nigerians using palm oil stating it’s made for candles which can you get more privileged than that. It is like sorry Azealia olive oil and vegetable oil is not a option right now as much as I like to cook with flavour and a bit of expensive imported products my negro ass can’t afford it and this is something we like other African neighbours cook with. You really don’t go around telling other countries how to cook and live especially if you are from a more privileged country who have a different cooking approach then yours cos we have the options of many cooking oils  they have what they know and live on. Not only that making out that the country’s name Nigeria stems from a racial slur not even knowing that it was named after their most famous river and with the same racial slur of the same word but that racial slur which makes up the country’s name always means black in Latin until it became a racial slur. In fact according to a google search I did it wasn’t until the 19th century was it fully in use as a way to vent hate on someone even though it was used first in the 17th century. Once again this wasn’t I’m shocked kind of mentality this was snubbing and mocking them for allowing this white European woman to come up with such a foul name for their country and for them to accept it as their name Nigeria when it really wasn’t the case. I mean surely she knows the racial slur is also a colour and came way before the racial slur tell me that at least. But that’s not all what I take issue with like Niki Minaj Azealia Banks have taken up issues with Nigeria and have made it their business to mock and stir up trouble and both have both snubbed Nigeria in their own separate ways which I think stems from the rumours of Christian persecution in Nigeria and this rude American perception that Africans are rude and rip you off. I mean I’ve been watching some negative stuff said about Africa by black Americans especially Nigeria even though I do think sometimes the Americans are right they expect some sort of service and that means being polite but that’s not to say you have to be rude clapping your hands and getting all aggressive which I find sometimes is the case but not all the time only when they snap. They both Niki and Azealia have Nigeran heritage which in some weird way makes them think they are entitled to their incorrect opinions it’s like well shit I got Nigerian heritage  so I have the right too to share my opinions surfs up. It is a bit like are you just playing nicely with Trump and his administration cos that’s what it looks like from a far and close up it is a bit cosy for my liking and not even helping the country only putting them down and mocking the poor for stuff she should know better about being a articulate person of her nature. I mean you can be as thick as a plank of wood you know runs nothing in their mind to know Africa isn’t in the best of states and haven’t been for quite some time now there’s nothing to gain by attacking them or their music which there is nothing wrong with as a music connoisseur and is a good thing Africa was finally put on the map rather then the sorry charity appeal videos and the perception which is no perception that they all starve and dare I say it rife with aids, famine and corruption and brutal governments just to name a few of their problems as a whole continent. She should be trying to understand their music as it’s making Africans rich from what I guess poor backgrounds just like her but probably even worse.           

IN CONCLUSION

So as I said I’ve been minding my business but keeping up with these social affairs I mentioned in this blog post and I’m trying to be too far left even though I insists there’s nothing wrong with thinking left sided. This has to do with the sell outs who get paid for hanging up their MAGA knickers on their washing line so to speak and be paid handsomely amount of sums more handsome then Niki Minaj claims Trump is. The contradicting and money hungry whores of Babylon AKA the sell outs should of been there in the first place or show their desperate needy side right from the jump so we all know who we are dealing with instead of making our own asses clap for them and get left on the alter when it is time to get hitched and I do mean make a declaration of love for that person come to find out they never loved or valued your opinion and was just another way to get everyone on side and supporting whatever they like you to support or get that money and power they can’t find anywhere else. I really don’t set out to join witch hunts or whack a mole affairs and as I said I kept a lot of my own views away from the public eye as I feel it’s not even worth talking about until you start to mess with the stuff I do care about and have got a lot to say about then you are going hear it. As I said no one is safe so please don’t think I was bashing just Niki and was jumping on the bandwagon or ticking boxes like they were doing. I am literally tired of this far right movement which we as nations are meant to be getting past and seeing it as a thing of the past not the latest craze or fad as that’s what it has turned into a fad and craze even fashion at this point where it’s cool and fashionable to think right wing and welcome such things as fascism to the forefront. Selling out doesn’t mean you’re black and you must follow suit to what other black people are saying selling out is selling out your own people IE make yourself appeal to the white audience by saying stuff that was probably started by the right wing racist parties and are for example anti black stances like what Niki Minaj was saying. It also means flip flopping on the issues you brought up and was talking about and then you doing a three sixty and start working against the people they said they were for when now they are working against them. If MAGA was inclusive and it was trying to make America great again I might of bought the T shirt but the fact is it should be called M.W.A.G.A make white America great again cos surely that’s what they mean. They ain’t going to pay Niki for example to talk about black issues and her own stories they are paying her to take the white stance and Niki doesn’t care what she says like Russel Brand as long as that money is coming in and she as the upper hand and another chance to stay relevant she’s got another pull on the bong. Both Niki Minaj and Russel Brand excluding Azealia might as well put on their next year’s Halloween costume the sheets cos what’s the difference no matter what stance they take I mean it’s no secret that the MAGNA  supporters alone are Neo Nazis let alone the back room whispers of Trump being a neo Nazi himself so they might as well dress accordingly and dress in Klan and Neo Nazi attire it wouldn’t even shock me. It’s like the sell outs haven’t learned from the Kanye affair and they think they are the ones who are going make it on Trump’s special Christmas card list and for the win you know Trump leaves a little something something in each card for their support but like they are the ones who are going get chummy with him and profit from his own reign of terror. So it’s all on you now what’s your stance on the Trump and the MAGA party? Are you for or against? Are you American? Do you feel he is making America great again without being to bias or right wing about it? Do you also see what Niki Minaj is saying about how black woman feel white woman should play down their looks in order to make black woman more attractive and pretty? What’s your take on Azealia Bank’s attack on Nigeria? And where do we go from here? I would love to know your opinions and debate this out to get some real answers as I only understand from watching YouTube videos but I thought I ask the audience to get a better understanding of where this is all coming from and to start a open debate on the whole affair. I’m open for all opinions as long as it’s not no tone deaf far right hate speech but feel free to leave a comment and let’s discus the good bad and the ugly. I leave you with a bit of music some positivity music my anti far right playlist a mixed combination of House, UK Garage, UK Funky and a dash of R’n’B and and tracks I’ve been listening to for quite some time like decades now but only just picked up how useful they are to really convey how I feel and hopefully other people too it’s time to sing to the crowd “HIT IT.” And please listen carefully to the soundtrack of The MAGA sluts mixtapes in two parts.      

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The Christmas 2025 Playlist

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Elves Choice Magazine

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Funny Christmas Photos #1

Here are some funny Christmas photos I made using GIMP and I’ll probably do some more some other time  but for now here is the first batch of photos.

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The Ups And Downs Of Being Biracial

INTRODUCTION

Michael Jackson once said it doesn’t matter if you’re black or white something that hit home to me and was resonance to me as a child and also into my teen years. I was brought up in a council estate in a place called Lawrence Weston which is a rough old place growing up there and experienced many racial abuse and one was from a police officer. I was taught from a early age that my skin colour didn’t come into it and I was to be treated normally without the preferential treatment even though I have seen my days of that I was taught that it was from merit and merit alone will see me though. I have African, Guyanese, Scottish and Irish roots and not to mention the other places I learnt of whilst taking a DNA test like I’m Welsh too. I took the DNA test to find out once and for all my roots and to put the unknowingly to rest and I’m glad I did as I learned so much and feel much better to know where I came from me and my family and ancestors. There are a lot of misconceptions of being biracial and I will be discussing some of them in this blog post and I hope to vent out some of my frustrations with the world and what I call the ups and downs of being biracial.       

People think it’s easy and you don’t get racially abused even though they carelessly throw in words like mongrel which I think is a racial slur to biracial people and something I don’t like to be called even though I understand some of the elders use of the word it still frustrates me and something I will get down your neck on. Back in the 80s it was a rarity to come across many biracial people and fast forward to present day they are popping up from out of nowhere. It amazes me of the backwards thinking some people have when it comes to biracial people and that I will get into down the line. I know one thing is that you can’t be too white and you can’t be too black in the law of the ignorant who nit pick at you for just existing and doing you. The good old you’re bi racial you don’t have any problems makes people seem tone deaf to the situation and my own window pain. My gran and grandad are from Guyana, my dad’s from Tottenham, and my mum is from Bristol but her parents are Scottish and Irish well my grandad from my mum’s side is both Scottish and Irish. I was taught both sides of the family from a early age and as confusing it was it really helped shape who I am today a confident about my heritage biracial person. I am proud of my heritage and have lots of love for all my family across the board and unlike my early childhood I’m not ashamed of my heritage and can safely say I have a lot of nations within me.                 

PRETTY PRETTY AND THE LIGHT SKIN COMPLEX

You know I don’t have a preference when dating and is something that frustrates me so much every time it’s brought up. Not the preference thing but the fact the public perception of what is seen as the beauty standard. Let’s get this over and done with black is beautiful and there are a lot of black girls I would say is attractive but this brainwashing that happens tells people otherwise and stops people from dating black people on the misconception of dare I say being too dark. It’s not even funny how many people have come up to me to tell me they wished they had skin like me which repels me and not from them but the whole beauty standard. I really don’t understand how being a darker complexion makes you ugly and being a lighter colour is more appealing to the eye it doesn’t even make sense except for objectifying and sexual desires which I’m sorry I’m not a object of desire and refuse to be named as such. I walk past many black woman and girls and think what a lot of crockery you are still attractive and laugh at the ones who say they are too dark or dark and ugly. Being light skinned doesn’t even make you more appealing apart from the brainwashed who are now programmed to think otherwise. I hate the fact that I’m considered more attractive and even though I’m in my 40s now and seen my beauty days it disgusts me when there are opinionated videos like as seen on TikTok and YouTube. I didn’t like the fact that those TikTokers were being so grotesque with damaging videos they were making and thinking whilst making and posting the videos that it was funny and a good idea. This kicked up a shit storm where black people were denouncing biracial people and making hurtful videos themselves which didn’t put biracial people in a good light or most importantly represent how I felt about the situation. It kind of put me in a void where I was too scared to say hello to another black person in fear that they think like those who discussed the issues and expressed their opinions on platforms like YouTube and TikTok. It definitely made me distant to my roots and just wanted people to know I wasn’t that kind of person which is why I went out my way to say hello to black people when passing to get over this new fear I had which wasn’t the fear of the black person but the fear of them thinking I was a self hating clown who loved myself and was all about my looks which apart from a small blip I never was and love black people like I love all the races under the sun. The problem is it’s too much dictation from the fashion and media which tells people being biracial is more prettier whilst dark skinned people are misrepresented and put at the back of the que which I’m guessing as a black child or even a adult can lead to self hating and hatred to the light skinned people but more (importantly themselves) they prance around on our media all over the globe. Sadly this stems from slavery where the biracial slaves were treated better and in some cases part of the family whilst the black slaves were hard at work and being broken down and mistreated. The slave owners would use words like ugly and other cruel names to the black slaves and sadly this is still being echoed across the board by all races including black people. Skin bleaching is another thing to come from slavery but after the slavery days a lot of skin whiting products emerged which was dangerous and even life threatening to use. I’m against skin lightening and for those who don’t know I’m a massive Lil’ Kim fan so when the photos started to emerge of her lighter complexion it really broke my heart and I was a lost for a while . People think it’s to get closer to the white gene but this isn’t the case and is the beauty standard gone mad and is another nail in the coffin for being proud within your own skin. In my own opinion it’s something that shouldn’t be accepted like it is due to the terrible past and what is seen as true beauty but I have to accept it with people like Lil’ Kim who has had a dramatic transformation but she looks a lot darker and better in more recent years then she has done before. It’s more socially accepted to lightening your skin and people would even go as far as saying go for it you will look better even though that is not the case and in some cases they look more uglier than when they had black skin. Media has driven this whole topic from Hollywood and the music industry into people taking it upon themselves to lighten their skin colour and fit more into the beauty standard. I’m not even saying it’s their fault it’s people like Tyra Banks comes to mind who genuinely believes having lighter skin makes you more attractive and dashing down the runaway. Now I know you are thinking well Kim feels that way too well actually and thanks to the resurfacing of shocking clips from Americans Best Top Model  which I watched when it was first aired in the UK Tyra has shown to be tone deaf of black people like when she said to one contestant she was being too black for having kinked hair and her straw hat to show her roots which as a black person herself she should of never said those words to her and was disgusting to watch again. Screaming I’m a Afro American  woman whilst telling other black ladies she’s dressing too black and ghetto and later down the line lightening her skin doesn’t wash with me and makes me wonder if she used her skin complexion as a aesthetic and to win over the black vote.  I mean if there wasn’t such a knock on effect with the whole issue I would be like it’s your skin you do what’s best but it’s leaking into the normal world and making people feel some type of way about themselves which is why I draw the line and plus it does have deep and dark history behind it which makes it even worse.                                                   

HAVE A BABY BY ME WHO THE F CARES

As I said within the space of say 20 years there has been a uprise of biracial babies which I’m not even saying it’s a bad thing and is something wrong with the parents. What is wrong is how unprepared some of the parents are. Some people are quick to have biracial babies without even considering the fallouts they might face like racist abuse from in and outside the family, explaining their heritage from a early age, the feeling and being told they are too white or too black, outside hate from other mums and dads and once again family and friends, and other factors like when the relationship goes sour and  mum or dad start to be racist in front of their own child but there are many of things to consider before you impregnate yourself with a gorgeous biracial baby. I hear time after time that the only reason why they want biracial babies is because they would look pretty and nothing to do with two people falling in love and having a baby together. It’s more mother’s dolls collection ready to dress up and parade down the high street without doing their homework or even having a safety blanket IE away from the racist family members who will never accept them or their skin colour and go out their way to torment them with jabs left right and centre. Some kids get brought into racist environments and later on become self hating machines who don’t understand their roots and where they stand in this whole thing and I think it’s irresponsible to have a biracial baby under those circumstances it’s not fair on the child or children and is hard to understand as most times they are family so they are brought up to love all your family members even though they don’t love you. Unless you are willing to cut off that toxic family member or members it’s unfair to bring a child into this earth with bad blood already in the rear view. I witnessed a sad event that happened not so long ago and not to do with anything I just mentioned I live next to a primary school for 5-11 years old anyway he was about 5 to 6 and he was mixed race and expressing how he wanted to be white even declaring himself white. I remember feeling like that around the same age and was due to outsiders insisting I was white or not white enough and left me coloured drained until my mum and dad pulled me to the side and gave me my first lesson in life which was be proud of all my heritage. I would advise any parent who is going through or been through this problem is to not to panic and teach your kids all what you know about both sides of the family and never feel you let it slip or you failed your child. Teaching your kids what stereotyping is and what is really racist abuse is also puts them on the right level of reporting it to the teachers or telling the parents so they can ring some necks when they are not looking obviously. It’s a hard pill to swallow and at it’s worse can lead to depression and suicide so teaching your kids from a early age where they come from puts them on the right foot and is so they are not lost in where they fit in. Reminding them that you love them dearly and is not the public perception and they are just small minded bullies use the words racist bullies will make them understand a lot quicker that they are just trying to be malicious and not worth even getting upset about cos you never let the bully see you cry.  Also integrating with other black people around the same age and up does help multiculturaled schools will stop them from feeling excluded and out the loop so to speak and even though that was a burden too feeling like I was too white compared to the other black people I still found my feet and eventually I find myself at home as they made me welcome and belong in their circles and for that I’m truly grateful.                          

IGGORANCE IS BLISS

One thing that pisses me off is people’s pure ignorance and the dumbing down of the racist abuse I face and faced. They have this weird theory that I don’t get racially abused or feel anything another black person would because I’m of a lighter complexion. For one we are in the middle and get it from all sides and two do you know how many people have called me a nigger, go home, to people shouting at me because I have a dog and not even a tough dog, to be followed in shops, to being stopped by the police and endless more examples I could bring up. It’s funny how people would say we are more socially accepted and even though in some groups that is true overall that isn’t the case and still I get racially abused and stereotyped like the next man and woman. They obviously haven’t heard the stories where they accept you not for being biracial but being classed as white which is what I call colour tone deaf and a slur in itself. The other thing is preferential treatment like it makes me feel good and special it really doesn’t it makes me feel small and now I got to go out my way to reinclude the person of colour whatever race that is but I was mainly talking about my black friends or even strangers at times. It really makes me awkward and out of place as I hate not to include someone if that is sex, race, sexualities or anything else I always have.    The knock on effect of that alone is damaging and can make you feel out of place and out of socket yes painful. The amount of racial abuse that was hurled at other people but it’s okay as you are not one of them is another example of colour tone deaf and something that jars on me and that I faced countless times and yet another example no matter how much they think so biracial people don’t get the pass like they say they do. I might of brought this up before but there is this YouTuber who I respect and watch when I’m in the mood anyway she tried to say biracial people don’t get suppressed and don’t feel burdened of having black skin. I like her respectfully but to make such once again tone deaf comments and to discard my own suppression and burdens is a farce and something I was shocked her saying as it was coming from a articulate black woman who I thought was multiculturaled and a bit clued up to the ongoing problem of racism. As I stated I’m not mad and I’ll still watch her as she makes good content and I believe in supporting black artists, TikTokers and YouTubers I just was taken back from such ignorant words from such a switched on lady and I believed she was for everybody and not be so secluded when dealing with such a topic. I hope I got it wrong and she was talking to the dumb TikTokers with their gagging on lollypops antics but it really hurt my feelings and felt like my voice was being unheard and easily brushed to the side all because I was lighter then her. One example of how I was repressed and supressed was how my so called friends and their parents said I was acting too black. Ali G was a fictious charter from Stains who talked with a black accent and slapped his fingers when excited. It’s a black culture thing especially in Jamacia and the surrounding isles but was popularized by Ali G played by Sacha Baron Cohen here in the UK. Long story short it was a popularized thing in the school playgrounds and adults and we were all slapping our fingers together and using his catch phrase Boh and iz it cos I’m black. Some people like my so called friends and their mother didn’t like me using any of the catch phrases and told me in some sort of similar words that I should start acting white to which I replied iz it cos I’m black. I shortly stopped hanging around with him not so long after as my mum and dad taught me to walk away from the ones who call me racist names or make me feel some type of way about my skin colour. The other time was in more recent years two examples actually the first one is the music I make and to the haters it was too white even though I would say you don’t know what you are on about I’ll take the example of Jungle and Drum and Bass that was cultivated by black people I mean going down the heads list we have Bristol legend Roni Size he’s in fact biracial, another legend and also biracial Goldie, and now for the black ones Jumping Jack Frost another Legend, yet again another legendary pair The Ragga Twins who are MC’s they are black and R.I.P to another legend Skibadee he’s was a black Jungle/Drum and Bass MC in the rave scene with his white partner in crime Shabba D, not to mention General Levy the black Jungle/Drum and Bass/Reggae and whatever he’s feeling Rastafarian artist. All the people I mentioned helped shape the sound and define it right from it’s humble beginnings so when they say Jungle/Drum and Bass is a white genre you obviously don’t know how insulting that is for the grandfathers of Jungle/Drum and Bass and was not how it started. I use that example of how suppressed they try and make us as independent artists and how we should dare I say it stick to the bongos well sorry my bongos are being tuned as we speak so please bare with. I already talked about Beyonce and the hypocrisy of the black music standard when she released Cowboy Carter her country album and how and what I was trying to say how they tried to suppress her into sticking to the R’n’B and Ballads songs she was making throughout the years. That’s how I feel when they did that to her it was all negro please you know you never listen to Pasty Cline for example when in reality she knows the album more than the Pasty Cline fans. As if I don’t know the Queen, Madonna, UB40, Culture Club etc etc hits and I never enjoyed them all so say white artists and as if I was going to listen to East Coast and West Coast rap with 90s and 00s R’n’B hits, Reggae, Reggaeton and the other black accepted genres. I quite enjoy Rock in passing and okay not the typical genre I choose when selecting my daily tracks that is usually House, R’n’B, Hip Hop and the Dance hits but I know I enjoy particularly 70s and 80s Rock which I was actually brought up with. Being what I call musically bias means you worry too much on what people would think of you and means you can’t fully enjoy music the way it is intended to be which is for everyone and also without holding up what I’ll call the cool, black or whatever it is meter and say marking it from 1-10. The thought of just sticking to my streams and not broaden my musical taste would mean I would get bored quick and wouldn’t adapt in my musical making I mean I love music and I hope that comes across well in my music making I do but the ear likes what it likes and for me it doesn’t matter if it’s a ladies anthem like Destiny’s Child’s Hey Ladies, a swinging handbags at dawn house anthem take your pick but more Disco House from the late 90s to mid 2000’s, a dominating sexy anthem like Khia’s My Neck My Back or even Lil’ Kim’s Not Tonight, a heavy rock song so on and so on. If I like it I like it and if I like it that much I would learn the lyrics and start wailing away yes wail lol. My race no even better our race shouldn’t even come into when it comes to music making as music appeals to many races and creeds so when people told me my music was too white I laugh at the faces of the ones talking evil and blame society, the music industry big wigs and fans for being so narrow minded and thinking so small and not stepping out the box for a change and be part of the next generation of real inspiring and inspirational artists of the future did I sell it. Both Lil’ Nas and Beyonce have pushed the boundaries of Country music and I hope to see other artist follow suit and be all what I mentioned above without putting them too high on the peddle stool. It will show the world that other black people like the genre and more people will become more acceptive of the genre. Another person that stands out is Jada Pinkett Smith with her Heavy Metal band Wicked Wisdom love the name and what the band stands for and I’m also impressed by her roar and singing talents and also playing the guitar yes she a full on band member and at the forefront of the band. That is what we need more black Heavy Metal Bands and Rock bands give Chuck and Jimmy a run for their money.  I actually enjoy her music even though Heavy Metal and also second up Techno are my two worst genres but I do like Black Sabbath R.I.P. to Ozzy Osbourne and Berlin Techno so I haven’t thrown it out the window completely. It’s actually trying to stand out from the others and not be a mish mash of someone from yesteryear or current even though I do believe in the blueprint when done right and with the nod of the person they styled or got their style of singing or rapping from unless they are being difficult and in some cases jealously and rivalry means a standoff deal so to speak. So in short what I just mentioned is another way they try to supress you and make you feel nervous of doing something a little different and out your comfort zone which I actually enjoy doing but thankfully no one online has told me otherwise, result.         

IN CONCLUSION

I hope I wasn’t across as ignorant or not for mixing colours whatever colour or race and creed they or you are. I hope someone will read this and take it seriously and hopefully know what to do with your self hating son or daughter or family member it takes love and sparing them from any judgement when it comes to their white, black biracial side and them exploring their heritage but never put them in one path if you can put them in the middle and let them explore the path with your guidance IE history about both sides of the family which is the important bit and the history their ancestors went through from both sides if you can rustle up a history takeaway to go I’m selling it again ain’t I woo! By doing this they will have balance and a deeper and fuller knowledge where they come from surpassing conspiracies that all biracial people are a product of their slave masters, and we are not loved by our parents and so many silly rumours and conspiracies we hear people run their mouth about. The sad thing about is as I’ve watched a lot of YouTube and TikTok videos where usually the mum starts to become racist towards them and their father usually. Also the countless videos I watched about their stories how they abandoned them from birth and mistreated them by sometimes being physically abuses towards them which does make me sad and it’s not fair as they didn’t ask to be brought in this earth and you go abandoning and mistreating them for your mistake well I hope the lord can forgive you. I left my mum to move to Barbados and then my dad’s and then foster care when I was seven but I can safely say she still loves me and wasn’t anything to do what I mentioned above. As I said I was brought up in a council estate in the very outskirts of Bristol so it was rough and my mum lived at the bottom of the very long road in the first block the road is called the Long Cross by the way and my Dad Lived on the last block of flats on the top floor about a quarter maybe half a mile up the road it’s hard to tell I don’t drive lol. I would spend the weekdays at my mums and the weekends at my dads until I got shipped out but thinking about I ended up in a good position and I haven’t done that bad to be honest it could be much worse. In fact me and my dad and my mum haven’t done too bad for themselves and have moved away from the Long Cross and gone into Higher Education my dad is Business man and so many other things and my mum went into a Psychology field I believe she was always interested in the mind. I haven’t spoke to my mum for a while now guess I should break the ice again before it’s too late but  anyway at least it isn’t anything stupid. I am thankful that not all people feel the same way and depending on your town it should be filled with lots of different races and different backgrounds so it will be normal to say hey to a passing stranger or integrate fully by marrying, having babies or even sparking up a friendship with someone out your race. I’m not even saying having biracial babies shouldn’t be allowed but do remember kids just ain’t fashion and unless you are doing it for DNA purposes or to strengthen DNA or for the simple fact you like to do their hair in the morning which actually means that person likes structure and hair obviously and your doing it for the aesthetic looks and to appear dare I say hip and trendy/cool please don’t not have biracial babies. Now did I just do a don’t come back to Jamacia well sort of but unless you are going to guide them and see they end up in the right position and not face flat on the floor or be one sided although I do believe in the I’m a American not Afro American or I’m British not Mixed British  scenario but teaching your children one side of the puzzle and missing out vital information that would later shape your child and make them more informative about the past, the present and their future will make them more confident within themselves and hopefully jump a few hurdles IE bear traps while they are and I do mean the system. What I’m also trying to say is it’s not easy bringing up a biracial child especially without one parent being there and at times in a toxic relationship with their mum or member of the family or members. I know there are lots of happy white and black families out there who do a good job raising their kids and single parents too. But in a white surrounding with  one parent especially it’s easy for the white member of the family not to feel what racism feels like and how bullying can lead to a damaged child and later on adult and could make them backflip 10 times over by doing something crazy to the next person who tries them. This is unless they understand the whole story or even parts of it and fully understand what racism can do and feel like and how it affects them still to this day wherever you go and that goes for all races actually but actually they would probably make good parents, spouse or partners. The crazy thing and news flash I don’t even have kids but I was one once and I’ve read lots of books about baby care oh and I did a baby care course for a laugh and when I was deciding if I wanted kids I chose to have none and I’m forty and I still haven’t got any I’M FREE!!!!!!!!! Not only that I live in Bristol here in the UK and most people are with grips of the slave trade route which landed on the harbour side and also it’s quite multiculturaled city and people especially in the inner city like to get on with each other and share each other experiences like their festivals and a lot of talk about racism a open topic that is forever being brought up and I do mean that in a good way as it’s something that needs addressing until people get it right and more aware of racism and how it affects people. Mistreatment of others is not acceptable at it’s best and worse and being a right wing Nazi sympathiser should be a thing of the past but people like dare I bring the stupid bastards name up again Mr Stupid AKA Elon Musk likes to dance with the devil in the moonlight fire sounds like a start of a poem or song and someone go. I have no idea why we would go back in time when there is plenty of resources and people to meet to be stuck in this ignorant cycle and love to loath at the unknown or someone who is not the same colour as you makes me wonder are you that stupid do you need help or something I do wonder.          

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