The Beginning Of The End; Politics, The Far Right And The Public Deception

October 17, 2025

INTRODUCTION

As the world keeps spinning it’s growing and expanding to major proportions and there is only so much the world can take without breaking the levee. As I probably said quite a few times now I was born in the eighties when the world still cared and it was expected to do your bit for the world and communities I mean the greats like Mother Theresa, Gandhi, Princess Diana, Nelson Mandela and also all the singers who do their bit like Bono, Michael Jackson, Bob Geldof, Sting and countless more really showed the world how to give back to the world by doing our bit for the world. If you were for the right you wouldn’t be the most accepted person in the group and you used to live out in the outside and on your own away from all the normal people who are trying to get along and use their time constructively and get along with people even though it means stepping outside your comfort zone and everything you know. Thanks to the reasons which I will explain below the world has taken a turn for the worse and instead of it getting better it’s got worse and people are allowing to be stomped on being fed no force fed iced cake which at this point they are just opening their mouths and accepting anything down their throat. There is a lot of people who don’t ask questions and just become a what I call a echo which is repeating what the next man said without researching and coming to their own conclusions and those people are taken advantage of but there they are painting their clown faces on and doing all the steps like they were one of Beyonce’s backing dancers I mean talk about pom pom girls aka cheerleaders please stop. The world is already unstable thanks to things like gang culture, drug abuse and dealing, natural disasters, war and so much more we really don’t want anyone to come along and kick the bucket that is saving our asses but you carry on with your nonsense and we will see where it gets you FYI bloody minted. The fact is and something that is growing pattern in the world today people have stopped caring and it’s become dare I say fashion to be a bitch or bastard and become or let out the narcissistic side of you. People have stopped wearing their heart on their sleeves and  taken up a fake visage like what you see when you are still growing in your teens if you remember what that was like basically immature and selfish. I seen a massive dip in people losing their morals and themselves all for lies and greed and they claim that was always them when really they were nice as pie and friendly and giving it’s outrageously fake and that’s who they prey on. In a space of a decade there has been a embarrassing growth of the far right which has leaked into politics and even worse in people’s neighbourhoods that I’m seeing and hearing. Usually I would look past it when you hear of people supporting the wrong people but it’s got so personal I’m up to my eye balls with it and taken it upon myself to fight back in a non violent way and start counteracting the lies and the far right. As I will explain later I in fact we let them have their fun by sat back and watching the mess unfold I was actually for these people at first like Boris Johnson and Donald Trump but as they began to mash up the world I began to get a distasteful taste in my mouth and come to the realization they just ain’t for the people bottom line. In fact I began to use my expertise by reading them and coming up with the same conclusion they are and once again just after the money and didn’t really care what people wanted even though they would promise the stars just to get  a slice of the cake and believe me while we are feeling sick from the iced cake they are scoffing down iced out cake with diamonds and pearls basically they are living extravagant lives eating up all the money that could be put to good use like sorting world problems but we all know the drill by now. I’m actually amazed the world allowed it to happen and get so bad and we are now in a battle with the other side wanting to be heard and seen something we are all tired of not being heard and seen and treated like a passenger in the runaway train because newsflash we are all aboard that train and as we have seen it’s crashed a numerous of times with fatal consequences. It’s something they don’t give a hoot about when the train crashes no matter how many statements they put out saying how this could be prevented and a tragedy to the world they are secretly smirking and rubbing their hands cos they know they just got paid a fat sum. The way they dangle the public’s lives over the flames it’s ridiculous and makes me so mad cos they ain’t playing with their lives only their jobs and they can easily retire comfortable after the big scandal it’s not like they go homeless and lose their fortune something that would happen to a normal person they are flashing their legs to so to speak and try so hard to relate to. At the end of the day they brought out the immature inside people and fed them lies all the stuff they want to hear and what happens you get left at the alter in bits while they are living their best lives and back stroking through the sea of Titanic boarders and when it sank. What’s worse is that people are buying it and clapping along to the tragedy they even doing steps to the devils beat when they are just laughing at them milking their sore udders.      

MR POPULAR VOTE FOR ME

You know I’m not usually the one to board the hate train but damn it this man makes me I mean he brings it on himself. I firstly start by bring Barack Obama to the front that man really did help America and did so much not just for his own country but for the world and showed true showmanship, compassion and leadership he was the one who made America great again in fact I think it’s pretty cheeky and outrageous for Donald’s slogan to be Make America Great Again when Obama did that and made America whole again. I mean I was ecstatic when they voted Obama in and not just cos he was black I really thought America saw the worse days and they were on the mend of the repression and stupidness and it was a thing of the past. Come to find out and like the song says it was just a temporary feel and they would go backwards instead of forward it was disappointing to watch and to see them get taken advantage of by doing what Trump does best pander to people’s fears and nonsense. It’s not only that it’s also just a popularity contest instead of being qualified to run for your country I mean is Trump even qualified he actually doesn’t show any great leadership skills and is well known for making a show of himself and others and acting so unprofessional it’s like your not at your board meetings now. He’s always acting up in front of people pandering to the stupid like they say that man is funny I love that man let’s vote for him and that is most of his votes and how he got in power in the first place acting up and making himself seem adorable and pandering to people’s fears including throwing a ton of mud at Obama and the Democrats. Okay maybe as the opposition you meant to throw the mud but to lead people down the garden path for example how Trump made out Obama wasn’t American and made it his duty in every speech he did leading up to his inauguration to call out Obama he used the fear of migrants and immigrants to propel himself into the white house and him being the white all American good guy. It’s funny how he used Kanye West as tool to swindle the black vote and make him seem like the good guy who was for everyone. It’s like they were reading the report and finding out black voters wasn’t buying Trump so who is popular and well loved I know Kanye recently started his Sunday Service and got the black vote let’s try him. If only Kanye could of read the situation in advance and whilst at the White House because I was picking sly greedy man with a agenda the way he was smirking and interacting with Kanye it was quite uncomfortable to watch as a Kanye fan and supporter of his troubles. The funny thing about it was as soon as Kanye revealed he wanted to run Trump’s face dropped and started choking up like uh oh he’s stepping out of line and just like that they were never spotted together or has he been invited back to the White House after that big reveal. Kanye was horribly dumped and so many people loss respect for him after he confessed his love for Trump  and he made his guest appearance at the White House. If it wasn’t for his mental health problems I would be crying for someone to smack that MAGA cap off his head that’s the thing I feel Trump took advantage of Kanye and his mental health and Kanye is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to Trump’s supporters no offensive but they are unstable and easily baited and convinced of bad things and without too much effort of real statistics and facts. To be honest it might as well be a beauty pageant contest at this point and even though I bet they know their onions and could show leadership at the very least it’s similar because it’s all about how pretty you look and know how to answer questions giving to the audience or in this case the judges us being the judges what they want to hear and they and we score you for whatever the response is. The thing is I think Trump is way to immature to run for the White House we all seen his petty Twitter rants and spats that propelled him into the White House and the way he handles certain situations so carelessly and immature he really does think his in a Punch and Judy play him being the one behind it with his hand puppets and unfortunately Kanye is just one of them. You would of thought being a world leader he would of done his best even if he couldn’t do it but try and sort out the war with Ukraine and Russia instead of handling it with so much immatureness and undignified actions like when he kicked out Volodymyr Zelenskyy from the White House. Some people thought it was funny lapping up all the cake but I still think he was bang out of order and took it as one big joke also mocking him in Trump’s appearances on TV for not thanking him like he did anything in the first place or even should thank him that’s part of the parcel of becoming a world leader. Anyway he made a mockery of that man and was like he was only invited to the White House to make a show of him and dangle his wishes above him he yoinked him hard and had no plan on sitting down and discussing Ukraine’s climate and how they could resolve the problem peacefully and with immediately effect. I feel bad as he went there thinking he was about to get heard and bring this war to a dramatic end only to be disrespected and made a embarrassment of  even I would of been a bit red faced if that happened to me but he’s got nothing to be embarrassed about it’s actually Trump who should be embarrassed and ashamed the way he handled the situation. The other thing I noticed about Trump is the way he showboats with power and serious topics like war which he’s always showboating with war like the countless times he flexed his steroid looking muscles throwing more petrol to the fire that is already a sensitive situation and could blow up at any point we are not safe. He doesn’t care who he is killing, hurting, or sanctioning it’s just another chance to show why you shouldn’t mess with him and his country and is just one big game to him. It’s definitely not showing America in it’s greatest light and I’ve been to America a couple of times and love Americans and America for their hospitality alone but since Trump came into power I’m starting to see the fruit loops  who I know doesn’t make up the American people I saw on my trips there and time working there too. I mean don’t get me wrong I know there is a lot of bad history the American people and especially the government would rather forget and has deep history in a lot of foul behaviour too much to be getting into here but we all should know some of the issues America has faced and sadly still see one quick example the racism and equality issues it’s meant to get better not worse but people like Trump pander to the stupid and make themselves white as snow when we all know they would double cross you for some heavy change in their pocket. I mean who knows how much money he’s made since he’s been in the White House I don’t even want to think about it as it would wined me up so much. The sickening thing about it is people are started to look at people like Trump like their favourite character on a sitcom or soap instead of sitting down and asking yourselves what does he bring to the table for the world and the country. He knows the cameras are on him and people are eating out his fat greedy hands and he can act like a complete fool and people would still cheer his name and more importantly vote for him cos he’s funny and he’s just like us or so they say and think. I really do think to run for your country you need some maturity and think and speak rationally which I’m not seeing from Trump. I could see people in his office holding him back from certain situations as he flys off the handle and uses brutal force directly and non directly. It’s interesting as the old office of the republicans has came out and full blown said Trump is the worst president in history or something like that and made George Bush and the old office look sweet and innocent even though they were doing dodgy dealings IE the Iraq war and how they dealt with Hurricane Katrina where they abandoned their own people and left them stranded and in dire situations. The fact is he’s nothing like Obama and only does it to pander to anyone who is listening instead of genuinely caring and knowing it’s their responsibility and field. I mean what will the people say if he doesn’t listen to the people he promised the world to even though they were all destined to be his supporters the picket fence American and the celebrity culture we are all in from all around the world. I was disgusted when Trump got nominated for a Nobel Peace Prize I was like if he wins I’m going kick up such a fuss and won’t be happy in the slightest way to make a mockery of the whole system and to the worthy people who deserve the prize why don’t you give Hitler the award and have done with it honestly it’s a outcry he got nominated in the first place it’s like seriously who does he know on the board or how much money is missing from his account after being nominated who’s gassing him up cos they need to sit down and spell out the word humanity on their whiteboard and seriously think about what the prize really stands for. As for being the next messiah him and his son I’m actually spitting up blood I mean what in the blaspheming mockery is this it goes to  show how they can’t use their faith right and are using god’s name in vain to justify their horrible actions and think they are going to heaven. Well I have news for you god will be asking you why you did or believe X,Y,Z, at the gates and why you didn’t follow the bible and it’s teachings. I know Jesus would be begging god for your forgiveness like homosexuality even though this is complete lies and doesn’t say in one bit of the bible about homosexuality being a sin it talks about man and woman because that was the statuary thing it was only when the Vatican brought in laws like making homosexuality a sin to populate the world and it was something they feared and didn’t like to see. So all that Jesus against excuse me for the slur but Jesus against fags is sending you straight to hell and is satanic and in lines with the devil and God will be asking questions like why you feel it necessary to go against the teachings of the bible and his word. It’s funny cos in the bible it teaches you not to persecute people in general and to show compassion and care instead of casting them out you’re not god and have no means of acting in such a disgraceful way I’m sickened. It’s the reason why I turned atheist for a bit until I find it again I grew tired of the false teachings and lies like one pray, confessing to the father or counting your beads will make up for some of their inexcusable behaviour and to justify it all by using the lords name is a joke to Christianity and Catholicism that goes for any religion too but it’s funny how some people look at other’s religions when they are just as bad and at times even worse looking back at the history and to present day which is a washed with trying to dominate the world.               

STEALING BRITIAN

From one clown to the next and another classic example why you should never vote for the popular kid. Bringing up his name Boris Johnson I mean makes me so mad and is just another Torie down the line who didn’t do as promised and mislead people into future danger and uncertainty. I never was the one to like the Tory party I was taught from a early age that they were never for the people and would bleed the country in order to line their pockets and everything was beneficial for the rich. They have hacked a lot of things down to pinch the penny and a lot of funding was taken away but still their kids and themselves can go ice skating, cinema, shopping trips, expensive cars and designers suits cos they can afford taking it from the tax payer and tax man who the tax payer is at the bottom of the chain. I’m so kicking myself as before Boris was Prime Minister he was making guest appearance on shows like Have I Got News For You a British news satire show where they look back at the week’s news. Anyway one of the shows Boris promised and looked straight to the other panel hosts and said he would never run for the government after he was called out for intending to make a mockery of parliament if he ever did run. I mean I was listening but at that time I still liked him the first warning sign was him running for the Tories that was a red flag but justified it all under the pretence he was a nice man who was a bit of a bumbling fool but nothing to alarming about him. Fast forward to the aftermath of his time in parliament I remembered what the other panel hosts said to him and knew I should of listened to them a bit more carefully as he left Britain in tatters and as always nowhere to be seen to answer to his deception which was exactly what they said on Have I Got News For You. Brexit has become one of the biggest controversy since the Iraq war and has shook this country to it’s core. Quick recap it was David Cameron the ex prime minister of England that introduced the subject of Brexit where he asked the British public to vote for or against Brexit without telling people the facts and on the pretence we would become independent and more well off. No one was told of the uncertainty and the fact we would leave the EU and become a country outside Europe which doesn’t make sense to me if you live in Jamaica you still live in the West Indies it’s part of the isles so how can England one of the most famous European countries be outside Europe stop messing with my map. I was alarmed and so pissed when they started to report about the peace treaty that Ireland and England have which was the Good Friday agreement that saw the IRA cease fire with their extreme actions like the bombing. This would of really messed up the treaty up and possibly start another war and bombing and no one was told of the consequences if we voted yes to leaving the EU which thankfully made a lot of people skit like new born horses alarmed for the first time with the sudden noise. The fact is the Tories never liked the Irish and the Irish never liked the Tories let alone us the British public unless you are in the big players circle which doesn’t apply to most people. They would quite easy make us vote for something they know one we don’t benefit from or two might lead them to danger or as I keep saying uncertainty. They are nothing but gambling addicts looking for the next pay out it might as well be a pyramid scheme. You have to think what’s the big agenda and why they pushed so hard to get in their own words Brexit done my guess was to make their pockets fatter and screw everyone over by robbing us all. They didn’t care what was being said or done as long as Brexit was hitting the media and people and in a good light that’s all what mattered. I really do blame Trump for this as he was the one who was talking about building a wall round the border of America and Mexico and was heavily dominated by words like immigrants, the cartel, drug trafficking and rape something that was heavily used in the Brexit roll out it was like they were taking notes on how to scare the goats into action and get them onboard. Not only that he was also talking about making America independent with imports he boasted how they are going to become sufficient and cut out the middle man like China their rival. America is one of the most influential countries in the world and so’s their politics be sure once America changes something someone will follow suit to run along side their laws and bills or feel they should have something the same or similar. And this is another classic example of this and the reason why Boris was running in parliament I blame Trump once again cos without Trump and his rise to power which is basically one big social media ad and him stunting I feel Boris would of never had his seat and Brexit would of never been mentioned or thought of. I think they saw the growth of the right wing and people like Trump to cease the opportunity to take advantage and run a mockery whilst getting rich. I feel quite clearly they Boris and the Tories have been checking Trump and taking notes as they saw the British public kind of warmed to Trump and liked the odd ball because I think both Boris and Trump are odd balls in this political game unlike who came before them which most of them time they were seen as serious people who made serious legislations and bills. They never acted out of place and at the end of the day were professional when they spoke it wasn’t erratic rants and childish antics which they both did. I don’t know how Boris got taken seriously one zip wire incident later he was the people’s princess and everyone or nearly everyone in England was cheering his name that’s why they have been conned it was nothing but a PR stunt to win hearts and he used the that stunt to make way and steal voters by making himself out to be the friendly man who was stuck in this predicament. They should of left him in that harness on that zip wire at least we could see him at all times and know where he was. I want to quickly talk about Tories new leader Kemi Badenosh shock and horror they picked a young black lady and I’m so laughing my head off and not even at her as long story short I welcome the change but the first black Tory even though they need it but what in the scheming bitch is this. I am not buying it for one moment and I know she would run along side what is being said picking up their coats from the floor. This is yet another scheme to appeal to black Britain and anyone who would listen. In my opinion she’s not on a good start she’s a Tory for one which means she comes from a well off background I mean why did they pick her because she can fit in their pocket and thinks just like them so if you are thinking she’s going to be the next Obama here’s your seat sit there and wait for the next non Tory to come though cos she ain’t it mark my words. I don’t know who they are fooling but it’s not me it’s a blatant token black girl after they got called out for being tone deaf racists which okay you can’t have a go at them for listening and becoming more welcoming but with their track record I really do doubt they did it because they cared or even listening to the unheard people and is another rouse to swindle more votes and look good and like they are doing something. How is she meant to sit there and put up with the white working class speech they nicely put on and I was being sarcastic when I said nicely. We all know or should know by now that the Tories are sly money grabbing whores who slyly take your money right from underneath you and the infamous rug pull they are always doing IE taxing you and cutting funding that helps people and stops them from going mad. Also things like youth clubs we used to have them in my day and was a great place to get advice without dropping the bomb to your parents and also somewhere to go and stay out of trouble and off the streets. Thanks to government funding there is no such thing like the youth club and they wonder why kids are going off on one and are misguided there is no youth club something I feel is important to the British kids and all kids around the globe. Not only is it somewhere to go and a good place to get advice it’s also a good place to socialize and relax and have fun. You make friends and bond with your friends and even the youth workers which is all building blocks on growing and becoming a adult. It’s also a safe environment which the parents are always thankful that they can let their kids out without worrying what they really get up to and FYI complete mayhem most nights. But it doesn’t end there they are after all the cake not just a slice they want the whole thing from inheritance, to pensions to cutting out the lights in the streets they left no stone unturned except the eggs they are sitting on. Going back to Boris I really don’t see what he has done for England apart from turn people lose and spinning them in the wrong direction. I mean it’s far less then in the start but there are people out there who still think Boris is a good leader and champ his name still even though Boris isn’t even helping or helped them I should ask the next person who declares their love for Boris what has he actually done to help you or even us all cos I can’t think of one thing. Anything he did do was a strategic move to make him look good or to putting it lightly throw the blanket over the fire. In fact the only time in tuned in to public perception is when he was trying to change minds I mean let’s be serious for a moment he’s a so called politician so it’s only natural to tune in to people’s perceptions and give them what they want and want to hear but this sadly is con men behaviour and movements and I wouldn’t be surprised if they acted out a different scenario when we are not looking. It’s how it looks like they are moving with the times but in fact are stuck in the stone age with a mega agendas we never find or supposed to find out. Everything has a agenda and believe me they are benefiting from everything and is not because they care or are grown ass people like some of them from the opposition side are even then can you trust them too apart from Obama who I would of trusted him and as I said he shown great leader and showmanship and was for the people. In fact I know Obama is the grade A class example of how to run for your country while Boris and Trump are two irresponsible leaders or so called leaders who see this as some sort of power games in fact they are playing snakes and ladders with people’s lives where you win some you lose some and work your way round the board going up the ladders IE being paid fat amounts of money and down the snakes which I would say when you become unpopular and is the start of your demise when you get caught cheating. Not only that the dice is fixed cos they can fix the numbers to whatever number they like and it’s always a high number so we are playing with cheats therefore we will never win with them playing unless you got money or power and can also cheat your roll. I mean those dice were never meant for the normal person to win it’s like rolling and wanting a one to win but the one last sneaks up behind you and keeps getting the double roll which for people who never played snakes and ladders before a double roll is another chance to roll the dice before anyone else or the person in front of you. The other thing that is irritating me about Boris is where is he now once he tipped England upside down and believe me made people stupid like potato stupid. Since Brexit I’ve been racially abused more times then I can count on my fingers and even toes cos I had to stretch a little. There was this horrible echo which I still faintly hear till this day where they think being British or proud to be British is partly being racists as monkey see monkey do. I got people laughing saying how they think it’s funny how my ancestors were enslaved to being called a uncle Tom to even saying how me and my family are immigrants and need to go back home even though and apart from my Grandad and Grandma from my Dad’s side who came over in the Windrush era to work but apart from them we are all British born citizens and we are proud to be black British or me mixed British as my mum is white her mum my grandma R.I.P. is from Scotland and my grandma and grandad R.I.P. are from Guyana. I think my grandad from my mum’s side is both Irish and Scottish as one parent is Scottish and one parent is Irish my great grandparents. Sadly he died when I was around six of heart attack and was too much salt and the reason why I’m so light with the substance but one thing I remember he was always happy to see me and hated the ex prime minister Margaret Thatcher and couldn’t stand to see her in the papers in fact he used to get so irate when there were articles on her praising and bigger her up calling her the coined expression the Iron Lady and so fourth. And for those who don’t know British politics Margaret Thatcher was as I said the ex prime minister of England and run for the Tory party a right wing and watered down Republican party who both work under the same lines only Tories are well known for running off with your money snatching your money, wig, kids, wife, husband, girlfriend, boyfriend anything they can get their fat greedy hands on as long as it’s a fat pile of money at the end of it. The Tories especially tax and penalize the poor by over taxing and major cuts to people’s livelihood whilst the rich have once again power stroked around all the taxes and penalizing obstacles whilst us the lesser off struggle and drown. I’m calling it Titanic the second as we all know the stories of how they treated different classes with the rich getting top class treatment and services while the poor was at the bottom of the ship and didn’t get any top notch treatment and are the same people who were left to drown and freeze in that icy cold water. Well that ladies and gentlemen is how I define Boris and the Tories as a whole as we are too poor and thick to have a opinion or even a say in this whole scenario only when they want to look like they give us our rights which is meant to be vote for the legislations and actually have a say in the matter.  I mean I never voted as none of them put something out that I like and can be trusted. They are never going give me what I want which is legalize cannabis I mean if Boris or a Tory member did that I would have no option but to respect them and their party as I would always fall back to that one thing which well he or they did legalize weed something I always wanted for them to do whoever is in charge and seen it work well for other countries I would even vote hoping for once they would follow up our wishes. But no we are stuck in the stone age and the papers like Daily Mail a right wing British newspaper which is equivalent to watching Fox News but also they are all guilty of spreading fear and misinformation making it out to be a bad drug and it’s a outcry. It’s basically Billy goes to a party CIA public information film on repeat where innocent Billy goes to a party smokes weed and loses his mind. What’s worse is weed head’s are repeating these catch phrases like weed is bad for you and get suckered into it all from media like the Daily Mail but they are all guilty as charged for demonizing weed and making it out like it’s the worse thing ever. I mean granted smoking the wrong stuff like the strain K2  and that bush weed can make you feel very paranoid and at times unable to think straight but it’s alcohol that does the most damage and usually the reason why they fly off the handle doing crazy stuff like killing as reported in the newspapers also suicide which is another topic I see a lot. They always blame cannabis giving one or two sentences about what I think is the real reason is which is drinking alcohol and mixing it with harder substances than cannabis. But everyone reacts differently I can accept that but it’s the way they heavily emphasize cannabis as the reason to their downfall when we all know what it’s like to drink and lose control even if it’s getting mad, crying or a random sex hook up or even something else like self harming or attempting suicide. If Boris really wanted to show a rebellious side or be unruly he would of legalize weed but I really didn’t see him or the Tories to do that as surprise it just don’t benefit them as much as the people or even the sellers and stock holders they just couldn’t find a way to tax it so it was quickly taken off the table and never discussed again. Not only that some of the British media not all of them but the ones I suspect is on the Tory pay role and benefit from their deception have done a marvellous and I’m once again being sarcastic but they did a excellent job of spreading fear and misinformation about cannabis. They made the Tories and Boris alike look like the saviours by giving them preferential treatment by giving them extra time and platforms to speak their junk mail to us cos that’s what it is a email from Nigel from Nigerian talking about how you won a once in a lifetime holiday to a exotic place or a cash sum just give me your bank details and it’s all yours. That’s the thing and once again not all the channels like Channel 4 News and Newsnight on BBC 1 and 2 but there used to be a time where British reporting was getting the truth and honest reporting without the agenda and backsliding that I suspect goes on it was hard hitting and most of the time it was up to the reporter to come down on the person dropping bombs on them and wiping their smirks off their face like they can’t get caught. Now they are practically blowing kisses at them and give them so much air time whilst the good or the gooder guys are made a joke off and get less air time and when they do they got something bad to say about them it makes me wonder who is paying these bitches and what agenda they are told and believe in themselves cos I can’t trust them. I’m appalled that the BBC gave Boris so much air time I know someone profited from it and it as the BBC big wig pockets and their channel I never blamed the reporters as I feel it’s not what they sign up for especially if it they are from the other side or have a bit of colour in their cheeks and not our pure innocent English reporter they are nothing like the Fox news anchors where they are blatantly paid by the republicans one way or another I bet my sweet cheeks on it. The thing Boris did bring out was the American in the English and up until Boris came along and Trump too but ever since they scaffolded into power a lot of people are turning American and to the people who don’t know the continental practice being American means you were and not what I actually believe but I do know it’s a type in America but they are known for being arrogant, irrational and easy to please when it comes to politics whilst being English means you are more diplomatic, rational free thinker who are harder to please when it comes to politics and they ain’t scared off kicking up a fuss and causing a revolt which dates back to the English peasants days and also the infamous Guy Fawkes who tried to blow up parliament in around 1605. Well since Boris and Trump have come to power a lot of British people have ditched their rational free thinking side and jumped ship to become American and they are now easy to manipulate loose in morals and less respect for the world and humanity which is not the British way of thinking. They just don’t care what’s going happen as long as someone is over the barrel and that ladies and gentlemen is how they get you they fed the worse meals they feed you basically with the show they know you will be tuning into and clapping along to it’s all tactile no matter who they are hurting and showing up as long as the public is tuning in and singing along to what I call the devils tune cos by god do they know all the lyrics they don’t actually care they are there fluffing the lines humming the bits you forgot. You know what it’s like learning a song for the first time well that’s Trump and Boris supporters they have no clue the real lyrics and just second guess the real lyrics or have a clue what the songs is actually about in the words of Toni Braxton just another sad love song rocking my brain aw baby. Just as long as it’s number one and popular that’s all that matter it doesn’t even matter if the tricks can sing a note or the substance of the song they only like it cos everyone else does and they are trending and in season. I don’t know when politics become a Coachella festival but it has to stop and something that should be called out Boris and Trump and whoever is similar and on the board cos they shouldn’t be able to pass go and they should pay the 200 monopoly money every time they go round the board IE milk the public over and over again. For those who don’t know what Coachella is it’s a festival hosted for YouTuber and influencers alike where they stand around taking cute pictures and making out like they are doing their job properly which is influence their millions of followers with products which they are sponsored to promote.                                           

YOU BEEN X'D

From clowns to the other Trump’s hand puppet yes Becky with the European hair special case Elon Musk. I don’t know where to start with this man as he’s been rubbing me and other’s up for quite some time now. His unnecessary need to give his dumb opinions every two minutes and make bizarre and silly statements like the one I can never get over how Hitler yes Hitler was misunderstood is laughable but so painfully bad at the same time. I’m really trying to comprehend where he is coming from with that one as what’s there to misunderstand call me washed but Hitler the one quite clearly you look up to killed millions of Jewish people and yes he did I’ve been to the concertation camp in Germany not that I need to believe such a thing it was well documented or most of it was by Hitler and his army. He makes out that the photography taken at the concertation camps was staged which is a old conspiracy now and one only the far right and easily impressed want to believe and they usually are the ones calling the Jews nasty names and think it’s funny as they and to them are greedy big nosed sun of a bitches something that was probably populated by Hitler and his army with all the money, bonds and jewels they stole from them as they slaughtered them. It’s bad enough for them in the stigma and the racism and reasoning of mass genocide they faced. It’s the same with when he had the cheek to say that he thinks the partition was a good thing and how he doesn’t believe in integration with other races. Those words were alarming enough as the well known history in America and also in South Africa where he is from by the way he’s a rich South African white farmer for Pete’s sake who gave the South African white farmer’s son permission to speak or collect his coins he should be manning the equipment on his dad’s farm and fearing the black person like all white South African’s farmer should be doing. Whatever or most things he says is inciting some sort of race war or leading people on to danger sometimes I wonder if that’s what he believes in it all and is just pranking people out of the thrill of it all but I’m not being funny he’s a South African white farmer and they are ones who don’t want to understand the world and agree with things like the partition okay not all of them but I know there’s bad blood between white South African Farmers and Black South Africans and Africa as a whole. They are only decedents which means that’s not their real place of origins and therefore have no right telling the real Africans who originate from there what to do and where to go. In fact how dare you come into a country and reek havoc on their own land. It’s like my gran who as I explained originates from Guyana coming to England and telling English people they are not allowed to drink tea or go to the café for a greasy English breakfast or even worse telling the English oh sorry you are not allowed in this part it’s for Guyanese or black residents only down the road is where you want to  be can you imagine that. I mean I’m trying not to be ignorant but Musk hasn’t exactly painted a beautiful picture of the white South African farmer and was everything I was told and more about them that they aren’t very nice people and don’t care about the world or care to understand people’s problems and views and are nothing more but right wing Klan members. Usually it’s I’m rich I can behave like this and now it’s I’m white and rich them snowflakes can tell me nothing cos what’s the quickest way to defect someone and their views school playground antics like name calling and bullying like getting other people to join in by grasping words like snowflake and throwing it in the air in order to people to latch on to the words and finish their job and do all the dirty work for them at sometimes and at it’s worse suppress the opposition. Climate change is one classic example how Musk, Trump and Boris changed people’s opinion and made it a thing not to believe in climate change and attacked their opponents like the way they dealt with climate activist Gretta Thunberg from Sweden. I made a point of where she is from as Sweden take their climate change and carbon footprint very seriously unlike some countries and were one of the leading countries to make great changes to their country to prevent things like global warming and is one of the cleanest countries in the world when it comes to air population and green house gasses something they swear blind doesn’t exist. But they way they treated her I’m not surprised why she was angry and going further in on them calling her a silly girl, a liar and constantly contradicting her facts and also laughing at her looking at her like some next person to challenge them with these wild claims it was disrespectful especially when it’s coming from a innocent child who wanted to see her and her further kids and your own kids and yourselves future not to mention the rainforest and the animals why don’t you have a go at Mother Thresa while you at it. All of them I mentioned Trump, Musk and Boris and whoever is against Gretta is nothing but money grabbers and spinning stories from their ears which is deny the facts of global warming all to save them billions from not becoming energy sufficient. It’s in their best interest to deny it and I can assure you without proving it they spent millions instead on spinning the narrative that global warming was just another conspiracy cooked up by activists and governments to sell us the new vision which was becoming a energy efficient world  which they would pocket a huge amount of money from products and deals brought to the table by this great change. No business especially the massive companies are going vote for someone who is going make them pay out millions and billions in order to meet the governments demands it’s like asking the snobby rich kid to think of the poor for once they would be pissing themselves with laughter on just the thought alone. Not only that they think they are well too superior to others and don’t have to reason with no one it’s the whole that’s why your money is short you don’t know  how to run a business something they have all said. Elon is the real hand puppet in this whole thing and like Trump and Boris they come from a business background which means they can’t be trusted when it comes to deny things like global warming it’s them who would have to fork out the money which in a global roll out would cost them all trillions we just swap light bulbs for more energy efficient bulbs and boil the kettle less and lastly turn down the heating to 20 degrees and we done our bit. That’s why they all go out there way to spin such narratives cos they know we are all behind it and doing our bit and wouldn’t waver from it until you start to bring out the big guns and spin your own narratives like global warming doesn’t exist and we were all lied to it catches all the conspiracies theorists off guard and make them stand to attention and then of course you got the stupid too who would buy anything that is being fed to them. It’s weird as people like Elon Musk has a agenda which is get uncontrollable rich and try to sway people and their views in the process and instead of people asking what his agenda is and as always it turns out to be not for the people they ass clap along to the devils riddem and in his and the other’s circus they are trying to be the ring leader even though they ain’t leading me or them I mean I’m not impressed one bit they better cut the mic and wrap it up real quick as they have already made a spectacle of themselves their country and lastly us all. Elon seem to think the white population is the dominate force and how they need to start taking back what they own and this is coming from a white South African who wasn’t even originating from Africa the prick is partly Dutch I think that’s his real birth place. He needs to seriously take a DNA test and look at the map and find out the truth that they invaded Africa and populated parts of South Africa and made it seem like it was a white country and they are true Africans and had a right to act the way they do and even vote cos they are Africans when really they are nothing but decedent citizens who should be carefully how they tread. In my opinion they should of cleared out long time ago and give South Africa their land and rights back they are in their own country. No one can tell me nothing especially a migrant or immigrant no shade thrown and it’s the same thing no one should be telling them where they should be hanging around anywhere in the world for that matter the world is meant to be a free and open place and in reason you should be allowed to go and settle wherever you like without the stigma of being the Johnny foreigner and called a immigrant and made out to be the outcast especially in their own country but other people’s too. Musk should of stuck to his car company and concentrate on his social media company. That’s the other thing I’ll bring up when it was known as the old name Twitter it was a space to get seen and interact with people  fast forward to the rebranding and renaming it to X it’s become just another platform to exploit their users of their money and owned by a narcistic bastard who wants to to make the gates of hell to open and shut like it was a automatic door at your favorite shopping store. I have taken it upon myself not use Twitter until that man retires and someone more in tune with the world takes his place even though that means missing out on potential listeners for my music and stuff I make I rather starve. I even refuse to call it X and still call it Twitter as petty as that is there is no way I’m going to dance to one of the devil’s songs and be in tune with a right wing rich guy who infamously said Hitler was misunderstood and I’m still laughing and also how the partial was a good thing you can’t be serious and expect me to run along side you like these things said was cool and acceptable cos sweetie I got news for you they really ain’t and people won’t put up with it a part from the stupid and people like you honestly enjoy your soup siiiir. I wonder what black Twitter are thinking and if they took action cos there is no point lining his pockets for a moment longer he doesn’t care for you or the people of all colours and creeds for that matter. I mean I’m not suggesting that black Twitter and anyone who is reading this should follow suit and I don’t easily follow the cancel culture but I feel and I am speaking for myself sometimes you need to take action and stop supporting the ones who profit from funds you contribute to and are everything you hate about this world or not showing any sign of improvement on behaviour and keep butting heads and in this case intentional butting heads to revoke some sort of action and in this case and with Elon Musk trying to start a race war. He was just one person who kicked the hornet’s nest and suggested that a race war was coming and we better pick a side and fast. This caused lots of people to lose focus and jump in without thinking declaring themselves on this or that side. I don’t know who asked him to make such a stupid and harmful statement but it was uncalled for as we are all already in a egg shell situation where we are all treading lightly and trying to do the wrong thing and most important of all make the world especially the guilty countries like America and Great Britain and Germany come to think about  a better place and where we are all trying to change the perceptions of our countries and trying to move on from our gritty past but not forgetting it and it serves as a reminder why we can’t afford to paddle backwards to old comforts and past times cos there is no room for small minded people and how they are and we as people how are we supposed to do our job of making the world smile again even if it’s for two minutes. This is why in my opinion why Elon shouldn’t be welcomed he’s the reverse button when we should be switching gears and taken it up a notch or even put in drive and just cruise. Either way anything is better than this toxic behaviour Elon shows that isn’t helping a already unstable situation and puts people on the wrong path. Our grandparents fought a war the Second World War to be exact not to be beaten by some rich snobby man or leader with bad intentions. In fact  most of them would be also coughing up blood to find out their grandchildren, son’s and daughters and what have you are eating up the whole cake and listening to people like Elon a very toxic egotistic man  with bad intentions. They talk about being proud to be British but seem to forgot how to be British and the fundamentals of the Second World War which was to fight against fascism and dictatorship fast forward to 2025 they are in love with fascism and being right wing even though their grandparents fought a war for us all which was against something they now support I mean was it even worth them strapping up in the first place only to save the jews and their situation. At the end of the day all what Elon has said and I’m strongly against is all bad right wing ideology and straight from the text book of the anti Christ himself Hitler and his army. He’s reading the devil’s verse word from word and people are as I said before are singing along and badly making it now a headache and a growing problem around the world. Something that I think everyone should know Hitler, his army and even the old CIA propagated conspiracies about the Jews after the war was over to justify their actions a growing tooth ache in any countries politics we all see to this day. Also stuff that is still being echoed by the thick and angry like the conspiracy of how the Jews were trying to take over the world and how the world was ran by powerful Jewish people and as I said and not my words  but also how greedy they claim they were which is all Hitler’s reasoning and fears about the Jews and is the reason why he committed mass genocide with innocent people who were none of these things and that I bet my life with. He like all the right wing members are worried about being made the minority and become the unheard and like all of the right wing members are scared of foreigners and never cared to integrate or be part of the ever changing community as they can’t relate and have a fear of being overpopulated by foreigners or people of colour.. Around the world there is a mass problem in each country and is not exclusive to one country which is your the rookie you’re not from around here and do not welcome the foreigners in their country and like America and England they make it their duty to tell them that they are not welcome in their country and to go home basically because they are too proud to be British or American and shout their mouths off too much it’s like Elon he’s over proud to be a white South African.                 

POOR TONY ROBINSON

From one hand puppet to another and this time it’s not Trump’s pet but more the Tories pet even though they don’t necessarily eat from the same bowl like the lap dogs they are. I’m talking about the Advance party leader Tommy Robinson and not to be confused with Tony Robinson the British actor, comedian and TV presenter which unlike Tommy a national treasure something Tommy probably hopes to be and tries so hard to do so. Tommy has made a few controversial guest appearances on our TV but the one that really got me mad was how he hijacked the Tories speech right at the beginning of the Brexit fiasco and where he jumped the already tone deaf speech of being British and working class by whoever  was Prime Minster at the time and I think it was Theresa May to replace it being white and proud to be British and what irritated me even more instead of doing the right thing and distancing themselves from the far right party the Tory party said nothing and allowed him to rot people’s brains with hate speech and misinformation and also allowed him to have a platform same with the news channels they gave him his voice and allowed him to spread misinformation and fake facts all in order to meet the agenda’s requirements which was to get Brexit done and judging by their non actions at any cost. This is from a person Tommy being the person in question who was against the Tories and actually didn’t like them or the way they swallowed massive amounts of money and was well known for giving anti government and anti Tories speeches but this could be another case of agendas and pandering to growing fears and I think would be just like the if he had the chance. What’s even worse Tommy has grown some momentum and has grown fans and I’m not on about British people he’s collected along the way fucking Elon Musk and Holly Valance are two of his upmost supporters even though it’s a stretch to call them his upmost supporters IE celebrity supporters  as Elon just doesn’t have the people’s backing or match up to be a real celebrity  and he has to borrow the Trump supports for that and as for Holly Valance no one can remember who she was after that one hit wonder and she disappeared into obscurity like bitch you seriously ain’t going get your second coming on the back of Tommy stop pretending and playing us right away. Even Steps a British pop band is more famous then Holly Valance for their music but it’s like Steps turning up to your rallies Obama had Beyonce and Joe Biden had Taylor Swift even Trump had Kanye West at one point and there’s Tommy with whooom you may ask I’m pissing myself laughing fucking Holly Valance like bitch I preferred you when you were on Home And Away and I was lead to believe you were a nice person instead of this old hag you have turned into and as I said I know it’s for beneficial game stop playing. I wouldn’t be surprised if she had music dropping right after her appearance with Tommy I was expecting it oh my bad no one wants a has been especially a one hit wonder has been apart from Tommy who probably thought he as touching royal cloth I can’t I’m dying inside. Okay so she appeared on the Aussie soap Home and Away but she’s hardly Kylie Minogue her sister Dani or their brother Daniel also the old cast from Prisoner Cell Block H also known as Prisoner in the US or any of the original or even current actors on Home Away or Neighbours give me those and Skippy also the Round The Twist cast with immediate effect. As if Holy could pull in the crowds for Tommy like you got to be easily impressed to run with it it’s the equivalent to going to a gig, concert or somewhere and seeing the main headlines and being disappointed as it’s scraps and someone who is just keeping a  float after that one hit they had but still they manage to find a stage to sing on and that’s being disrespectful to them as there’s actually nothing wrong with it but I didn’t come all this way to see the 90s and 00’s pop bands I came for a show so give me one please and make me have stars in my eyes instead of dull eyes. I mean I think it was a half on a baby affair where they both took advantage of their status Tommy being the right wing leader and Holy being the celebrity even though I do think she’s a one hit wonder and that statement is laughable at the very best they came together to use the time to gain popularity with separate agendas Tommy’s agenda was to get more follower and votes and Holly’s agenda was to get recognized and the spotlight back on her after a decade or two of going missing from the spotlight cos don’t think she came along to the rally just to show support  for Tommy and his movement oh how silly of you to think so. Once again they are taking a leaf from America’s book by using celebrities in this case I would call her a ex celebrity to fill up the seats so to speak and unlike Obama and Bidden this was just another rouse by Tommy and now Tommy’s personal hand puppet Holly Valance to win votes and to also win back the votes after he was infamously dumped by the reform party leader Nigel Farage at the alter. It’s funny as I don’t know where I stand with Nigel Farage he hates the Tories great start my ears are burning already he seems to listen to what people are saying and promises great things for Britain if he was elected excellent move sir and also he came down from the Brexit ride and started opposing against it and Tommy Robinson talking about how he wished he never joined the conversion or joined Tommy’s party me too but what is this I hear about making England a non migrant zone and sending them all packing back to where they came from so to speak. I would love to see Nigel make the rich and well off companies pay their taxes like normal people do and not evade the tax man or be allowed to evade the tax man and the tax payers who pay so much more but kicking the migrants out the country is not the answer everyone claims it to be and all thanks to pure pressure applied by the media and newspapers where they are adamant it’s the immigrants who is eating up the money which has nothing to do the migrants who come to this country to study and work not cause trouble and get loose with it. Even if he did send them packing who’s going fill in the jobs cos there is a whole who ha and not just in this country but they make these wild claims that the  migrants are taken all the jobs when really I don’t see anyone else making the effort to keep a stable job and even take orders from their boss show me the so called people who are losing out jobs for replacement migrants and then I would consider what you say. They are only here to take the jobs no one else is applying for and to fill that void of workers who make your world go round. In fact without the migrants services would be slower, ques would be longer and most things will nearly be at a stand still which means slower delivery times for your goods you purchase online, your food and stuff  and more people will become ill and have to put up with the pain and whatever it is as the migrant doctors especially in your A&E now have to deal with the backlog of patients they can barely get through the whole of England would be bursting from the seams and something out of the Madonna video when the pearl neckless gets broken and the beads go scattering all over the floor well that would be us all. I don’t think even Nigel has thought it through carefully and properly and was a rushed attempt to win votes it’s easy for someone to be so quick to jump to it but can they provide and if he does what will happen in the aftermath. The confusing thing about Nigel and defines him more than Tommy is his off and on relationship with Brexit and his racists beginnings which he has done well distancing himself from the riff raff like Tommy and has become more trustworthy or at least he speaks a good game but is he yet another one who panders to your fears, so called knowledge and wishes I know I’m being a cynic but none of them and I mean all of them never do as they are told and have agendas they can’t wait to lay out on the table and usually it’s them who profit it from it not the people we get the consolation prize which is a measly a couple of hundred quid we get giving as hush hush money to keep us complacent and voting for them it worked for Boris a treat when he slashed benefits and gave us £300 as a bargain deal as if the £300 was good enough to make up the real amount of money we was losing out on each fortnightly and now paid monthly as believe me I’m not the greedy one or one to complain about how much I get but that was a swindle and they know it. The entire benefits system is messed up but at the same time is a blessings as I get my money and for a week or two I’m on top of the world until the money runs out then it’s all a downwards spiral action. But once again it’s a blessings as we are one the few countries to pay the sick and even people out of work which is why it’s so messed up to begin with but we are intitled to the money giving and helps a lot of poor and ill people pay bills, buy food and you might even have enough to go and treat yourself with something nice with the money you pinched your purses and wallets with or you went mental and you made a purchase with the money you intended to spend on something constructive like food but you go without in order to make you temporally happy and in my case and maybe yours as well keeps you active and busy for a while cos it’s all about keeping the mind as busy as possible to spare your sanity. Moving on to someone I never intended to add to the conversation but I was just talking about benefits so let’s talk about Mr so on the Tories payroll looking bitch Mr Jeremey Kylie. For those who don’t know who Jeremy Kylie is he’s a British chat show host who spends most of the time queuing claps from the audience and shouting at his guest calling them inexcusable names like scum and wrongens for mostly smoking weed and not doing anything with their lives and even family. The main theme of the show is shouting at people for smoking weed and not having jobs or not trying to get a job or for not stepping up to the table and being there for your own children which is the lesser crime of his. It’s badger baiting where the guests are the badgers and get fed to the dog pack leader Jeremy and the audience who are the lap dogs and are just there to make some noise when get queued. To put it all into perspective before Jeremy we had shows like Trisha and the other one sorry I forgot your name it was another lady though the shows were serious talks with a little bit of shouting say when Trisha would get irate with one of the guest but it was usually a sarcastic reply from the likes of people like Trisha who never stuck on one side or made them feel ashamed of themselves when they are not making a show of themselves that is I mean you act up your getting owned even though Trisha never intended to run around with their weave tightly clutched in her hands like bitch I got your head piece tell me what you are going to do again. Fast forward to the days of Jeremy Kylie he would snarl get in their face like right in their face spitting whilst yelling in their face he was acting way to aggressive for my liking and the way he belittle them and that’s before he got to the real facts which was they ran off cheating on them which left them option but to runaway and act the way they act even though and bottom line domestic violence is non acceptable and unless it’s a one sided bullying situation where they get off by on your pain IE being helpless  scared and feeling the pain it works both ways and I’ve seen it myself countless times where they drink too much and get all in their face attacking them by hitting them and winding them up by not leaving them alone when asked to this is for both sexes but it’s bound to happen that someone will have enough and attack on purpose and by accident. Some people I don’t get like the people who just don’t care and would put hands on you male and female then you got people like me who say well if you are going attack me don’t think you can use the girl card and get away it even though I never hit a girl or woman in my life but I seen some cases and I have to ask myself was she asking for it though cos most cases they gave them ample of time to stop what they are doing and they gave them enough time to calm down and stop attacking them it’s being taken advantage of as they know most men and boys don’t hit girls and woman and is under the pretence that they are a girl or a woman and I never hit a girl or woman true gentlemen. Going back to Jeremy Kylie before I got side tracked I would like to know how or what he personally gained from the Tory pay out as he concentrated mainly on people on benefits and treated them like dirt and some were unjustifiable mean behaviour it wouldn’t surprise me if he was a Tory voter and paid them handsome amounts of money to help with their campaigns. He screams Tory supporter without even saying a thing and I would be surprise if he didn’t like them and their legalisation. Feeding live animals like badgers to a wild dog is cruel and I was shocked how benefit Britain looked up to Jeremy and didn’t find any of his behaviour mean or out of place. He was the voice of reasoning in their eyes instead of the voice of the man and the man is  always shouting at the lesser off without fully understanding the full situation which starts with the way benefits are giving out and their own struggles they deal with that Jeremy insists to their guests that they are lying they are not really that ill and how they need to find a job instead of smoking weed and moping around doing nothing. That is the remerging pattern in most Jeremy Kylie shows which that sentence is completely tone deaf to the situation and doesn’t help them find their feet any quicker and take charge by getting a job and quitting weed for good. If anything blame the government and shout at them as people are only collecting what they are told money they are intitled to and you can’t blame a person for cashing in and collecting their money they know they can get cos unlike you Jeremy people starve people run out of electric people want nice things too for themselves and their kids. We now live in a materialistic world thanks to the growth of social media and even more easy accessible stuff  we spend our money on blame them too but with me I’m happy with the things I got and buy and I wouldn’t call myself materialistic in the slightest but I know a lot of people who are and there’s nothing wrong with having nice things it’s when you think you are better and more superior to people who can’t afford these things and are lesser off than you like everyone needs to follow the fashion cos that’s what  it is a fashion runway show and it’s forever touring. Moving backwards to Mr Pitbull AKA Jeremy Kyle and for those who don’t know how it ended one of his guest committed suicide after being set upon on his show and not so long after that he quickly got taken off air never to be seen on TV again. It was only after the news came out that he was responsible for someone’s death on his show did people start to ask questions and see him for the nasty piece of work that he is and in short turning against him. To put it all into perspective the people on the show are usually poor council estate people which is the equivalent to a housing project seen in America those people are at a disadvantage where like the housing projects in America not a lot of people move up state into their dream house,  with their dream dog, dream babies the lot. They find it the hardest to find and maintain a job and as much as they would love to be chasing some serious money life circumstances like broken homes, drug and alcohol abuse, criminal records, mental health issues and countless other factors play a massive roll if you sink or swim in this world even though they find other means like drug dealing to make up the fact they can’t and never will work in their lifetime. Not only is it about making money is also doing something productive with your days even though it means stacking shelves as some people like my friend he enjoys stacking shelves and doing the manager special but he is quite clear by saying he only does it cos he’s got no choice and even I said I really couldn’t see you on the dole living like me he was never cut out for that and neither was I come to think about but it was my mental health that stopped me from working and left me a shell, suicidal and stagnated after it came to a crashing end when all the funding and money ran out and I wasn’t get requested as much or at all. This is why I never saw where Jeremy was coming from when he was getting all in their face calling them scumbags, a embarrassment to Britain and other cute names and when I mean cute they really wasn’t and as I said they were actually quite mean and tone deaf to their own personal situation. What it really is is he’s taking out his anger and frustration out on his guest like that’s his focus of releasing bad energy we all have still burning strong inside us and no that’s not a good thing bad energy needs to come out somewhere most people would go for a run, go to the gym and bang the weights aggressively, dance, sing it out and then you got people who find it easier to do their best Braveheart impression and yell it out which is harmless if you are doing it when alone and not around people but in the case of Jeremy verses the guest he should of tried to tone it down a bit and not be so scary and aggressive to people who don’t know better I mean the innocent ones cos some of them are guilty as charge and need the whole Jeremy Kylie work out but there are some I think it’s Jeremy who needs to sort out his issues and do his job properly which give them the help they need and stop coming down on them when there is something you don’t like. Here’s the thing though I honestly think he is a decent guy despite him being paid or cheered on by the devil at the very least. He does care and shows it by yelling at lot and calling them nasty names cos he passionate and  can actually show compassion which is usually the innocent one who just want answers or closure to the whole thing. He never goes straight down the line a part from when they are both are in the wrong or right which he bumps their heads together and tries to draw up some sort of conclusion to sort both their lives out or in some cases the whole family. Whatever the case and like most chat shows but I’m thinking of Jeremy Kylie, Jerry Springer and also Dr Phill but they are all exploitive as fuck and even though they are trained clinks nothing will prepare the guest of the exploitation you will find in these shows not unless you are already a fan and you tuned in and know what time it is as some people are fully aware what happens when the cameras come on which is most of the time get fed to the sharks but saying that shout out to the people who went on Jerry Springer especially as they know how to laugh at themselves and have fun with it and then you got the ones who don’t care. The problem with both Jeremey Kylie and Jerry Springer it’s orchestrated a bit which means influencing behaviour by what I heard giving them alcohol and feeding them stories about each other that would build tension and make good TV when they are out on the stage. In Jeremy Kylie case they would use the victim and wind them up and get them g’d up to give the story that good girl gone bad fights back or to put it in another way the Spit On Your Grave story where she’s had enough of being victimized by her attackers and takes upon herself to teach them a lesson they won’t forget in the a long time IE kill them off one by one. This is because deep down most of us like a good fighter and can’t stand a girl or boy but mainly girls who don’t fight back and just puts up with it it’s actually sad to watch and hurts me so when I do see it. But as I said even though Jeremy cares and wants them to do good deep down it’s still a very you been exploited show and I would actually put it in the same lines as Jerry Springer the number one exploitation chat show to date and the Jeremy Kyle show can keep up with the Jerry Springer show by milking their guests even though they both care deep down and not the ones to usually take advantage  and exploit someone’s but I’m sure they know the phrase it’s a  dog eat dog world which actually related to the hierarchy pecking order we are all in and is usually a way to justify their usually brutal force or inexcusable behaviour like Jeremy Kylie and is also about how you must keep on top and do the swiping as if you don’t the next man or woman would come along and swallow you whole the whole eat up or be eaten. Not only is it exploitive but it makes rubbish TV and nothing to do with Jeremy more Jeremy’s need to shout at everyone and the fact he makes sarnies out of them which he digest like he’s eating shrimp gone in a flash. It didn’t make me feel better or like I was going to take action and get off the sick. In fact it left me angry and sad to know that that this is now mainstream views that people were buying and cheering for and making out like we were not working on purpose and that we all enjoy sitting down smoking weed and playing the computer all day every day. Until I found my hobbies which is making music, my three websites and a couple of other stuff that’s all I had a limited supply of weed and my trusted PlayStation and X Box 360 throughout the years. Most times I had nothing better to do and didn’t even want to play the games on my PlayStation and X Box 360 and sitting there in empty quiet room is the worse thing to do and drives you insane which is why it’s important to find a hobby you enjoy or spend time on your computer until you get bored or ready for bed. I had no pets to take out at the beginning until I got my dog Patch and found another hobby to take up walking and boy did we do a lot of walking that dog was well exercised up to the point where her back legs were giving way and I only took her outside my flat on the greenery bit to do her business and come straight back in. I found other’s things to do with my time other than play the computer all day every day and until the new Grand Theft Auto comes out I doubt I’ll play another game until then I might swap hands and invest my time instead and make up for lost time and binge play until my eye balls fall out but I ain’t played a game on my PlayStation 4 for at least a decade now and am too busy to be switching it and just relaxing I’m on the move and as the song by Soul II Soul goes keep on moving don’t stop now as I’m finally starting to see the results of my fruits of labour.    

IN CONCLUSION

Okay firstly of I would like to thank you for coming to the end of this long drawn out blog post. No way was this a attack on anyone’s beliefs and if I hurt your feelings your not feeling my pain and are nothing more then a right wing sympathizer who is part of the the growing problem I highlighted. I’ve really had a enough with the taunts, lies and force feeding and I feel it was about time I hopped on my own podium and start giving my opinions as enough is enough you’ve eaten all my larder in one fat scoff and I’m not going to sit here for a minute longer and allow you to make out we don’t exist and nothing more then as I said before snowflakes and whinny babies who hate to lose or spoiling a good fight. I don’t see you Elon on the field fighting for white rights and I don’t see Trump strapping up  and being on the front line and I definitely don’t see Boris taking the bullet from the IRA and as for Tommy Robinson I don’t see him either on the front line of the race war and ask me where they all are in the comfort of their houses, jets, cars etc sipping on luxury items the stupid funded in donating to their parties and most if not all parties accept donations and I’m not talking the thoughtful quid or dollar which helps them along the way it’s thousands and in some causes a wallop of money and usually they pocket it for themselves and not even use it to advance their parties they run cos how do you think that mortgage gets paid they must think it just floats into the banks pockets. I’m tired of people not reading the situations which is not their fault but to the people who don’t care and and see this as some unruly government revolt you need some serious help I mean how do you get the fork in your mouth and dress yourself and do you know your real name I’m starting to doubt it. The fact is the joke is on them and are they are the butt of their and also our jokes cos I heard enough and the next person who tries it is getting several fire crackers up your ass and I’m going to make you light up like a Christmas tree MERRY CHRISTMAS. They seem to think they are big and clever but I can see the stains in your pantyliners from here for Pete’s sake would it kill you lot to wash your pantyliners every now and and then it’s kicking up a stink. I think you have farted your way to the top enough so go back to where you came from and grow the fuck up. On a more serious note this is not acceptable and I see you hanging your asses out the window while your chauffer drives you past the poor sick and needy that they don’t care about. How many times are they and we going to let them get away with blue murder and allow them to keep flashing middle fingers at us they might as well told us all to and putting it lightly to fuck off a long time ago and I know it’s not might as well have but for suring it it’s us who should be doing the middle finger pose along side the resting bitching face at them cos they are bathing you and not with hot water it’s cold dish water they throw on you when you least expect it which is meant to wake you up and giving them your full attention or so they claim that was meant to happen. I mean myself and others like me wasn’t born yesterday we can read and stay on top of things and when that happens it will be lights out for all of them as there is only so much the real people can take and as for their so called supporters when they see the light they ain’t going be too happy with them when the ball drops and they realize Santa isn’t real and they won’t be getting the PlayStation 5 for Christmas they are going be so pissed with them and they are going to find out they were lied to and taken advantage for political and beneficial gain they are going to bring the hammer down. The thing I found with politics is they are only in for the mean time and even though I think Trump has overstayed his welcome in the White House he too will have a fall and become unpopular same with all of them in fact. They all are going to have to work extra hard to bring all the demands and things they promised to the table to keep the seats and they are never going to keep up the ball for that long their days are marked and they either know it or don’t know it which is why they are trying to grab as much money as possible before scampering into the night with their no our bags of money in their fat greedy greasy hands. Don’t forget the saying politicians make great liars and are nothing but swindlers in suits cos as much as they dress up in the dare I say normal clothes and also their tailored suits they will never meet the requirements to become a great leader which takes listening to the people and providing for them not to misplace voters who believed in you and your stupid party and want them to prove themselves and other’s wrong and they can follow through a plan with no agenda only to make the country or the world a little happier. That is true leadership and something that is hard to come across as everything is tagged with prices and hidden agendas that doesn’t help the real people like some of their voters and supporters who are being taken advantage of and made a mockery but in the name of Faith Evans you better check yourself respect yourself you better go for self cos I flow for self you gets no love from me. Honestly I got to the sour point where if I know you are sniffing the pantyliners of the opposition and FYI they stink I might start falling out with you and that was never me but from Brexit to Trump I had enough of the potatoes as we can all go round acting bad and being mean not that I want to but at the same time don’t ever forget a bad bitch don’t give a fuck and you just ain’t it got it spud brain. They ain’t scaring me they ain’t bullying me and making me cry impossible how can a potato make me cry they have never had a real job or even know how the world is run and oh sweetie that’s how not to run the country there’s only one man for me and dare I say negro without the papers yes I am talking about Obama. Say what you will Donald and co will always be in Obama shadow and Trump is trying so hard to be like Obama who Obama was a trillion times better at running then Trump it’s embarrassing how that bitch is trying to play catch up like stop he out did you on second base strike your out And the haters are going say I only liked Obama cos he was black actually I’m not going to deny that was a factor but you are the opposition and have no idea hat it meant for America and the world and how life changing it was and not only that as I said before he did a excellent job of running and remained calm and collective throughout his time in the White House whilst Trump threw the bath water out and screamed and pouted to get his own way he’s doing it again as we speak. You must some sort of different thick to buy into the Trump effect  this is all just one big race row to you and that’s what I’m trying my hardest not to laugh at cos thinking about it what is funny about a race row oh wait there a minute tell me again how much you love Taylor Swift again no shade to her I’m saying Barack was the don and Beyonce is a inspiration eat my shorts in the rudest way possible. Lawd I’m killing these hoes and god gave me this mouth and fingers to type quick in order to see all your asses. To wrap it up I am not sorry for what I believe in I feel sorry for the people in the middle and the people they left out and I’m laughing at anyone who still think these people are good humble people who show great leadership cos let me know when their brain cells starts kicking in. Let’s face it they all don’t intend on helping us or anyone in their country and are working against us and humanity and as I keep saying they are making a mockery of it and anyone who paved the way for a brighter and better world. As the world spins and the world gets bleed of it’s resources the devil is on our back telling us what we want to hear and pander to our wishes they cooked up in the first place so we are being spooned fed their meals which is a unhealthy amount of lies, two table spoons of manipulation and don’t forget the table spoon of sugar to douse the distasteful taste you get when the taste finally reaches your taste buds and if you can handle that then you need the napkin to wipe off the substances of lies and deception from your fat chin and need help there’s nothing more to add or say I’m not supporting the right wing as if I would steer away from the people who are and think like me and as I said a million times Hitler was a bad man no matter how much they sugar coat it #peoplepower.  

L.A. Investigators – Sanctuary Or Satanic

August 31, 2025

INTRODUCTION

It’s a topic that has been brought up time after time and a damn right good one two the subject of backmasking in popular songs. For those who don’t know what backmasking is I explain quickly with a quick definition.  Backmasking is a recording technique where a message or sound is intentionally recorded backward onto an audio track that is played forward, creating hidden or reversed messages that can only be understood when the track is played in reverseArtists have used this for artistic or comedic effect, for satiric purposes, or to censor explicit words for “clean” releases. While sometimes a deliberate artistic choice, backmasking gained notoriety in the 1980s amid conspiracy theories about secret satanic messages in heavy metal music, which have since been largely disproven. I’ve always been into finding new backmasking songs especially when I was younger which I used to make it jump to get the hidden message which okay isn’t good for the disk reader but boy did I get a thrill when I managed to hit it just in time. The first time was a fluke though which is how I discovered the so called hidden messages.  There are many allegations to why they back mask and it’s from the Illuminati to the devil worshipping to cooler but more scarier heights like secret plans and fixed terrorist plots like the 9/11 conspiracy which I think rings some truths in as something isn’t right but that’s a whole new story. The first recordings of backmasking was  “Car Trouble” by The Eligibles in 1959, which features two nonsense reversed passages. However, The Beatles popularized the technique with their experimental use of reversed tape in songs like “Tomorrow Never Knows” and the vocal backmasking in their 1966 single “Rain,” which also accidentally led to the “Paul is Dead” conspiracy theory. Rewind to the 2010s I would of been up in arms calling them all satanic devil worshippers but fast forward to now I’m in a good state and kept a open mind when compiling the tracks I have on this post. My conclusion will be at the end to what I think all this merlarky is about so stay tuned for that. After making a interactive post around backmasking and can be found on my randomgas.com/boiler-room page if you haven’t seen it already but after making that I decided to jump further down the rabbit hole so to speak and break down some of the sections of some of the songs I played in that interactive piece.  Below you will find well talked and debated about songs that are accused of using backmasking in their songs and many of things actually. I didn’t do the whole song which I cut up into bits and reversed it I did the juicy bits which I tried out myself and recorded each bit of the song and reversing it. You will find four versions of the clips the original clip which is played in forward motions and then you have the reversed clip of the original track and then the other two are me one in forward motion and the other in reversed to see if it was all by accident or more of a calculated plan of action stay tuned.   

LADY GAGA - PAPARAZZI

This song Paparazzi by Lady Gaga has been in some controversy surrounding backmasking and the hidden messages within the song. There’s a couple of messages about Lucifer  and some weird admissions but this is  just standard satanist vibes you would expect from a shed skinned creature we call A Star celebrities.  The first two clips are of the start of the song and reversing the first clip seen below you get the message 

“The star above, above he follow your wish no you’re not funny”     

 

It is suggested that the star refers to the Morning Star and is a Christian interpretation of Isaiah 14:12, which describes a once-exalted figure, the “morning star,” who has fallen from heaven. This term was later linked to the Latin word for “light-bringer,” Lucifer, and applied to the fallen angel, Satan. However, the biblical “morning star” is also a title for Jesus in Revelation 22:16, highlighting a stark contrast: Jesus is the true “bright morning star,” representing eternal light, while Satan’s “morning star” signifies his fall into darkness. It is also suggested that he refers to Lucifer or the devil and he followed their (the people she is meant to be singing about) wishes which is suggested to be a blood sacrifice or mass misconception one of the devils favourites tricks. And whatever it is she is not amused and telling someone they are not funny whatever that means I have no clue.

Saying it myself over the microphone and reversing the clip you kind of get the same message   but it tails off to some inaudible bits but listen carefully and you do get the message 

“The star above above he follow your wish”

 but tails off with the no you’re not funny part.  I’ll leave it in the sanctuary section and pass this off as a coincidence and something that wasn’t forced except for the last part the “No you’re not funny” part that didn’t transfer in my own recordings which does suggest a bit of hokey pokey.  

Play this part in reverse you get a shocking message which is

“The star above, above he modelled on the arts of Lucifer, on the baby”

It is suggested that Lucifer was the angel of music which they modelled the music on even though this is not true.  There is no biblical or definitive historical evidence that Lucifer was the angel of music While some interpretations of Ezekiel 28:13 suggest he had musical instruments incorporated into his being, this verse refers to the King of Tyre, and the terms “tabrets” and “pipes” are often translated to mean the settings for the precious jewels on his body, not actual a musical instrument but is still heavily speculated till this day.

Saying it myself over the microphone and reversing the clip you nearly get the message that she was singing I got 

“The star above above he… inaudible…arts of Lucifer” 

Know that I think about it the followed part did seem more force but I have no proof to back it up with so I’m going to leave it in the satanic pile as even though I don’t think she’s a devil worshipper as such it’s still roots.

Play this part in reverse you get another weird message which is

“On the arms of your bible, step on someone evil save us”

For those who don’t know celebrities as a whole are accused of being satanic and not following the bible hence why it’s suggested she’s saying your bible not our bible. They are also accused of stepping on people to get where they need and should be and also the conspiracy of Satan coming to save them on judgement day a day where they are supposed to align themselves more with the devil or Lucifer.  

 

Making my own recordings and reversing it I got;

“On the arms of your bible….inaudible…evil save us”

Bible and evil save us is pretty much clear but the rest is just gibberish so I pass this off as sanctuary and just a accident   or though and again there seems to be forced words I call them forced as they are words that have or may have been edited later on down the production line but who knows. 

Play this part in reverse you  get another weird message which is

“Help me please someone inside me”

It is speculated that the celebrities like Lady Gaga are leaving in misery and a slave to the Illuminati and they are pleading for people to free them from the mental and physical abuse they are supposed to live with. It is also speculated that Lady Gaga is just one of many who secretly live as reptilians and that is what is inside her or she is a proper loon and she lives with voices and torment this has all be speculated.   

My own recordings and reversing the clip I get a slight  message which is

“Help ma please”

It is hard to pick up the audio but if you listen carefully you will hear it but not the best clearest message in the list but it just about passes so I put this in the sanctuary pile and  call it another possible forced audio or it could just be a coincidence and it just sounds like that but who knows you can be the best judge.  

BILLIE EILISH - WHEN THE
PARTY'S OVER

This has to be one of the creepiest songs I’ve heard in a while and with that out the way you can definitely hear

“We walk in hell Satan”

in a part of this clip but it’s so hard to pick up anything that made sense and not dribbling black tar from their mouth lol but you really have to concentrate on the audio. 

Nothing in this one apart from the last word which is a very slurred Satan right at the end so another one for the sanctuary pile as much of it was inaudible and didn’t make no sense like the M.E.M. which called mean Eminem you see how easy it is to twist the subject around into something that makes complete sense.        

Play this clip backwards you will get the message 

“Kill it kill it kill it  kill it…inaudible” and “Like a lifer” a slang term for someone who is serving life in prison. 

This is a newish song from 2019 so way after the YouTube first stage of feeding us all with junk they call conspiracies so I don’t know much about the song but my guess is more so called satanic messages or her egging someone or us to kill someone  in subliminal tones but who knows what the official conspiracy is. 

Absolutely nothing in this reversed clip of my version just gibberish so this will go into once again the sanctuary pile. Maybe I could of done better with the voicing and the rhythm of the song but it was quite a hard one to get out for someone who just heard the song but nothing but gibberish in this clip.

MILEY CYRUS - WRECKING BALL

In this reversed clip well actually it’s inaudible for most of it but at the end it seems to say

“Whining” and “Tis I supposed to die maybe we should watch”

It could be suggested that Miley is singing about her being dispensable and at the hands of the Illuminati and the other secret society’s we know and don’t know about. And the maybe we should watch may be speculated about a snuff movie or her suffering and everyone watching in and making it a circus which is part of the puppet chain.

Nothing in this one either I recorded and reversed the clip but found nothing to report back  on with so another dead end. It sounded like nothing what Miley sang or spoke down that mic. So I guess this goes in the satanic pile as I feel now this a blatant forced message  or it could be by accident but there was no way I got that from this. 

Playing this part of the song in reverse you get the words.

“Leave, yeah eh eh eh heave eh eh eh loading we are. Oh we are soaking all in our lawn….inaudible…rucaliptian”  

Breaking it down into parts starting  with the first part “leave” which is actually self explanatory but  just for reference it is speculated that she’s telling someone to go possible to be a outcast in the real world or it was someone’s warning them to leave town or even the country someone high up and wouldn’t have to spend a night or their life in a cell. The “heave” part is suggested it’s on about slavery and particularly to the so called slaves who are at the bottom of the pyramid and food chain in hierarchy. “Oh we are soaking all in our lawn” people suggest it’s about soaking in the sun while the slaves run around like busy bees or possible soaking in blood and even worser things. Finally the word rucalipatian is meant to be about shape shifting and the so called reptilians who want to take over the world and the human race which is a pretty far out conspiracy theory I reckon.    

Okay maybe I could of sang the last bit better bit I didn’t find anything interesting in this clip only a indistinctive heave at the beginning and that was it. This will go into the sanctuary section as I didn’t find anything too shocking or worthy of putting it in the satanic pile so onwards and upwards. 

There are chopped up bits and pieces in this part of the song including

“Leave the illusion off with that”,  “No we are not movin”, “Satan”  and “Slow misery let me know” 

The rest is untranslated and speaking in some sort of Juju tongue but your ears might of heard something else. To explain the theory bit by bit “Leave the illusion off with that” is speculated about using smoke and mirrors like what they say about when the Twin Towers got hit on September 11th in 2001. They say it was a order by a higher up person who controls the media and businesses around the world and those people put out smoke and mirrors in order to keep us where they want us to be. I half believe in this as I do believe there are secret cabinets who do the bidding behind our backs and start wars etc for gain and profit including making new laws even if that means breaking them to make it which means cold murder in some cases. “Slow misery let me know” is suggested that they get off on seeing people down and hurt and they have the power to do such a thing which in that part of the song it could be suggested that it was a open invitation to cause pain, havoc and mayhem in the name Lucifer just one of their gods the celebrities are meant to worship instead of God and even Jesus.

Okay not much in this one either but I did notice 3 seconds in it sounds like I’m saying Satan but it’s pretty mangled and distorted. I’ll put this in the sanctuary pile as there wasn’t much in it and seems like a fluke or some sort of accident as I couldn’t find anything substantial in these clip. 

In this reversed clip it seems to be saying

“This is revenge what you did to me. Miss me honey”

It is suggested that she is on about a ex and tormenting him through this song. The honey part is suggested to be linked to the Monarch part of the Illuminati where celebrities like Miley Cyrus are brainwashed sex kittens and are controlled by handlers and they use trigger words like honey to make them do what they want. Interesting at it’s best scary at it’s worse but I think it’s pretty much exaggerated claims I think.

In my reversed clip I got 

“Revenge” and “Miss me honey”

Not the whole sentence but a bit of mix and match. It definity says “miss me honey” which I think is a coincidence and makes me laugh for some reason. I’ll put this in the sanctuary pile  as there was that coincidence and the rest didn’t make sense so in the pile it goes. 

BEYONCE - SINGLE LADIES (PUT A RING ON IT)

In the revered clips it seems to be saying 

“Hail Lucifer” 

Not much to explain in this except more devil worshipping accusations from the conspiracy theorists and also trying to align herself more with the devil I mean it’s up to you to decide but they are wild accusations. 

Not much in my recordings or though it does seem to be saying

“Lucifer”

A couple of times but I’m not getting the hail bit which you do have to listen really carefully to hear it in the original song. I’ll put this in the sanctuary pile or though I won’t dispute a bit of forced audio in there but who knows.

In the reversed clip of this bit of the song it seems to say

“Lucifer, the world will..not..have..fun, the world will bow to me, people tears fall”

More accusations of devil worshipping  and the accusation of when the day comes the world will bow to Beyonce the queen of hell or the other one is she will replace Christianity and the world will bow and worship her instead. And the people’s tears fall part is to do with Aaliyah and the fact she so say killed her and how people still cry out for her a possible regret so called. The other one is another world wide thing that will affect us all and how our tears will fall like 9/11 all over again. And oh the world will not have fun part is meant to be about how she is laughing and saying how the world will be restricted and how we will not have fun like it has been since 9/11.

My reversed findings find it says

“The world…Inaudible…will not have fun” and “Gurl  will bow to me”

But the rest is inaudible and something I couldn’t pick up on. I’ll put this once again the sanctuary pile as I couldn’t find the sinister message in the audio and doesn’t find much of the clip.

In the reversed clip of the final bit it seems to be saying

“Galaxy” and “Lean on me”

Silly accusations that Beyonce is God as we all know the Gods open up all the galaxies so  they are saying she thinks she’s God and going to open up a galaxy which is meant to be blaspheming and disrespect to God and the Bible.  The “Lean on me” part is quite silly but she is meant to be the puppet and she’s the one they lean on IE take it out on and she’s meant to be tired of being leant on apparently.

In my reversed clip it says

“Galaxy” and “Lean on me”

Okay a bit jargoned but if you listen carefully it does say that the lean on me and galaxy are quite distinctive. I definitely put this in the sanctuary pile  as it was a natural recordings and nothing to suspect about it  even though it was the silly part of the song and nothing to be taken too seriously. 

IN CONCLUSION

Well we have come to the end of the post and I leave with my conclusion. I pretty much call it sanctuary over satanic and even though I did find some suspect or what I called forced audio it’s pretty much a coincidence and something that should be taken seriously.  They probably deliberately put messages in the songs for profit and sells even though they are all saints but not perfect as saints aren’t perfect. I don’t know maybe it’s the accent or the way it was sung and even though I did try to sing it or at least get the melody part right I found not a lot in it. I don’t know of a technique used to get hidden messages when reversing a part of a song but here is the conspiracy part of the post but maybe they have a technique or certain voices and accents sound different or maybe they have a book of words and the song writers use that to meet the satanic and sinister requirements but this is far fetched allegations from me and also not what I found in my own recordings. Whatever the case I myself think it’s pretty much BS unless it was all what I said above and more which I always keep a open mind when investigating and debating the topic. I wanted to make my own recordings and conclusions and I would suggest you do the same with the same clips and other well known songs to make up your own mind but I hope I helped.

Conspiracies Gone Wild

August 21, 2025

INTRODUCTION

Don’t get me wrong  I enjoy a good conspiracy I remember in the 2010’s when there were a lot of what they call now truth channels or other well known as conspiracy channels on YouTube. Some of it which is nothing but some harmless fun is okay but then we jump into the wild side stuff you have to believe in aliens and stuff to believe what they say. I heard it all from the queen being a reptilian and eating babies to replacement clones of the stars of yesterday and even today. As I said some of it is just harmless fun but the funny thing about it is people and the person delivering the news actually believes it. Even though it can be what I called  harmless fun it can lead you down dark and lonely paths which I get into further down this post. I wonder all the time what the person’s agenda is the person who is behind spreading the craziness is it to spread the word or just because you can’t stand that person or a way to get global attention like here’s the scoop but don’t forget to buy my merch or buy and stream my music it does make me wonder. Obviously it’s a topic starter in real life and on YouTube and online the reactions are priceless and most take it with a pinch of salt and then there are people who over react and start hating or acting shady towards that person and is mostly to do with the satanic nature but more on that later.  I’m actually writing this post as I seen a surge of the so called truth channels and the return of the crazy and dam right silly with bigger and bolder claims and talk of proof without showing proof and fake what it looks like fake AI made thumbnails that is meant to be the proof but it just not cutting it. I mean how many tear duck photoshops are you going to do with a miserable face they use it on everyone and at first it was convincing but it’s been done too many times but still impressive gear. I remember when I first really started hearing about conspiracies and fully understanding them was at my old school Fairfield Grammar School and when I was about 11 when I first started secondary school. Our teacher was a bit of a kook too and he told us some of them which always used to scare me but sounded so real and interesting. He was well up to date with them and knew all the old ones he was a bit of a wiz to it actually. It did change my perspective of the world and my outlook on things but I said nothing was going to stop me doing what I wanted to do and I did it. 

MESSING WITH MY PSYCHE

As I said I started hearing and making way of conspiracies when I was 11 around 1996 and when I started secondary school. I always had a mental illness well since when I was seven and only got treated in 2016 when I got some help. I got sectioned and this was due to a number of reasons but one of them was watching too many conspiracy videos on YouTube. Like any nutter I stared watching harmless videos like long videos in 15 minute section videos about JF Kennedy and also the clones then it got all serious and it was scary stuff scary cos I was on some nasty K2 weed that left me overthinking and paranoid but it was still believable until they pushed the boat out.  It left me unhinged and thinking radical cos I actually thought Aaliyah was murdered and I was in this whole conspiracy and my meeting with Aaliyah when she came to my school in 1997 was linked to her death some how or I was cursed was the other one. This was after watching countless videos on YouTube to do with Aaliyah including all her videos looking for clues but alas I couldn’t find nothing this was in the 2010s by the way when there was no mute button for it and I was looking for the truth even though I really didn’t need to.  Even though I couldn’t find any truths in her music videos and also interviews YouTube filled up my box with countless videos that had convincing clips that looked like the truth like the backmasking of popular songs that if you play it backwards you will get a usually satanic message like worship the devil or worship me that is linked to the illuminati or satanic clips in the music videos which is meant to be worshipping the devil, the illuminati or is linked to the butterfly monarch and is where they are sex kittens/slaves to the rich and famous which sounds interesting. I believed all the above and more and liked the fact even though I was against it but I liked the fact of this higher foreseers who control us and the rich and famous pulling those strings one by one and some of the rich and famous being sex kittens and secretly  worshipping the devil and illuminati it sounded so interesting but scarily real. Watching the videos on YouTube about conspiracies gave me my own idea to reverse some of my own songs I had and one of them Aaliyah’s I Care 4 You that song really scared me and though played normally it sounds like a song about love or what not but played backwards there are some horrible lines that makes it seem she was laughing behind our back and nasty name calling like she hates us or me at that point. It really did shook me up and made my mental health even worse but it was a state at that point as it was due to binge watching conspiracies on YouTube was one reason it didn’t go with the K2 I was smoking either. It was pretty dark stuff and mostly related to the next people I’m about to talk about Beyonce and Jay Z the so called king and queen pins of the illuminati.   

THE JAYONCE COMPLEX

Long live the days when Jay Z was just a hustling rapper and Beyonce was that chick from Destiny’s Child boy has time moved fast. I don’t know what it is but for some reason they are putting a X over Jay Z, Beyonce and even their kids. Every two minutes they are speculating on YouTube on them two and they are some serious allegations and some silly ones like news just in Beyonce wore Aaliyah’s skin in order to keep Jay Z like geez Jay most people would ask them to dress up as them for Halloween and make another baby if you know what I mean. I mean it’s ridiculous that people would believe it and something so far fetched. For those who don’t know and hasn’t watched any conspiracy videos on YouTube Beyonce and Jay Z have been accused of being top members of the Illuminati and devil worshipers and have been since Beyonce got with Jay Z and they later got married and had kids together. This is also linked to the Hova sign (seen above) which resembles a pyramid which is linked to the pyramid and all seeing eye on the Dollar currency and the all seeing eye is traced supposable to the illuminati which they scream what Jay Z and the others who signed and not signed to his label are referencing when they do it. One of worse things and something that is brought up a lot is Jay Z killed Aaliyah so Aaliyah can be replaced by Beyonce. This is mostly linked back to the Hova sign which Aaliyah was seen posing in a picture. It can also go as far as saying the Hova sign was a sign that Beyonce has successfully taken over Aaliyah when Beyonce first done the sign. I really don’t know where to start with this as there was so much I went through with everyone being accused like Missy Elliott the madame in this, Ginuwine, Da Brat and so many more including her own uncle who did get a substantial payment when Aaliyah died so say. I really can’t see the resemblance between Beyonce and Aaliyah and if anything they should say she was to replace Michael Jackson as she’s on the same stature now and as much as I love me some Aaliyah AKA Baby Girl I really don’t see her on the same performance wise now like big sell out shows and top selling albums and streams in this current state I mean in 2025 or anything before 2005. Everyone know she was moving into acting and was going to be Neo in the Matrix but she died in the plane crash in 2001 before filming but she had a number of film appearance before her death. I really do see her still acting and appearing on things like Empire or even some guest appearances in TV in Sitcoms and serious stuff she might not even still be singing and touring if she was alive today. The other thing is which seems pretty harsh to say but is a valid comment so I say it but would she still be relevant in 2025 in the music industry and have a sell out out grand tour like Beyonce has. As I said I love me some Baby Girl but I’m being fair and just asking some simple questions we all have to ask ourselves and FYI I’m am and was Aaliyah’s top fan. The other allegations that are being made is Jay Z is drugging Beyonce to  keep her in a bad and controllable state, Beyonce does witchcraft against people and countless other rumours and allegations. What’s even worse is there are people coming out and backing up these wild claims and becoming the next sensation for a bit. I mean I’m not being funny but until I see actual proof of these claims I’ll treat it as just another wild allegation or claim made by a hater or someone they think they are in the know and spreading these claims for likes and profit or just because they think they are in the know. I’m not saying Hollywood is not satanic I’ve worked in the outskirts of the Hollywood zone and been in the Hollywood zone when I was a dummy, a music assistant for Ant Records and noticed a stale feel to the place but most people were nice actually it’s true what they say it’s always about money and how much or what you got but everything is superficial and showy. So I do believe that but I don’t believe they worship the devil no more as I haven’t seen real blatant proof apart from what YouTube channels have said and pointed out which is in my opinion all lies and false facts and something that should be cracked down on to save our soul and sanity.             

AT AGE 40 GAS NO LIGHT REVEALS ALL

Me and my friend Arctic Fox laugh at the silliness of some of the titles and thumbnails on YouTube like the silly titles like At Age 80 They Reveal What We What We Was Thinking Along and those silly time traveling videos you have to be mental to believe and this is me not trying to be horrible about their believes. The fact is like all conspiracies on YouTube there isn’t enough evidence they promise to show proof but don’t actually give you anything to believe in and is something that has been photoshopped for sure when they do show the so called proof. Clickbait comes to mind and the proof was so say in the thumbnail now I wasted up to 15 minutes and still you haven’t showed me nothing what a complete waste of time and energy. I mean there is nothing wrong with it really and I do count that as harmless fun even though most of it is clickbait but it does frustrate me because people lose their mind to it and end up in some bad predicament all because the hater or so say knowing person gets on their high horse and start galloping around. Get down from there and walk like a real man or woman or anything below or above. I mean it really does put me off people when I start or did start believing the lies like when I heard the rumour Rihanna gave Chris Brown Herpes a sexually transmitted diseases and was so called uncurable and the reason why Chris Brown attacked Rihanna in that car incident I went off the two. It was all I could think about when I saw them in the online pictures and music videos and that is the downside to hearing gossip online and in your daily life. They even go as far as saying that people like Rihanna, Beyonce and countless others can’t carry babies no more as their uterus is damaged from the uncurable STDs or STIs Sexual Transmitted Infection. Even though this is false as Beyonce and Rihanna and the others have all had babies they carried themselves but they say they are fake bumps and fake pregnancies if you insist sir or madame. There was a big conspiracy that Beyonce was wearing a fake bump with proof of a picture that did appear to be a bit frumpy but anyone who has watched someone go though pregnancy and maybe countless times the woman is usually a bit frumpy during the start of the pregnancy which means looks like she or he has a cushion underneath the top and it’s not proper rounded we all have had the cushion underneath the top and pretended to be pregnant for a laugh and giggle or you might have been pregnant and know what I’m talking about.      

IN CONCLUSION

In short conspiracies videos and talking about conspiracies are fun to do but can lead you down dangerous paths and dark alleys which isn’t good for your mental health or your wellbeing. The other thing as well it can leave you feeling or being stupid and there is enough crazy and stupid in this world to go around. There’s nothing wrong about talking about conspiracy or watching conspiracy videos or browsing generally online but it should be treated with a pinch of salt and until you get solid proof it shouldn’t be taken serious. Whatever the case most of the people who perpetuate these rumours and conspiracies are mostly liars and they are unhinged and have some sort of agenda behind there wild tales or they are just hating cos they are either racist, sexist, a religious nut or something else. Always remember wait for the proof before going ahead and cancelling them or striking them off your fav list it’s the decent thing to do and saves you ending up looking stupid and insane in some cases. 

The Fame Game And The Controversial Rise Of The Downfall

January 3, 2025

THE RISE OF THE INTERNET

 I was born in the 80s 1985 to be exact so back then fame was a big deal and not something you could do willy-nilly and you had to have a talent and also something you would work ranks to get to the top and earn a top dollar or at least get some credit for say your singing abilities or stage presents or break boundaries which is one music is meant to be about. Music connects audiences and makes so many memories for the audience for good or for bad and we have that one song that reminds us of a good experience and thankfully that would never die out. Having to break down doors in order just to sing or be heckled for being quote-unquote the wrong colour isn’t new and as we should all know by now was something the greats of the singing and entertainment community had to overcome in the olden days. However, once again this is old news and something that still happens to this day.  It is more accessible if you will to become famous for any colour but it still is met with trolls, backlash and cancel culture. I will use Michael Jackson and Beyonce as a newer example but two people and Michael’s sister Janet Jackson too three people who with sold-out tours and worked their butts off to get that coin and recognition in this cold world. In my earlier years of being on this earth Prince, Madonna and Michael Jackson were the three who dominated the world with their talents and presence and in the 90s and 00s things changed since the rise of Paris Hilton, the rise of the internet and gossip outlets and magazines. This happened especially in the 2000s with the downfall of Britney Spears and her infamous meltdown and attack on the press. Also, the start of YouTube which was on Beta and had that boy I can’t remember his name but he did skits about his abusive mother who locked him in the basement and then came Shane Dawson. It’s funny actually on a side note as I was going to do a two-minute skit it didn’t rely on being over the top it was actually quite bitchy and did mean putting on a wig. Anyway, I didn’t do it in the end as funny as some of the skits were they were over the top and being copied by other people and some were just either stupid or damn mean. The internet changed after that and it was and still is but more than ever it was a place where you could get insightful information or tune in to a live stream which meant you were either dealing with a big spender or someone who got a deal with their internet company who always specialised in graphic design. I was lucky I had the internet when it first was publicly accessible around 1998 as my dad worked in the office for a council and it was mandatory to have it to access the ever-growing emails they receive from both clients and the office. Around the same time maybe a year or two after some libraries were giving free access to the internet but you had to book it up if it wasn’t free or alternatively come back when they weren’t being used. Having the internet at home was also quite expensive still and meant the good dial-up internet which meant slow loading speeds, computer freezing, and long waiting times to connect to the internet and countless other tedious problems you just couldn’t fix unless you were a computer technician. So going to the library for a few hours to post something in a forum, get advice or even message your favourite celebrity or singer/actor/actress and hope to get a response and they used to no they probably listen to the advice from their manager or publicists who tell them not to respond but you would be lucky to get a retweet nowadays for example. But basically having access to the internet was a big deal and something that at the time was either unaffordable or just not in the budget. When I first started on the Internet in 1998 around it was full of design companies and also forums but it wasn’t that much on there which is probably why most people didn’t buy into the Internet at first and they could get it for free at the library or in the office for people who worked in the offices. There was a big talk on the fate of the Internet and it was determined it should become a place for knowledge and fun stuff and something that should be accessible to all at reasonable prices and should eventually be free I’m still waiting for that to happen lol. So they basically made it all that and the internet as we know it or used to know was born. Oh and the rise of the webcam around the 2000s meant you didn’t need any technicians and cables running through your setup to stream live feeds which opened the door to Beta YouTube in my opinion which was unfiltered and uncensored which meant you could do or say whatever you liked apart from the cops who sometimes pick up on illegal active and come down on them. Also worth noting algorithms were still fun experiments for the nerd to have fun with there was no market or great reliance on using it and knowing. It was big social media companies on the internet today like YouTube, Facebook, TikTok, X formally known as Twitter rely on and were built on but is still something anyone can jump to you just need to know how to get attention and keeping attention. 

SUBSTANCE AND FLAVOURS

Fast forward to the present time and the change of the Internet and as we have seen it is technically easier than ever to get famous. I say technically as you still have to post lots for visibility and compete with others who are just like you or who copy you and other factors but you can have that one song or video or even tweet that blows up and you get handed what I would call the fame baton stick. I’m not saying it’s all the way a bad thing as I think it’s a cool thing for singers, actors and actresses, comedians, and producers like me to get some attention and most importantly not have to have an agent or label to manage but it’s definitely becoming an issue. Lil’ Kim is my favourite female rapper so I’m accustomed to potty mouth lyrics and quote-unquote trick me out with diamonds and pearls, eat my cat and you ain’t shit sentiments and I always favoured female Hip Hop other than male so nothing is shocking or new to me but the issue people are having or one of them is the two female artists who both jumped into the scene and are the current let’s say the current baton holders. 

Sexy Red (picture above) and Ice Spice are two questionable female artists in the current scene of Hip Hop and are known for their lack of substance in lyrics and like Ice Spice’s lack of substance and just shaking her ass on stage or in the videos. After that one song they did in Sexy Redd’s case Pound Town and in Ice Spice’s Munch people started to question the substance and the lack of it talking about the same old issues as Lil’ Kim and rappers around the same time did like Foxy Brown and Trina and also to mention Khia who Trina and Khia came after Lil’ Kim and Foxy Brown and was in the 2000s but followed on their now blueprint of female Hip Hop. Having the same style of rap throughout your whole catalogue or having foul lyrics which is the case for the pair of them is something that is overdone in the now Hip Hop world and things are becoming meaningless and soulless and just done for shock value instead of talking about real issues and your own issues like mental health which I think doesn’t get talked about enough and is glamorised and sensualised by the main media but that’s a different topic. Thanks to things like  Instagram and IG models and celebrities from all the range bodies are being glamorised and obsessed to the point normal people from normal lives are going under the knife to get that body they desire and be like the celebrity they always admired in pretty value with in some cases horrifying and regretting circumstances. Things are more how you look, what you got and what you are worth other than qualities you may have or actual talent and substance. I don’t really know much about Sexxy Redd or her music other than her booty hole is round.

However, Ice Spice was recently heavily pressed on YouTube with tiles like The End Of Ice Spice and YouTube commentaries talking about her two ex-friends who claim Ice Spice was horrible to and treated them dirty on tour and in their personal life and one of them claims she was bullied by Ice Spice in school. Also, the heavily talked about text conversations where Ice Spice called Niki Minaj being like her mum ungrateful but that’s again a whole new topic. Ice Spice uses the rap style of Drill music no no no actually drills are used on the tracks it’s a repetitive but catchy style that is used in New York Drill music and also UK Drill which replaced UK Grime here in the UK. In portions it’s enjoyable and something I personally can listen to for around two hours without getting bored of the same style of rapping. This is the case for Ice Spice who since her breakout track Munch has gone on to do the same song with a different beat with the same Drill style every song feels the same. The other thing that was talked about Ice Spice was accused of using the drug Ozempic to lose weight. For those who don’t know the drug is intended for people with Diabetes and also something I forgot to mention people fell in love with her assets her curves and ass so when she lost weight and lost those assets people mocked her and straight out told her we don’t like you any more now, you are a twig. Also, people began to notice the pattern of poo references in her music in one track she raps I don’t need a Diaper but I’m Miss Poopy and in another one, she raps and is the title of the track you think you’re the shit you’re not even a fart and has a fart sound on the track which was apparently a diss to fellow female rapper Latto in an ongoing beef between the two. This brings me to the next thing people have been talking about a lot and Ice Spice and Latto is one of them being flavours IE Bi-racial and pretty privileged. For those who don’t know Hollywood and the music industry you might as well say mainstream media have a preference and that’s either white or bi-racial people with killer looks and cheekbones and assets. The media is perpetuated with these images and rarely shares people with dark complexions or gives them chances. Thanks to things like slavery and also the repressions around the world black people as a whole don’t get given a fair chance and this is included in their day-to-day life too especially in Hollywood and in the music industry. Since the ancient days, people with lighter skin were seen as more attractive and seen as things like more trustworthy or friendly and also the soaps were used to become just like them and have a fairer chance or to become quote-unquote pretty. The psychological effect of bad history and the imagery of what must seemed like a white-dominated world in Hollywood and the media and also the effect of seeing racist imagery like black face and stereotypical stuff like being slow or eating watermelon thankfully people in the present day are starting to question and push back from making everyone accountable for what was said and done even if that meant digging in the vault and looking for evidence or making your favourite entertainer accountable for their actions. Tyra Banks is someone who comes to mind when talking about controversy and being made accountable. For those who don’t know who Tyra Banks is she’s a black supermodel and host to the infamous America’s Next Top Model TV show where contestants compete to have a shoot with Vouge and earn some money as well.  Now I won’t talk about the black face incident where the white women were made to use cosmetics to briefly change their skin colour as I believe that was done in good intent and should be an experience all non-racial people should experience. I was more thinking of the time Tyra told one contestant in the elimination process she was to straighten her hair as it was too curly and in another bit she said she was acting too black and that was the feedback she was getting from others. This is the problem in Hollywood, the music industry and in mainstream media as a whole and is not something I don’t care for or entertain. Being Bi-racial with both African and Scottish roots and with an understanding of who I am and where I came from and also the uphill struggle of black and bi-racial people as a whole I found that hard to watch when it first aired in the 2000s and it’s funny actually how it was brought up cos I was outraged and started to question Tyra’s alliance with her own people and the state of the model world when first watching it. I still believe prettiness comes in all shapes and sizes and skin tones. I see a lot of black women and think they are attractive they seriously don’t know what they are on about and that happens quite frequently. I really don’t understand why people could say that person can’t be attractive as they are too dark it doesn’t make sense to me whatsoever. There was a complete attack on bi-racial people all over social media and debates on mostly YouTube and TikTok saying we hated black people, we could do whatever we liked, we were not suppressed, we think a lot of ourselves and that was hard to watch. There was evidence of this with countless stupid bi-racial people being racist and being all that my gran would say pretty pretty in front of the camera and that was annoying as I hate people who make a show of themselves on camera and are obsessed with their looks it’s so annoying and also are racists, especially to their own race. I do understand though the complexity of it all and have seen for myself being me as an example of favouritism and unfair treatment but like I said I never did and never will stand for it and get called out and worked on as I hate unfair treatment and I hate the fact some people hate me because of my skin colour cos that’s the other thing I get it from both ends and beyond.

SORRY CANCELLED IT'S OVER PARTY

As I said holding someone accountable for their actions is very important and not something you should do carelessly or with ease. In some cases I have seen people jump on them for the littlest things come to find out it was misunderstood and was nothing or misinformation being spread about them and also the sorry (insert star here) it’s over party on X formally known as Twitter it was relentless and silly some were just to keep the party going of hungry Twitter users who most likely hated that person or the world but not everyone. In some cases, it’s done with a valid reason and this is due to the ever-growing rise of the internet and the realization and getting tired of the same behaviour shown by celebrities and them not revolving to be a better person. It used to be one rule for us one rule for them so to speak and the fact people, me personally used to make excuses and not believe the allegations made against them and put it down to the haters and clout chasers who are always lying and starting new schemes to get that dollar. Now you get held accountable and people are finding fewer excuses to make and are tired of toxic behaviour, misinformation and bad products. Being sold a lie is very easy for Hollywood and the music industry to do and it is all based on your image and public perception and also your own talents or used to be. So when it doesn’t meet our knowledge and requirements it’s easy to get hurt and feel betrayed and at times used or like most times betrayed as you sold me a fake image and was all based on greed, power and fabrications or though sometimes it was for the best and was done to keep number one happy yourself. Most importantly you feel stupid as you may have defended that person internally or vocally or made excuses for them so when you come to find out that person was fake or a bit of an excuse my tone but a bit of a prick or both you feel hurt and let down and more than ever more inclined to call them out not to make the same mistake of being complacent and accepting bad and toxic behaviour and also as it’s easier than ever to do without being jumped on but of course you always got the stans to watch out for and not be attacked by them for ringing bells or even criticizing that person or having a laugh in my case. Thanks to social media and cancel culture several celebrities and YouTubers have been cancelled and put under heavy scrutiny which has brought their problems to a lot of people’s attention especially their fans and unknown audiences. The ones I’ve been watching and have watched are the coverage of Jeffery Star, Mr Beast, Ice Spice, P. Diddy and James Charles with all the in-betweens like the Sugar Bear Gate incident. 

Jeffery Star a YouTube makeup guru and before that a singer on My Space and known for his controversial lyrics and imagery and is now known for his pallets of Makeup he formalises and does himself apparently got cancelled for past videos of him being racist to a passer-by and involved battery acid which is shocking as who would say such a thing. Throwing acid in someone’s face is something that has no words to describe as for saying that even for a joke and shouldn’t be entertained in the least not to mention using violent and aggressive language and bad body language is a no-no even if you were wasted and you couldn’t control yourself. Since then he has been cancelled many times for a set of reasons but still, manages to climb his way back to most of the viewer’s eyes. His bad bitch persona and his ever-growing apologies videos where he apologises for his actions says he’s been disgraceful and holds himself accountable but still makes the same mistakes he said sorry for and keeps it moving rubs a lot of people up the wrong way and his name leaves a bitter taste in some mouths judging by the venom of the tone of voice or what and how they said it. To sum up his success he is the YouTube makeup guru’s Michael Jackson and his makeup pallets sell very well selling out in most cases in the day and has also or used to have quite a following before all the incidents came to light and people saw a toxic side of him rather than what was fed to them a package good boy deal.  There’s nothing wrong with that though as we look for pure and real people we can relate to take Aaliyah the R’n’B singer who was out in the early 90s  up to her death in August 2001 where she died sadly in a plane crash which people are still speculating till this day but different topic. Aaliyah was pure not saying she had her moments and she was always angelic but she had a nice spirit and worked hard and was always appreciative and respectful which is why I can see why Beyonce is always mentioned in comparisons as if you are on about all those things mentioned and the fact they are good singers and dancers. But Aaliyah is highly regarded cos not only did she work hard and come up with that flavour she also knew what the streets would like and gave good performances, songs, albums, videos and interviews she was always highly respectful to her peers and fellow workmates IE the competition of the time like her well known rival Brandy which was nothing more than a kick up dust from the media to get people talking and to get more views and more money in the bank but I guess they were rivals but friendly ones as they both were competing for albums and singles sales and being both black female R’n’B singers who were in both cases had a successful single and album out everyone just couldn’t put down myself included. What I was trying to say before I got caught in the whirlwind is people myself included look for pure, outgoing, bubbly, talented well spoken in a articulate fashion kind of people who are worthy of our time and most importantly our money. They don’t have to be all those things or even one in Heinz sight but as long as they appreciate what we give them our time and money and support which can be consuming and of course what they have got as we ain’t got nothing so go and live the best life and stop complaining I’m really not trying to hear you are gutted cos you didn’t get that bag you saw at the mall come to find out the price of this bag and the wish of wanting to be rich but not famous which is something I always thought and worked on even though I make music and have three websites and is always typing or doing something on the internet but the fact is some of them are just ungrateful or overwhelmed with the price tag of fame and the second one is okay to be. 

Once again I have someone in mind so bringing the spotlight over to Doja Cat a successful and talented Pop, R’n’B and Hip Hop artists who is by the way also bi-racial and has had a few incidents including talking to known to Neo Nazis and letting them be opening racist even joining in one incident and being openly racist herself in her songs and on tweets and chats but that’s not what we are talking about and already covered racism in the last part but side note this is not acceptable and shouldn’t be allowed but she is young and dumb I wasn’t always this squeaky clean even though I was clean I too made inappropriate jokes about other races bar the accents I do and was only when I was around in my late twenty’s did I start to question my antics and was not what I actually believed in or understand and was more just for jokes even though some were offensive even to black people and my own kind so I do believe in being young and dumb but at the end of the day I didn’t want people to get the wrong impression of me or think I was part of the problem so I stopped and used other ways to get a laugh out of someone or even myself watching stuff on YouTube and silly memes and being silly. But Doja Cat openly mocked and laughed at her fans at the fact her album which is a Pop album and was something she didn’t admire was nothing more than a crash grab and was part of a scheme to hype up the new release she was making at the time which was a Hip Hop/Trap album and something she wanted to make. This caused her after the other reasons stated and more to be cancelled and seem ungrateful for all the hard work the fans and stans did for her which was spent on her and give time and support and people were left hurt some admitting to crying and what did she do mock them some more laughing at them and telling them emotion blackmail wasn’t cutting it and she wasn’t going to say she liked the album and repeated the cash grab gag.  Not to mention the comments people left on the internet before and after that incident saying how they were tired of the ungrateful selfish narcissistic celebrities and how they were looking for real grateful talent to spend time and money on which was always the theme growing up and before the internet but somehow most people find themselves where they left off at the hands of the evil apart from the most shocking crimes do people stop messing with some tuning in secret until it has all blown over and many being OTT and not caring what they did and still tune in like and comment their love for that person and then there are people like me who wait for a case in court and hear the verdict and go from there as I believe with accusations comes evidence and you should ask for more evidence before you make your final decision and say out that person or start to have a dislike for them or in most cases you start to feel a type of way for them which is usually a negative impact.

Some of the rumours were started by Tasha K a gossip and drama channel on YouTube and at its height had over a million subscribers and eventually got cancelled and sued by female rapper Cardi  B for spreading misinformation about her and her husband and rapper Off Set. But some of the lies she spread which huh is being echoed more times than your voice in a cave till this day and this was in the 2010s but the lies she spread about not just Cardi B and Offset but also Aaliyah was shocking and was damn right disrespectful especially saying Aaliyah died with an STD and she was always burning up from all the man she ran through it was something like that I was shouting for Aaliyah’s mum to sue her for deflation and assignation of character as she also accused Aaliyah’s mom of pimping her out to R Kelly and any passers-by in the music industry because her mom was on her knees IE struggling. But these were the things people should question and not feed into without evidence also serious allegations of sexual assault and being a predator but that should be taken more seriously but again should come with evidence like a legit person to back up your claims or serious legal action against that person or something recorded like a video or at worse a voice recording. 

P. Diddy formally known as Puff Daddy his other alias are Sean Combs and Puffy Sean Combs or Puffy exploded onto the scene in the early 90s when he started his record company Bad Boy Records and has had successful artists like Craig Mack, Faith Evans, Lil’ Kim, 112, Mase, The Loxs, Total and the Late Notorious B.I.G his most successful artists on the label and countless others. He started when he was an intern for record company Interscope and turned into a venture after being fired by Interscope but after finding lots of R’n’B acts for Interscope they were loyal and ditched their plans to sign to Bad Boy. He has then gone on to become one of the most successful record company owners and moguls branching out in fashion with his Sean Combs line and also alcohol with his drink Ciroc Vodka I don’t drink but that drink had me obsessing selling other alcoholic and none alcoholic beverages too with other ventures. One thing he was known for in the celebrity and eventually the world was his parties. His lavish parties which cost no less than a million and were extravagant brought in the in crowds of the celebrity world and went on for days even carrying the party on to a different location sometimes which meant flying to a different part of the world which was seen on one of his birthdays I think I don’t blame him good for him is what I say. His parties and other allegations have come to light about Diddy his other aaliis name like what happens at the parties since countless celebrities and non-celebrities have come out to say I went to a Puffy party and there were freak-offs. For those who don’t know what the expression freak offs is it is a term used when two males, females, other or different sexes do freakish things to each other to compete for money or affection from the power or breadwinner. Puff’s freak-offs are apparently forced and you are made to do it in the hope he would sign you or the fact he could ruin you as you now hold the secret of the powerful so-called straight man. 

The infamous Fabulous interview where Puff is sat down with several male Hip Hop artists including Fabulous and Puff is looking drunk and thirsty for a bit of hanky panky at times lusting for fabulous a rapper from the 2000s and tempting him to come to one of his parties by inviting him which Fabulous looked kind of nervous and responds no thanks I don’t party or something like that. At the time watching it as I also watched that interview when it was published it did make me wonder one why did fabulous looked so spooked and two what goes on in those parties. Other allegations which are more what I now call foundation is sex trafficking, drugging and use of drugs, rape, mental and physical abuse, exploitation, and unfair deals but he later gave back the publishing rights back to some of the owners of the songs and the ones who wrote and performed them. 

Also, Cassie the R’n’B singer from the 2000s who was also signed to Bad Boy filed a civil case and later settled for $30 million out of court after she came out with claims of rape, mental and physical abuse by Puff and also being trafficked and sleeping with male prostitutes against her will and those sexy times being filmed and sent to people in Hollywood and the music industry. Those allegations were sort of backed up by some but for me for being an abusive person when that now infamous recording of what it appears to be Cassie escaping Puff and Puff running down the corridor after Cassie and kicking her ordering her to get back into the room. Puff was taking a shower at the time so he was dressed in only a towel and his flip flops and Cassie looked scared and was on the floor and visibly shaken like the audience after watching it and could be quite triggering for those who have been in a one-sided abusive relationship. Puff quickly messaged the world and later did an apology video saying how disgusted he was and how he was working on his demons and also how he hated himself watching back the video of the Cassie elevator incident. But this wasn’t enough for most and they called for Puff to be arrested like a normal person would and to push back on male-to-female violence and he was also cancelled for good with people saying this was the end of Puff and pointing fingers at people like Beyonce and Jay Z taunting them by saying you are next which later got captured by the same title and calling Beyonce and Jay Z demonic and predators and Opera Winfrey too. Since the Michael Jackson court case and the Me Too movement the movement that happened in the 2010s and was about sharing stories of being raped and fighting your aggressor and your own demons since the event. There have been a lot of people who I believe were brought down due to the knock from the knock-on effect of the Me Too movement such as

Jeffrey Epstein a wealthy billionaire who hanged himself in Prison and while waiting for the court case and his girlfriend and sex offender assistant Ghislaine Maxwell, 

Bill Cosby the actor and comedian,

 R Kelly the R’n’B singer of the 90s, 

 

Harvey Weinstein the film director 

Dahvie Vanity with his band Blood On The Dancefloor which is the same title’s of Michael Jacksons later album may I add. This is the debate Jeffery Star who is also tied to Dahvie as they were both from the My Space era and they both toured together whilst the allegations were being made but Jeffery swears he’s never seen anything and flip-flopped on the whole thing in one instance saying how nasty he was and a month or two later or somewhere down the line after calling him a brother and how lovely he was also later going back on tour with after calling him nasty and a sexual predator and even worse a child sex offender but he’s done that more than once but more on that in a bit. And now we have Puff to add to that list as he is currently in jail awaiting trial for sex trafficking but all the other stuff I mentioned too. With the fast pace of the internet and the now desire to speak your mind about issues, you have about yourself or with other people such as being raped or being fairly mistreated and be heard by people not just some crazy talk you had on a chat room back in the day where you accidentally spill tea and go even more crazier by not stopping and confessing even more tea but no one takes you that serious. Also, the a demand for truth seekers who are kind are expected to give their view on pressing issues nowadays or they will be known as complacent one and part of the problem also people not using their platforms to do so like talk about things like racism and unfair treatment and also people just want to know your opinion and points of view are you righty are you a lefty are you bias or non-bias so many questions, not enough time. It goes back to the Aaliyah and Beyonce thing but so many others too it’s all about relatability as you flock with those who think like you and are relatable and like some shun the ones who don’t or at least pay them no mind. I wouldn’t call Puff relatable as he was flashy all about the sex thirst and being rich and successful flaunting wealth and promoting prettiness all the things I hate but he had likeability which is another factor you have to have if ever became famous. This is the exception of his reality TV show I Want To Work For Diddy a reality show in the 2000s where contestants could win an intern deal with Diddy and work for him. That really put me off him and showed his egoistic and exploitation side and was not something I never bought into when I signed up and the thing I have an issue with and is being brought up is the unfair use of wealth and mostly power. If true it seems Puff gets a kick out of making people powerless and dangles his wealth and power over innocent straight males and females to get some sort of gratification from it and is his cocaine which funny enough reminds me of some of the coke heads and I’m not suggesting he’s a coke head but is the same power struggle and kick they get from making someone weak and holding power over them. I’m not mad at Puff I’m disappointed ha the good old I’m not mad I’m disappointed a bit motherly but okay. I think he needs help for his sex addiction and being controlling and holding power over people other than being held accountable in the courtroom as everyone should have their time in court if strong allegations are made and you are arrested and taken to court I’m always listening to the max in that way but I do listen to all the stories even though it’s hard to figure out the truth seekers from the clout chasers and the ones with good intent like lying to get other people the real truth seekers to speak out and end this whole gossip mill. Also so people get heard as their friends who like the others sit in silence because they would get shouted down, laughed and mocked or no one will believe them saying nasty things like you probably gave the wrong signals or they enjoyed it and they were only looking for a quick pay cheque or how lucky they were and they wished it was them. Also, some people feel some type of way about you when you have been raped judging by some people I met in my personal life and what they say and this sadly includes friends and family too. So holding people accountable and like Puff and the others I mentioned that are now convicted sex offenders and predators but not for Puff’s case not for now as he hasn’t had his court case but for the others, it was a good thing and they deserved what was being served to them as at the end of the day rape and misuse of power but especially rape and sexual misconduct ruins lives. The predator can always live another day with no worry of being called out or any worries whilst the one who went through it has to live day by day with suicidal thoughts and doing things like attempting suicide, self-harming, irrational behaviour, mistrust and alcohol and substance abuse in a mechanism of copying and going through the pain. Waking up each day and going through the ordeal and feeling dirty used and disposable and betrayed as this is the person you trusted and looked up to and they slip you the wrong drink and your ashes on the floor or so you feel like. Some of them get a kick from this and is their downfall in the same breathe as somewhere down the line you will get angry by realizing that person was holding the rape over your head and the feeling of not being alone even if some of them swear but more hope they were the only one but something tells them they ain’t alone and they must speak the truth even though that means fighting alone and even though you will eventually meet your crowd of people you hoped didn’t exist IE other victims who had the same fate by that person and like them. I think it should also be done as it stops people from running into the traps and keeps the public informed of stuff happening our eyes will never see to make better decisions of who we accept and don’t accept and who we spend money and time on. So cancel culture as controversial thing as it is and where we all now can cancel someone’s work and is something that is necessary at times to stop the bad that happens or at least slow it down to minimal speed making it harder to repeat history and to make environments including our own more cleaner and transparent so the next person doesn’t have to deal with the downfalls and the hardships you would face when dealing with Hollywood, the music industry and of course mainstream media. Not to mention it’s a good thing as the money I spent could be going to or you are supporting the lifestyle of a sex offender and someone who doesn’t care for the lives of others which is basically your own co-sign with the devil. 

I will use the chocolate brand Cadburys to explain further. Before their clean up and that includes other well-known brands like Nescafe, Primark and the meat industry with how meat is reared in poor conditions and without any medical treatment and other issues like boxed calves, imprisoned sows and mistreatment of animals by fast food companies like KFC but so many other companies from all the range with different or the same issues all to widen their margins and compete with other companies who do or is similar to them. But before the media clean up and their efforts to become more informed and better companies and brands and before and during the rise of the internet it was sometimes made known by mostly insightful undercover documentaries which was an undercover agent reporter who would get a job at a bad company or brand and film evidence to show the general public of all the at times horrific things they were doing leaving it up to us to decide what action was to be taken as it wasn’t just made to say look at this ain’t it terrible at a guess and was something you take some sort of action against like what they were asking for demanding change, doing better and keeping us all informed instead of hiding it and it becoming the dirty secret that could ruin your brand or company when it came out. By accepting the problems from these greedy companies and other fields and behaviour spectrums you are being part of the problem and throwing your money at the devil or as I said doing a co-signing or a contract with the devil and you are throwing your soul away if you do so in my opinion. Again being informed about unethical practices and misuse of power from well-known brands and companies and the fact they can be cancelled and boycotted cos boycotting comes with the cancellation if you want to get your toes fully wet. But the fact they can be cancelled and boycotted is power to the people and is something that is very important in the climate of today. People don’t want to eat, wear or buy into something that was made from mistreatment humans and animals respectable though animals get the worse wrap out of the two, and also it must be cleanly made not something that was made and polluting the earth which is something companies are only starting to acknowledge and work on which does get a shout if they are doing all the good things they say they do say on the label print of your favourite brand or company. The other thing people expect when buying into a company or brand is and is nothing new but we expect quality and good for your money. Okay with the prices of high-end products, it’s not always easy to give the customer value so maybe not the second thing is quantity as my friend would say it’s quality over quantity and with these high-end brands it is just that. But charging ridiculous prices for stuff you could get up to 60% sometimes 90% cheaper that works and is more affordable come to find out what you paid for was a dud and you are not happy with the product no matter how much you pretend and justify it by saying things like maybe it’s just this one or maybe I got it wrong with getting it to work properly you still ain’t happy and felt let down and once again betrayed or at best confused as that’s not what was sold to me or I was told or even read about as some people pay other people to post fake reviews or positive posts around the social media and \the internet which is why I always use Trust Pilot for legit reviews on products I’m buying to make sure I know what I’m buying into and this wasn’t always how I was but I learned from my mistakes. 

Mr Beast is the most successful YouTuber to date and specializes in fast-paced quote unquote action-packed short videos where you would have several people who would compete for a life-changing amount of money or in some videos give away money and luxury items to random strangers in all cases people who were poor and couldn’t afford or wished they had that type of money. The most shocking videos were the Making 100 Blind People See For The First Time video and his follow-up video Making 100 Deaf People Hear For The First Time which I thought seeing on my timeline was just outrageous. Okay, it was good that someone was paying for their surgery and they get to hear or see for the first time or in years and decades and was something they always dreamt of but could never afford it. It’s the god-like persona and throwing water in the other people’s faces who never got the chance to win that raffle to get their eyes or ears worked over. Also, the expression coined by a disabled person it was something like disability porn which means media using disabled people as props to make the non-disability people feel better about themselves and think I’m not that bad it could be worse quote unquote and in most cases those people are used and slowly or rapidly flushed out the conversation when they are done using that person or people. Do I think Mr Beast cares and was using disabled people as disability porn no I don’t but I know he cares about ratings and is smart when it comes to trends on YouTube and what makes a great video, thumbnail and gaining a worldwide audience it’s transactionally without a doubt but I do believe he does it with good intent and is generally a nice person and nothing yet has alerted me about him like toxic behaviour apart from the office banter and that can always get offensive so mwah. He was recently put under the microscope and was cancelled losing views and probably money due to the two things I will briefly explain. As I said his videos are fast-paced and have a big budget and kind of populated the market on YouTube for high-end good high-quality videos and it is noted the style he was doing and created was recreated by some after seeing the amount of views he had and just for reference his best videos is Squid Game In Real Life with a whopping 541 million views earning. $456,000 in revenue off YouTube making him one of the most successful YouTubers and one of the most watched YouTubers of the time. But with all those views and money came the scrutiny like where was this money coming from like $500.000, the money for the Ferrari car classic red style that you might have seen one in real life or at the best and you were born before the the late 90s seen on Gran Turismo game on PlayStation one or two I can’t remember now not important though. Well apparently the money wasn’t just coming from the revenues of videos or even his failed ventures but more on that in a minute. The money was also coming from illegal gambling and his shady business practises where he would invest in a company early on and sell dreams to passers-by with money and are looking to invest, he would promise things like high returns IE a nice sum of money at the end of it if you invest x amount for x amount of years. Only to do dirty and an expression used in business I’ve heard before they would pull the rug meaning cash in their investments without sharing any profits or money made and leave the other investors in limbo and with no money or returns as promised to keep every last penny or dollar the other investors invested in and they know what they are doing and do it with ease and from the jump saying things like you’re going be rich and a toast to the winner or something like that. It’s basically a pyramid scheme where the rich gets richer whilst the unknown and the poorest or less wealthy and powerful get duped and ripped off but at the time of the so-called deal are made to feel they are losing out if they don’t act now, sound familiar to you. As for the illegal gambling there is one video where he is on an illegal website and in the reflection of the big panel windows and the big monitor they had the logo of the illegal gambling site and was heavily visible and he is seen leaning over in this Yatzies style fashion if that makes sense like he was rolling dice or something. Now I don’t know my Adam from my Eve when it comes to illegal gambling sites or recognizing logos so if that was a gambling website logo is not even questionable to be honest as I believe it was why wouldn’t it be and like they lie about something that is easy to verify. Do I think he is involved in illegal gambling and pyramids schemes well there is no saying and at this point can’t be proved by me so I won’t say and that’s not to disclaim others or back him up as I will say due to the cost of his videos him and his team makes it wouldn’t surprise me and by the way he claims all the money made goes back into his YouTube videos and helps pay for all the things people were speculating on like where was all this money was coming from and how he managed to make so much money in so little time if that was true and he was self-funding these videos and done it without things like sponsorship and revenue from YouTube. The other factor that was talked about and is the other reason why he has fallen out of popularity was his choices in business practices though he fired back at the ones who manage his business by suing them and claiming it had nothing to do with him or the brands he made. His first venture was his burgers which you couldn’t nip down to the local to get that burger you’ve been craving you had to order it and get it from a kitchen that made them as basically there wasn’t any restaurant either not even one like you would see at your favourite and non-favourite fast food chains. But never the fewer burger fans and fans rushed to their phones and ordered a burger with the curiosity of what it was going to taste like and due to the fact things like heavy logo images placed in his videos and the promotion it got in those videos where in one video Mr Beasts states you haven’t tasted a burger till you tasted the Mr Beast burger basically hyping it up and once again selling people lies and getting other people well known YouTubers and Z list celebrities who probably took the Mr Beast challenge and earnt themselves some side money and gave good feedback by saying things like best burger with some making over the top delicious sounds like they were over enjoying it or they were starved for days by Mr Beast and that was the first meal they had since they last ate that was sarcasm or was it? Judging by the reviews people were given after tasting the Mr Beast burger it left them underwhelmed and surprise, surprise disappointed. People were quick to buy the burger and record themselves on video unboxing and eating it giving first impressions and taste and quality-like reviews. People called out the quality of the burgers stating it wasn’t even real patty a substitute for real meat or real beef and is still an acceptable form of meat for most cooks and chefs. They also said how it wasn’t even seasoned and in my opinion and judging by my own eyes it looked like a no-frills burger you would find in the more cheaper shops where it is well known you might not be buying say real meat or 100% meat and is mixed with pork and in some cases horse or some sort of alternative mixed mixture and could have parts of nasty bits in you just wouldn’t eat if there were separate or known which it used to be unknown but again with the rise of the internet it has become more transparent and food chains get called out and boycotted when found out and they get a bad reputation and that is bad in a business stance just to point out the obvious. After the burger venture, he later went on to have two other failed businesses his what we would call here in the UK the Dairylea Lunchers and his toys venture. The Dairylea knockoff which was actually set up to be another company’s rival who had the same kind of foods inside and must be overseas snacks as I have never heard of the rival company. The snacks were once again pumped up and made to be the next best thing by making stats compassions from nutrition value to source of meat and its value to the taste test and even as far as saying it’s more healthier than the rival brand and once again getting well known YouTubers to taste the product and give feedback other than joining in with the debrand of the other brand like saying how much better and healthier their product was. People took issue with this as his audience is young and impressionable and would buy into most things as that’s their favourite says the YouTuber in this case he’s trustworthy and in fact getting a young person to determine a trustworthy person from a non-trustworthy person most would find it hard and is the only experience that stops the young and older people from making the same mistakes but happens all in your younger days of life for most. Mr Beast’s toy collection is the classic example of selling and targeting younger audience who are impressionable and still lacking knowledge of how the earth is ran which in a nut shell after your wallet and commitment to brands and companies and getting them rich while we just float along which isn’t the case for all brands, companies and even media but everything or most things is like a strip club no money no lap dance or pole action which I do believe in paying for some services since they shouldn’t have the brunt of paying out for people’s needs and pleasures not if they are paying for them but there are a lot of free and open source software that is similar but most of them you don’t the premier options but apart from that they are great open source software which means it’s free and free to anyone who with like most of the software is using it for non commercial use Gimp the alternative to Photoshop is a free open source software that comes to mind and is something I personally use for all my virtually art and other things like making games and making cover art for my music if I’m not just whacking a title and my artist name over the photo I found online, and use it quite frequently. 

The other person who was heavily discussed and got cancelled and the last person on the list before I wrap it up is James Charles. For those who don’t know who he is, he’s another successful makeup guru on YouTube but not as successful as his rival Jeffery Star but never the less he too had a following and sold out makeup pallets and like most of his other rivals blasted on your computer monitors in the late 2010s and came after Jeffery Star with his makeup brand and and the Jeffery Cosmetics branch. He was and continues to fall into hot water after a video was made about him accusing James of inappropriate texts to underage straight boys and a waiter made another video where he claims James badgered him into getting off with him and potentially sleeping with him even though he stated he was underage and not comfortable with the idea and felt pressured into doing something so he made out with James. This was sort of backed up by a resurfaced YouTube video where he openly admits to liking underaged boys and then his own words stated how he likes straight men he could basically turn out and he seemed turned on and sexually aggressive of the fact he could do this watching the video and is another too much power for those little hands scenario and another classic example of abuse of power. He did make that one apology video like all the others before getting taken down in the hope it would all blow over and be forgotten about but there are always people who don’t forgive or forget and look for copies of the video to repost or they are doing it for views and likes but is a necessary thing I think on the internet as nothing should be just deleted or hide evidence or in this case hiding the lie of the apology. Holding yourself accountable means admitting you have a problem and taking a sort of call to action which means seeking some sort of help for the vice that holds you so well not making a quick and easy apology where you address the issues shift blame or even apologise for your actions like Jeffery Star James Charles only to do it again it’s like they don’t care and think they are untouchable and also unstoppable when that is not the case and is something that is being asked by many YouTube outlets and people when will they just fly away or actually be cancelled but for good and question the remaining fans and customers on what their values actually are from what I gather. The other factor for the downfall and cancellation of James Charles was the whole Sugar Bear Gate which is what I called it and for those who don’t know what that was or how it happened, I briefly explain. James Charles started the drama when he posted a swipe-up ad which is meant to be an engaging way for buyers to interact with the post and discover new and exciting products that were or are being launched. He promoted the Sugar Bear Hair brand line at the music festival popular to influencers called Coachchella a festival held in the desert and going by what was said about the events it attracts influencers and celebrities but mostly influencers and is filled with people taking meaningless photos and videos on their phones around gorgeous settings and backdrops rather than enjoying the music or scene and maybe I don’t know dance. And not just cos you are going get a good photo or segment for a later-on video you put together to show off your experience and is also noted is where the influencer’s brand owners go to and where you may be sponsored if you have been called and at worse get merch which consists of high-end fashion brands, makeup, accessories and other expensive gifts which you pay for at more affordable prices even though sometimes or all the time is always expensive price tags but you are getting a discount and don’t pay retail prices from fashion huts as it’s been explained to me by YouTube videos. Now if you are not in the loop and you may be thinking what does promoting a swipe-up ad about a product called Sugar Bear be so dramatic it’s a product for your hair.

You see there is another well-known YouTube beauty guru. Like the other makeup gurus, a professional makeup artist called Tati Westbrook who had her own line of beauty, hair and skin lines which she was launching called Halo Beauty and was in direct competition with James Charles’s line Sugar Bear Hair. According to Tati herself she felt hurt and betrayed by James for swiping her IE being all friendly and doing countless videos together where he calls her mum and how she taught him the game of the makeup industry allowing him to launch his own products only for James to steal the competition and cut Tati short in financial and also in her own personally life and way. Tati claims she reached out to James but got a cold and stiff reply after a while of waiting and wanted to brush it off as some sort of silly mistake but the messages she got back from Charles only backed up her thoughts. This caused Tati to lash out and make the infamous Bye Sister video as something to explain quickly James calls his fans sisters and in the Bye Sister video Tati explicitly calls out James for the sugar bear incident, explains the backdrop of the matter and her own side of the story whilst dragging other famous TikTok and YouTubers in the conversation and explicitly made strong allegations that James was a sexual predator, preyed on what appears to be underaged vulnerable young men and boys and several other things like being a bad friend and not being a real sister to being narcissistic and toxic and also she heard him speak badly about yet another YouTube beauty guru and makeup artists

Jaqueline Hill when she was nothing but nice him and aided him to his once success at the time. It became an ever-growing back-and-forth tale tell well she said I looked fat in pink, well he said I hated the colour green kind of thing. This is by the way I think is the reason why James got cancelled and the people who came forward with their own allegations against Charles backed up what Tati was saying in the Bye Sister video she recorded and put out on her YouTube channel. Que Jeffery Star again as he after watching the Bye Sister video he had a lot to say about the situation siding with Tati and calling out James and saying nasty and sly comments about him adding more fuel to the fire. Like true YouTube fashion they all later go on to deny they said all those allegations they said about each other and they all admitted of having flaws in their relationship but was something they would like just to move on from as one said it the other joined the skipping and repeated what the original person said which does make sense but what about the victims they won’t go away as easy and people would want to forever know what really happened and if it was all true. It’s also noted that after things died down and people were left to speculate people and began to push blame and speculate on Jeffery Star’s involvement of the Bye Sister video Tati made and then and afterwards since he was dominating the world with his pallets like the Jeffery Star and Shane Dawson Conspiracy Pallet and another sale out cosmetics and both were competitors of Jeffery so it makes sense that he would knock them out the park so he could be at the full front of the cosmetic world of YouTube especially, but also the whole wide world getting him more shop stores and revenue and stopping both James and Tati from getting at his market as that’s a daunting and worrying factor that could happen and as we saw in Sugar Bear gate it has happened as like any chain or most business it’s a cut throat industry and only the most cut throat will go home with that bag IE money but that’s not always the case. I used James Charles, Tati Brooks, Jeffery Star and Sugar Bear Gate as examples as I think it’s classic examples of if true and in James Charles’s case misuse of power and wealth, in Tati’s case the misuse of her platform and utilizing people with ammunition in order to fire at James without evidence or presenting evidence and did it out of spite and angrier or though I do see where she is coming from and was sort of or shadier coming from James’s part I personally would rather of done a collab and split the profits myself. And finally If true Jeffery is guilty of adding fuel to the fire and masterminding a plot to bring down his rival brands and using the innocent like Tati to fight the battle and crush the grape so to speak by spreading misinformation to the YouTube outlets and letting them report on the misinformation Jeffery pays for them to spread and talk about it which in most cases the real hidden issue is unknown to them and they think they are running with real tea IE gossip or information they believe in and are against and they know needs to be talked about so basically most are duped into feeding into the narrative presented until they start to investigate and come to find out it was all lies and they were used or stories don’t just match up and the consistency of the topic shows heavy cracks on the surface.

 

MY FINAL THOUGHTS

First of all, if you made it all the way to the end congratulations and thanks so much for reading this now extensive coverage of just some of the pressing issues being discussed and have been discussed on YouTube especially but is over all the social media platforms as a whole. I really didn’t plan on making it this long and had a lot of explaining to do for those who don’t tune into the gossip and celebrity news channels and for those who are not on YouTube and frequent users to know who those people are or you might just have a different feed than most users of the social media platform. I must admit I didn’t have a clue who Jeffery Star was or at least I rediscovered him after clicking on one of his Makeup tutorial videos on YouTube which was in my feed after being intrigued did I got inundated with his content and the infamous videos I discussed like the Bye Sister video and also coverage from YouTube gossip and drama channels started to flood my feed around the same time I first clicked on one of his videos. I don’t even like makeup but I must admit I was drawn by the personality and all the makeup scandalous that followed and was publicly made by those outlets. I’m not saying we are all perfect and I’m not even saying I’m perfect or e should have perfect pitch all the time but making people accountable for their actions they don’t make amends to or even acknowledge the problem or problems is something I think should be held accountable for no matter who you are and despite the controversial rise of the downfall and the ever-growing list of cancelled people we must all do our bit but keep in my mind this is a great responsibility and is something that shouldn’t be done as I said before and a few times in this post be done willy nilly and with no actual good enough reasons or most important evidence and we should make decisions after hearing other sides of the story, other people’s testaments and hard evidence but saying all that keep an open view of the situations and take people seriously if they do come forward with strong allegations about that person by not  making excuses for them and hold them accountable for all the crimes they committed no matter how much you like and respect or admire that person. It’s easy to shut your eyes and count to ten and the problem vanishes in mid-air and by not shutting your eyes and counting to ten you are helping the world and at times vulnerable people or people who are stuck in bad situations and it becomes harder than ever to put up with such things like being a sexual predator, being toxic and even just bad people in generally and we must push back from all of this as it’s making the world more stupid, carefree, soulless and more narcissistic with bad behaviour being reward whilst good behaviour is being shunned and ridiculed as everyone loves a real bad bitch or boy even though that’s not part of the keeping it real package some people may think it is. Also being just like them doesn’t mean you are exempt from reprisal or that you are safe and those same people don’t show you or talk about the demons they have and most importantly struggle with and when some of them do it is glorified and all about selling that image of being that bitch or boy in most cases which is not having a mental illness is about but that’s one instance. Cancel culture as I said before but to put it more bluntly and to wrap up this blog post is the key to unlocking the sanctuary for both us and other people who are like and not like us and I think is the key we are looking for to push back on on people who abuse power, unacceptably toxic or other things. When used right it can bring people justice and hope for a better day and future and ends their pain and misery or at least stop the pain from rising to the top as they have been heard and people responded which should make them a bit more happy as people are fighting your corner and most importantly believe you even though you thought or were told that no one would and you were alone which can’t be a good feeling. Those who lie and do it for clout something I never covered in this post but is another problem when facing being on the internet but they should be sued like Tasha K and held accountable by the public and come down more heavily on them instead of allowing people to make up lies that pull on your heartstrings and feed into the more vulnerable side you have which is thirsty for insightful information and backstage passes of the behind the scenes to get a glimpse of what really goes on in Hollywood, the music industry and social media outlets like YouTube where everything is fabricated and concealed to hide things and to stop you from finding out the truth and further down the line to prevent you from stop spending money on the person, company or brand.  so it’s all bout the money surprise surprise. Before I go I would like to thank YouTube channels Spill Sesh, LovelyT,  The Empressive Channel, Tee Noir, Tea Spill and Cruel World Happy Mind for their insightful videos and for bringing troubling issues to my attention minus all the makeup scandalous but was still insightful and enjoyable to watch. I did this mostly all from the memory of what I have watched in the past and without those videos I watched I wouldn’t be able to make this blog post or even question my own alliance with black people and black culture or my own alliance with the ones I hold dear AKA the celebrity or in more my case rappers, singers and musicians of the music industry from the older to the newer generations. All the channels mentioned get a thumbs up as they are none biased channels and are points of view they didn’t shy away from which is always nice to hear someone was covering things others were too scared to do even though they are later copied by a copy cat for views and to emulate their success but once again thank you and well done for being that Louis Lane beeatch lol.

Beyonce Act II Country Music And The Hypocrisy Of Black Music Standards

March 30, 2024

INTRO

If you are not aware of it Beyonce has new album out a country album to follow along Renaissance her club and Afro Beats infused album that ran along side her tour also called Renaissance. Wow she’s doing good a successful tour and album with this one following on Act II a Country album which as I will explain is going to break barriers and change the hypocrisy of what people would call black music or associate with black music. I’m actually listening to the album right now for the first time so I will give my review of the album at the end it has 24 tracks on so it’s quite a long one but some of them are short songs. So far the first track is very Shania Twain and the second track is very traditional reminds me a 60s songs I’ve heard it before by a different artist. I must admit I love the fact she’s done it in different act something I would like to do say three different genres but call them chapters or something but linked somehow altogether. Now I think about it the horse on the first album goes well with this album Act II which has a very patriotic western theme  and also has a horse on the album cover. I think it was in all a clever thing to do and makes music interesting again and also dare I say inspiring yeah inspiring. The internet was buzzing with this album with various of funny memes and statements all for the album and some said they put down the Renaissance album and play the crap out of her new album which came out last night 12.00 AM 29/03/2024,  whilst some asked for Act III to come out so they can rotate all three albums. Hang on don’t be a bitch come take it to the floor now HEY lol! I’m on Texas Hold Em I like this one reminiscent of country the melody is catchy. So far I’m getting country music from throughout the decades this one Bodyguard very flowers in her hair style it feels 90s or something you would hear at a festival or light gig it’s very radio friendly too, so far no skips.  Well I was expecting Dolly Parton to be on the album but not as a intro lol that hozzy what a skank we would say. Now I would like to watch Dolly and Beyonce on stage singing Jolene that’s the next track after the Dolly intro. Oh I love it the bleedy sheets on dirty floor or whatever she said very country and upbeat for the next track Daughter, I really like the lyrics for this one called Daughter and the melody. Oooh no sause for Spaghetti the next track a bit of Hip Hop, oh okay like the other album a change up to country music near the end keep it country lol, still no skips Alligator just finished. Well I just finished listening to the album and yeah no skips and a good country album with one or two southern Hip Hop I’m guessing. But I enjoyed the album something I would actually play again if I was in the mood. Will she get her Grammy for this or are they going to say there wasn’t enough traditional pieces in we were find out but check it out if you haven’t already it’s worth a play I would say and not something I would usually go for.  

THE ORIGINS OF COUNTRY MUSIC

The Banjo a well known southern instrument was in fact a instrument made from Western Africans who crossed the Transatlantic in the slave trade and the instrument was made out of gourds, called the Akonting. For Four hundred years the enslaved made their own music including hymns, spirituals, and field song, all with roots in African music. It is said that playing the Banjo in the 1840s was exclusively a Black instrument and was unheard of for a white person to play the banjo. The instrument has had a controversial rise to music fame as in the  In the 1850s, minstrel shows became grossly popular and depicted enslaved Africans as slow, lazy and as cannibals, also it was depicted with Banjos which in affect popularised the Banjo within the white communities inventing the genre Hillbilly music around in the 1920s. Hillbilly music later changed to Country music, first artist drew inspiration from from slave spirituals, field songs, hymns, and the blues, which itself has black origins. Despite America in the 1920s and 1930s being  segregated Hillbilly and black artists would collaborate on songs which became popular and nearly 50 black artists would appear on successful songs with white artists because the music was seen as a black genre but changed hands with white people back and fourth. It was in fact after World War I after 1918 when Hillbilly music got changed to Country music after a big push from the record companies who wanted to start selling Country music but couldn’t due to the race of those artists. The black artists who were signed to a record company in the 1920s was underpaid and didn’t get any recognition. There music was sold on to white artists who were the stand ins and made Country music a white genre with the help of the record companies whose audience favoured middle white America looking people. DeFord Bailey was the one of the first Black musicians to gain recognition and was the first to play the Grand Ole Opry—a big deal for country musicians. His harmonica playing style greatly influenced the country musicians that followed him. Succeeding Bailey was  Charley Pride. As mentioned before, Pride was the first black artist to be inducted into the Country Music Hall of Fame and is often referred to as “country music’s first Black superstar.” He served as an inspiration for countless Black musicians. In their tow, Ray Charles was responsible for blending country with R&B and pop music in a way that would forever change the genre. His music also helped fuel the civil rights movement. Bailey, Pride, and Charles are three of the most recognizable Black names in country music, but there are many lesser known names that have also been critical in forming the genre. Gus Cannon was a Black musician who helped popularize jug bands (a precursor to country) in the 1920s and ended up teaching Johnny Cash, a world renowned white country singer. In addition, the guitar fingerpicking style that is largely used in country music today was developed by Black guitarist Leslie Riddle. Still to this day black artists still struggle to get the recognition and acknowledgement they deserve for their work in 2019 rapper Lil Nas’s Rap and Country song Old Town Road was removed from the Country Billboards Charts when Rolling Stone told Billboard, “it does not embrace enough elements of today’s country music to chart in its current version. Also some Country fans accused Lil Nas of cultural appropriation for wearing a cowboy hat but you can’t even wear a pouch without being called Skippy the wannabe kangaroo in my opinion. Beyonce also got in some heat when she released, “Daddy’s Lessons,” in 2016, she faced heavy backlash from the industry despite the fact that the hit single includes all the elements of traditional country music. Even when Beyonce performed “Daddy’s Lessons” at the 2016 Country Music Awards with The Chicks, country fans were enraged and some heckled her one woman said “get that black bitch off the stage.” She additionally submitted the record for a Grammy but was denied. Linda Martell was the first black woman to break into the Country industry and gain success with her 1970s album Colour Me Country it’s hard for black woman to break into the industry and even though there has been a rise in black female country singers in more recent years they are still faced with the same issues.

THE REVOLUATION OF BLACK COUNTRY MUSIC

I really do think it’s revelational as music should be as not only is she opening doors for other Country black artists but she is also reclaiming the lost history and the origins of Country music. There’s a stigma of what people expect of you being black or biracial which is all the urban genres like Hip Hop and Trap here in the UK UK Garage and UK Funky and House which I do actually make but I also like my synthesizers. I’m obsessed with them actually so I make Vapourwave, a bit of Progressive Rock, Synthwave and general synthy vibes which some people would class as white genres but I always said it doesn’t have a colour, I think no genre is White, Black, Asian or other apart from the tribal and traditional stuff from around the world. The boundaries of what people find is black or white is a recurring thing that happens and something I face a little bit in my own life and I think Beyonce’s album Act II is going to break boundaries and the hypocrisy between the races whilst defining the genre in the new form which incorporates other genres such as Hip Hop and other urban genres if it is acknowledge that is. As I said before it would open doors for other black artists who may of come before her and been doing this despite all the backlash and hate that they might get due to it being a white dominated genre. It’s kind of shallow to think that a person doesn’t like anything but Hip Hop and urban genres that’s like saying all Mexican’s drink Tequila and especially when they have strong roots in the genre and was pushed out due to race or race and or being a black woman. I think there is some sort of hypocrisy of what the races identify as being white or black and that is heavily linked in music and the fact the white race are being pushed more then the black race which makes it seem like the white race invented all these genres when really it was passionate black musicians that paved the way for the genre to grow into a mainstream staple diet. There is no denying that things such as colourism and sex has major parts in making it in the music industry and I’m guessing they start where they finish the big wigs I mean who push for what they call desirable and fashion too. Black people are undermined and underpaid and arts are quickly taken away from them and used, as in a video I watched on YouTube as toys just something to play around with and to suit the mainstream audience they are trying to extract money from. I’m sorry to say but most even all of the old white but black singing artists are replacements for the undesirable or what they call undesirable which is black, big nose, big ears and non straight hair again also a thing in fashion and Hollywood. And as we know the south of America and America as a whole can be pretty racists and some do not welcome African and West Indies American descendants into their life or anyone who is not white American. I saw this one example on Facebook this girl took a black boy or young man to the Prom and the mother was f’ing and blinding saying she’s cutting her allowance and even her life insurance she really stomped on her. I was like dang she really doesn’t like black people and she’s going to need that in case she got shot that’s a joke but I think that is the nasty way society is xenophobic and scared of the unknown so they cast it out. I feel there needs to be a lot done when it comes to changing the perception of what music is and the roots of each genre not to mock anyone who came before and paved the way. There is still like ugh you like rock you’re white or any other white based genre. Only once have I experienced slight undertones of racism it was on Tumblr when I used to make a lot of Progressive Rock tracks or call them that even some of them weren’t but anyway he wrote “sorry you ain’t got the long silky hair” and other comments that I thankfully forgot. He was referencing that most of the Progressive Rock bands had long silky straight hair and I was never too be marketed as Progressive Rock as I have a afro, that was it one message read “stick to what you know” as to say this is not the allocated genre for me. It’s funny cos some people actually expect you to stick with the allocated genres like Hip Hop and make a bigger deal if you are of colour even though they are just getting on with it and not trying to be ground-breaking or life changing you actually like that genre and been listening for all your life and was brought up with it. It’s not a well known fact and I don’t really put it as one of genres I like but I like Country. I like Johnny Cash, Dolly Patron, Hank Williams and Pasty Cline or though Pasty Cline’s music reminds me of sitting by the bar drinking myself to oblivion cos my girlfriend cheated on me that’s the feeling I get from her music. But I like country more so when Grand Theft Auto San Andres came out it was one of my favourite but secret favourite stations. Okay it’s not my favourite genre but I enjoy it and actually reminds me of being in a bar or Karaoke night when Johnny Cash the second or Dolly Parton the second takes the stage. Not only that Country is seen as naff or Hillbilly it’s not cool for a young person to listen to Country in the eyes of the young but Beyonce will change that and make it more fashionable. Not only that she’s doing the music industry a big favour by making a Country album as there has been a resurged of Country music in the last couple of years so it works in their favour and music is more inspiring as I said I feel inspired by her two latest albums even though I would never make Country I haven’t got the tools for one or knowledge for two. I like the fact that other black artist incorporate country with other genres like Hip Hop and people who work for Billboards need to start welcoming country infused with other genres for the sake of Country they can always push out the traditional artists too. Hip Hop got turned into Trap which is a Southern America genre but the UK has it’s own spin too, so why not welcome the new styles of Country and allow black artist to shine and make changes instead of being part of the problem. It’s all down to the outside world perception and what they would call black or urban or white if there wasn’t such undertones of racism there would be more balance within the genres and more freedom to express the genres you like without the fear of being laughed at or being laughed at and also make the music you exactly like instead of spitting unmeaningful lyrics or being a stereotype you know you’re not all to fit into your culture. Though this isn’t one sided and comes from all the races and sides which is all tribalism based stuff and a interesting topic to talk about. The basis of real tribalism is working together as a team and putting any race issues aside the old your English I’m English that is one angle. But the Western tribalism is all clicky and you all must look the same to fit into the gang or tribe which translate into music so horribly well. That’s why it’s so important for people like Beyonce to smash a few doors down someone well known and has done the rounds and also respected. Just how many boy bands come after Take That or N’Sync how many Janet and Michael Jackson’s were there. They made music or was in a group that inspired so many people and Beyonce is one of those people and has inspired so many artists out now but granted she has her haters too but who doesn’t. I only said that as I think it would inspire black artist to do a country album or put elements in their songs who wasn’t even diehard country music fans to begin with. Not to mention as I said before it will aid other artists who make Country and put them on the map too and to also tell them to keep following their dreams even though the odds may be against them but now it works more in their favour. Popular music you hear say on the radio, on YouTube Music, Spotify etc etc it’s all been demographically done and should appeal to the massive not just a group of people or though it is marketed at them but it’s marketed for everyone at the same time. That’s why there is no colour when it comes to music genres and the way we consume it or even sex or though artists like the City Girls are pushed for the girls with all those hypersexual lyrics and money money money lines but it can appeal to anyone I liked Twerkalator I would of listened to that more if it was pushed but guess they have gone now. 

My Seven Mental Health Songs

May 10, 2022

MY MENTAL HEALTH JOURNEY

This week is Mental Health Awareness Week here in the UK so I thought I’d do something around mental health and something with music. But before I do that I’d like to talk a little bit about my journey with mental health and where I feel I am today. My experience with hearing voices came from an early age after an unfortunate event in my life I won’t get into but all of a sudden I was hearing voices and I was alone and in my own world for decades before I got help in 2016. But all before that I lived with hearing voices and having paranoid thoughts due to smoking the wrong weed called K2  and other synthetic drugs I didn’t know were synthetic but that was the worse stages of the episodes and thoughts that are invading and can get quite rough. But tIt caused me to act weird which as an embarrassed teen around that time I used to cringe at my outbursts but not now I kind of look pasts that and know I don’t do that and was just the young me trying to survive in the ever-changing world. The silly thing was I never told anyone that I was hearing voices and that was because I felt safe and it was always fun to wake up to do something I was also adventurous and I still am in a way but I was always on the go and loved each day with my dog and the few people I let into my life as I was paranoid but all for the good reasons and at the end of the day kept me safe and off the hard drugs which I’ve never touched and I mean non Class A party drugs like heroin or crack. It was also some other events in my life that made the voices intense to more I’m going die vibes which were fueled by outside thoughts and people it was bad but I always fought the devils and tried to do my best till it got too much and I kind of gave up for the meantime and focused on getting my mental and health together and get over all the things that had happened in the past. In 2016 I was admitted to a hospital ward for psychosis and I’ve been taking medication ever since which helps with the irrational thoughts and the episodes which I am grateful for. I’ve built my confidence up and my memory is getting stronger as I kind of lost my memory or at least I forgot about all the good things and concentrated on the bad which suffocated me and lead me down a dark and lonely path which was hell and somewhere I won’t be going back to as I wouldn’t let it get that bad again oh no. It makes you do outrageous things and the paranoid thoughts are intense and not something I enjoyed especially when smoking weed and taking some drugs which I did bring on myself but I was self-medicating and trying to cope in my own way while making great moves in life but as I said that came as a toll which was the stresses and lifestyle choices equaled to a more unstable me but it wasn’t the work. Somehow the paranoid thoughts got worse and I could no longer feel like I could work or even get out of bed there were days when I wouldn’t even go anywhere and was too paranoid to go to anyone I thought I was being watched and thought everyone was talking about me or wanted to do some sort of harm but to be fair this started at an early age but it came back and got worse each time with stuff I was adding up that didn’t even come up to the right total and now I think about it it was common math problems but being young and unknowing it was hard to judge it right and of course, my mind wasn’t in the right place though I was pretending it didn’t exist in the most difficult situations I choose when to listen to the voices as sometimes the information must have been my sub conscious talking to me like old memories but it came in the form of people in my head talking to me and it was good and bad stuff but mainly a mix of dark and light slash funny stuff.

I have cut off a lot of people I knew in the past like old friends as I wasn’t comfortable being around them and always thought negative thoughts about how they see me and so forth which soon came with evidence now we have grown apart and it’s been a long time so it’s the time apart that did it but no one makes the effort even me as I have seen they didn’t so it was kind of like well I don’t need this and left it for them to get in touch with me if they wanted but some people I left as I do not like to be the donkey of the group and made small because of my beliefs or where I was going or even been which is not here or there but I’ve been to a lot of good places which causes a lot of hate and I have my own band of haters but we all do so apparently it’s normal. Getting rid of toxic people and being with the people that make you happy not like a piece of poop but that is something I had to do to heal myself which was a long and drawn-out process also admitting and wanting the help that comes from you and only when I was ready which was after I was admitted and I realized I couldn’t even go back to the being the local nutter and try to revert back to when I was cooler and calmer which was certain times like being on holiday where it was easy to forget the problems I had but when I didn’t go on holiday which was must years I would go for walks or go out of the city for the day but I don’t really go anywhere nowadays. I’ve been thinking recently and I’m now looking for a change I don’t want fame and never wanted fame but I do want to be comfortable like most people where I don’t have to worry about certain things. But more importantly, I’m alone and looking for something to do instead of being in my room thinking and over making music which I now want to do a bit less which means not every day but I do worry people will forget me quick so that is why I post nearly every day. I mean I do like being alone I’m used to being alone and doing something as I like to be occupied and can’t be sitting down doing anything as I might have oversaid by now but that’s the other reason. I do vow to do something about it though and have made a few arrangements that will hopefully make my life better or worse but I’m a big believer in the new start it does take some work though but when I’m on something I’m on it. The truth is I stagnated for too long and now I’m trying to break out of that shell and try and do something new and hopefully meet more friends or meet old ones but I’m way over that paranoid feeling I’m more I have to grab the bull by the horns times and do it cos I can’t keep up with the isolation routine it’s numbing but I do speak to people though. The stigma of having a mental illness is something that I have also experienced throughout my mental health experience and even though we have come a long way it still is unheard of. I feel people are undermined or looked down on if they have a mental health problem and I also feel no matter how much you hear it can happen and you bet I did it even though I was “ill” like go to university which some people are doubting me because of my illness which is why I can’t forgive these people or want to know them for any more time I mean the haters, okay but my friends and family well I’ve seen enough.

MUSIC AND MY MENTAL HEALTH

From an early age, I used music not only to express myself but also to understand my pains and problems and mental health was one thing I used a lot which started with Queen I’m Going Simply Mad but went to stuff that wasn’t really about mental health but the love fall out and other tracks which I felt helped me to understand and overcome some of my problems. This is why I believe in music healing and believe songs can unlock your heartache and cure it. Of course, the dark side to it which there was a dark side on some tracks made me think more negative let’s just say but I tend to stay away from the negative songs and concentrate on the more club and of course, the ladies in the 90s rap game which I found helped me with some of the problems like haters. I played the keyboard and write silly songs and poems about my feelings growing up and that also helped me with my problems but that was inspired by the 90s heartbreak songs the point where I felt low due to my voices in the early 90s. It wasn’t really I’m going to sit down and listen to these songs and feel I was in the room and heard it and thought how I could use more of this in my life. When I listen to music I like to remember things and think music is good for bringing back your memory and the right song like that obscure song you were obsessed about or that one-hit-wonder you used to hit the town with which puts me in a sort of delusional state as it was so long ago and a one-off moment in time you say that was the best I’ll never forget but decades down the line you can hardly remember what day it is or some times how old you are I’m now 37. There is always that one song that stays with you but there are lots of songs that can strike memories the more decades you go back you can kind of see the past but it’s a quick flash to the past sometimes I’m standing in the room and that is due to heavy isolation way before they were doing it lol. I mean I use music for everything and listen to it a lot in my downtime when I’m not making music which I also listen to but I’ve recently started getting back into music from other people like from yesteryear and beyond and it’s surprising what I remember. I have a few playlists on my hub if you want to listen to them, it’s in the Testing Site section and it’s called Jukebox. Thankfully liking music helped me grow tastes that were different but it always helped me express how I was feeling which was always a good outlet to let it all go and as I said make me remember the younger me which was a chaotic time for me. My favorite genres for helping with mental health has to be House, R’n’B, and Hip Hop, and those are the three that helped me but in earlier years dance music from the 80s to 2005 and the old house helped me to understand people. That’s the thing I also think it’s good for younger people and kids to understand the world but people I mean I can play a track and feel like they were talking about someone I knew as it was so universal in the laungeue of hate or whatever it was. I mean I feel some people look down at their nose too much House is too gay, or some R’n’B is just for the ladies it’s just music, and as long as it does something like keep you going it’s a good thing as long as you like it that’s all that matters.  

Reggae from the 70s really helped me overcome problems I mean if you really want a genre that ticks all the boxes for mental health struggles reggae is the answer I mean it’s all about feelings and how they feel about situations and statements which I do miss having statements in fashion and in also music only cos everyone had their own identity or there were groups who dress a certain way but also have their own lifestyle. But reggae always made me happy and reminds me of a lot of good times it’s also good for chilling at home on a sunny day of course. I remember the words like kicking them to the curb which is something I still do to this day but I remember it like I was taking the advice of the drunk stranger if you excuse the phrase who would get drunk and tell you your truths as your ride home from the youth club it was sort of like that or though I thought that was a drastic thing to do at the time I got stronger. Sometimes I found myself kicking myself for not going with my gut when I listened to that one song so I did find it useful I will be like I’m going to be the next Fast Lane victim washed up on the streets and so forth or dealing with the haters which I have had a few. Listening to positive music helps with your mental health and can do great things for you I mean the one song I can think of well two actually is I Will Survive or Survoir which are two songs that seem to talk about a woman’s pains it could be anybody but granted I Will Survive is the more woman’s anthem but they are two songs anybody could listen to that will make you see the positive side if you ain’t feeling sorry for yourself and that is somewhere I have been but will never go that low again cos at the end of the day happiness does come from within and that means keeping yourself happy at all costs but not your kids though just throw that in there. I don’t really listen to sad songs when I’m down no more I just sit there it’s best not to feed it positive or negative emotion as it does lead to funny consequences and all that whatever talk just looks silly especially when you are not in the right state of mind I mean silence is something I begin to like and when I’m bored I have nothing else to do but to sit in silence but I think its good to have a bit of silence I mean I used to go the woods with my dog and just chill there and listen to the birds and watch the sky it’s really nice to get out and enjoy nature and have that alone time-space you probably won’t found in a city but that could be listening to music too. What I also like about music and mental health is it brings people together and it’s easier to talk about your problems there have been times in the past where I’ve seen a comment a low person on a sad song but it was either a desperate cry for attention or just someone lost but I was taken back by the sensible responses to the post and be like it’s still a caring world or it was now it’s getting sinister and remotely childish but less said about that but that’s the other thing social media is draining our souls and trust me I love all the platforms even though I’m never or never will be on them as I would probably struggle to found an audience and also I’m really not looking for celebrity status lol which I’m not saying I would have but I’m happy working in the back it somewhere I’ve always been in the back doing something either something that seemed pointless or something creative. I will leave a playlist that has a mental health theme to it and there is a couple about being lonely which goes with this year’s mental health theme which started yesterday 09/05/2022 and runs for a week here in the UK but there is a World Mental Health Day on the 10th October so if I can I do another blog post as it’s something close to my heart. hopefully, there’s a theme you know I love my themes and always doing something theme-based or I used to do.            

Why I Love 80’s Music

February 27, 2022

Some say the 80s music wasn’t that good and was naff which I beg to differ and think there were loads of songs out that were good and tracks I still like to this day. I was born in the 80s and even though I was too young to remember or understand the context of tracks I still enjoyed them and the more I got older the more I understood and realized how good music was. I make music in my spare time and I feel if it wasn’t for the 80s and 90s my music taste would have been different and is where I get my obsession with synthesizers which is 70s too and House which was the 80s phenomenon that exploded and is still here and are the most popular and influential genre that and Drum & Bass. What I also liked about the 80s music was the fact there was so much good stuff and seemed the world was making music there was so much obscure stuff not just from your favorite artists but people you would have never heard of or heard of again yes there was a lot of one-hit wonders and some of them was naff but the beats though. That reminds me people say or said that some of it was too naff and the content was a bit cheesy but the beats were classic and seemed like Electro-Funk but I love my Rare Groove the hits that came from that genre alone which know seems like 80s Pop but whatever it was still good no matter how cheesy it seemed to people. Even though I listened to the mainstream on the radio and tapes and later CD there was a lot of underground artists that I used to listen to from the Electro-Funk and New Groove genres going from pillar to post I heard a lot of music some I would never hear again until I come across it someday like some of them thanks for sharing them. How innocent it was there was no swearing or sex overdrive content which is happening now and all over the place but there would have been a Mary Whitehouse figure who would have brought down the hammer and made actions against this new crisis swiping our neighbourhood. Compared to 90s music where it had a dramatic revamp with gangster rap and R’n’B which I’m surprised some of the lyrics got through as they were racy back then it was all love and candles and wetness but yes compared to the 90s 80s music seemed innocent and all fun and energetic which is why I love 80s music as a whole it was lively not all of it though there was a lot of ballads too which I also like. I have to say it was quite stylish which was fitting for the era and there was a lot of fashion moments from the 80s that people still wear today and it comes back around but it wasn’t the best era for fashion I mean bright colors and baggy stuff and big hair it was all about the hair, hair was a big thing back then.  

The thing that really impressed me and is what I love is Electro Funk and Electro Boogaloo that is my obsession and is something I really love but never can find the right tracks. When I was younger I used to listen to them and think I will make something like this one day and I do every now and then at least the backdrop to the songs but I love Electro from the 80s and I’m still not sure what to call it as it has rap in but it’s listed under something else stuff like off Wildstyle off GTA Vice City that is my favorite genre from the 80s and I can listen to that all day. The main artist I listened to when I was younger was the four main artists from the 80s Michael Jackson, Madonna, and Prince and Queen but all the artists from the early 80s and 70s and 60s were the main four I listened to a lot. There are tracks that I got bored of though and that’s thanks to radio play and overplaying it myself I won’t name any names but there are a few I no longer play and retired for now. In my spare time, I liked to hunt for obscure tracks I had forgotten and go through lists of tracks to find the best ones which take a lot of time but it’s worth it I feel. I remember Sundays being Top 40 on the radio and Friday was Top Of The Pops which were two shows I used to tune into and did for two decades before it got boring and I had other options but Friday and Sunday were the music days for me. Other than New Groove, Electro, and Rap I love 80s House and there is so much of it that was released from 1985 onwards and I noticed but never released that the tracks from the 80s were rereleased from 2011 and were some of the most famous House tracks. The rave scene that populated the mid-80s which is still a living thing till this day but more over ground was a once in a lifetime thing and though it is long gone it is remembered by some as the most memorable thing to come out of the 80s with the music scene that went alongside it and if it wasn’t for the Chicago House scene there wouldn’t be much of a House scene at the very least as there was a lot of genres that was made during or after House that populated rave scenes but House was the first scene to break into this world.

Nuclear Dreams

February 21, 2022

About two years ago I was having some weird dreams about being in a nuclear attack and I had about six dreams altogether which I think are anxiety dreams which I’m unsure what they are really about. I made two EPs now which one wasn’t that good in sound quality, so I redid it and this blog post is about those dreams I was having. I’ve had a few dreams now where I was in some sort of war zone and being attacked which I think is from all the terror attacks and all the other stresses of the world that have gotten to me. It mainly happens when I don’t smoke and haven’t got any which is interesting as the times I don’t smoke is the times I would get the same sort of dreams but in different places and like all dreams they move so quickly and rapidly from one place to the next and can get very dark and strange. I was trying to find out what it means and I got no answer it could be repressed anger or it could be dissatisfaction it is just to be known but they were cool and the best bit is waking up and knowing it was just a dream and I can go back to sleep or get up but yeah they were scary being in them and would dread the day hopefully that will never happen again. I’m rewriting this from memory and my old tracklists of the old EP I did so it may be jumpy like my dream. 

The first bit I remember was being in a hut which was like in the country and somewhere foreign. The door was open and we were talking I was about to leave the hut when suddenly I saw a mushroom cloud in the background with a massive bang which scared all of us. After the explosion we saw people leave their huts and make their way to where the explosion happened around a mile away, we were not so far behind. We made our way to what seemed like a field and there were lots of people standing around panicking and wondering what was going to happen next when suddenly there was another explosion but this time around a statue which there was a bright flash which nearly blinded us and then it was all burnt and marble looking which people rushed to put out the fire and panic some more. Whilst this was going on they were moving the cattle to a safer place which I suggested and was over the hill and kind of like the Elephant Graveyard in Lion King in all sense in distant and visual wise. They didn’t want to go but they knew it was best and started moving the cattle and dogs to the safer ground whilst we talked about what was happening and what we were going to do and it was suggested the only place safe was where they were taking the animals to the Elephant Graveyard like place which was around 100 miles but you could just see it in the distant where the sun was setting.  

The next bit gets weird cruel and eerie as for some reason the dream moves on to a stadium I’m unsure if someone said to go there or if it just went there but I was there not with the same people and we were in a stadium which was like a baseball stadium it’s out of a game which I can’t think of the name it’s a shooting game and you have to sneak up to the alarms and disable them but you are in a stadium and it looked a lot like that all dingy and dark looking. We were quite a way up in the seating area of the stadium and I could see Vladimir Putin talking on the mic and there was a dog next to him. He was standing next to what looked like a dock with water all around him and he was standing at the foot of the water but in a dry area. There was some dispute about what Putin said and all of a sudden he pressed a button and another explosion happened in the background and was another mushroom cloud which was around 100 miles and could be seen in the far distance. There was another argument this time what to do with the injured dog that was next to Putin as there was no room for any injured animals or even people so to everyone’s surprise Putin drowned the dog in the water and everyone including myself rushed off in all sorts of directions to stop us from seeing the final blow. 

The next bit changed quickly after that and was outside the council building which is a Civic Centre and no one was around no one was on the street walking or driving on the roads it was deserted. There was a building that used to be the old council building for nonworkers seen in the distance of the picture which was open. The door was usually automatic but this time it was wide open so I go and see if anyone else is around and to my surprise, there wasn’t and was just an empty reception and an empty waiting area which was always busy and full of people so it was weird to see the place like that and felt like a bank just before it closes empty and still which is different if you go there midday or in the morning or even afternoon. I took a look around to see if anyone was around but before I could look in the offices there was someone behind me I didn’t know who it was and didn’t hang around to see who it was or what they were about to do and was back on the street before I knew it. 

The last part of the dream was with my gran and my friend from school who we just bumped into each other or maybe we were just with each other as dreams are rapid. There was news of another nuclear attack and we had to get out the way by going to the Highlands in Scotland which was the safest place to be. There were other people there and so was my dog Patch people didn’t want her coming on the bus to the Highlands so I and my friend got on the next bus which was a couple of minutes after the first bus so it was not that long to wait. When we got there we were led to a cottage to rest but we didn’t have time as there was another explosion but no mushroom cloud and we all rushed to the evacuation hut which was in the garden and that’s when the story ended. There was probably lots more to the dreams and were on all different days but I had to write it down somehow.  As I said I’ve made two EPs about the nuclear dreams I had and one can be found on all major platforms and the other on Bandcamp.  

Nuclear Dreams (Part 1)

Nuclear Dreams (Part 2)

Nuclear Mix

The Way – Mangotsfield Station

February 20, 2022

Walking Midnight

I went for a walk around my area late at night to Mangotsfield Station I was bored and wanted something to do so I decided to take a walk and see what I was inspired by seems silly but it’s actually a good one to do. There is a lot of different places to go around my area and it’s not that far from each other I have to take buses though and I hate to do that I like walking but don’t actually like to walk that far well I can but hate when my feet get sore and I’m hopping home with painful feet but it’s alright I suppose lol I actually love it.  I went to the cycle track which was a railway station and a dramway for the coal mine at one point which is also not that far from the train station but it was too dark to take pictures so I didn’t venture that far. The place could be haunted though I don’t believe in ghosts but in one of the pictures there was some strange mist in the centre of the shot I didn’t photoshop it and came out like that but lucky I don’t believe in ghosts as I would of been out there in a flash. Oh thanks to the person who asked me if I needed a bit of assistance  with the flash though it wasn’t necessary you get a shout for being so nice  and my creative needs puts me in all sorts of predicaments, lol but it’s always safe mostly. Just for people who don’t know what a dramway is it’s a old horse and cart with  tracks sort of like a analogue tram that carted coal and other things to the heart of the city of Bristol but mainly coal. They say the horses from the underground coal mines never saw the light of day and spent their time underground which makes me feel sorry for them but I hope they had a comfy life but I really doubt that. If you are into trains and you don’t live local but local enough or if you are in the area come to Mangotsfield in Bristol and see the station in the day time as you will be able to see it in all it’s light and all the tunnels that once ran trains. It’s really old and was built in 1869 and ran until the 1960s when it closed for good and became abandoned but is now part of the cycle track.

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