Beyonce Act II Country Music And The Hypocrisy Of Black Music Standards

March 30, 2024

INTRO

If you are not aware of it Beyonce has new album out a country album to follow along Renaissance her club and Afro Beats infused album that ran along side her tour also called Renaissance. Wow she’s doing good a successful tour and album with this one following on Act II a Country album which as I will explain is going to break barriers and change the hypocrisy of what people would call black music or associate with black music. I’m actually listening to the album right now for the first time so I will give my review of the album at the end it has 24 tracks on so it’s quite a long one but some of them are short songs. So far the first track is very Shania Twain and the second track is very traditional reminds me a 60s songs I’ve heard it before by a different artist. I must admit I love the fact she’s done it in different act something I would like to do say three different genres but call them chapters or something but linked somehow altogether. Now I think about it the horse on the first album goes well with this album Act II which has a very patriotic western theme  and also has a horse on the album cover. I think it was in all a clever thing to do and makes music interesting again and also dare I say inspiring yeah inspiring. The internet was buzzing with this album with various of funny memes and statements all for the album and some said they put down the Renaissance album and play the crap out of her new album which came out last night 12.00 AM 29/03/2024,  whilst some asked for Act III to come out so they can rotate all three albums. Hang on don’t be a bitch come take it to the floor now HEY lol! I’m on Texas Hold Em I like this one reminiscent of country the melody is catchy. So far I’m getting country music from throughout the decades this one Bodyguard very flowers in her hair style it feels 90s or something you would hear at a festival or light gig it’s very radio friendly too, so far no skips.  Well I was expecting Dolly Parton to be on the album but not as a intro lol that hozzy what a skank we would say. Now I would like to watch Dolly and Beyonce on stage singing Jolene that’s the next track after the Dolly intro. Oh I love it the bleedy sheets on dirty floor or whatever she said very country and upbeat for the next track Daughter, I really like the lyrics for this one called Daughter and the melody. Oooh no sause for Spaghetti the next track a bit of Hip Hop, oh okay like the other album a change up to country music near the end keep it country lol, still no skips Alligator just finished. Well I just finished listening to the album and yeah no skips and a good country album with one or two southern Hip Hop I’m guessing. But I enjoyed the album something I would actually play again if I was in the mood. Will she get her Grammy for this or are they going to say there wasn’t enough traditional pieces in we were find out but check it out if you haven’t already it’s worth a play I would say and not something I would usually go for.  

THE ORIGINS OF COUNTRY MUSIC

The Banjo a well known southern instrument was in fact a instrument made from Western Africans who crossed the Transatlantic in the slave trade and the instrument was made out of gourds, called the Akonting. For Four hundred years the enslaved made their own music including hymns, spirituals, and field song, all with roots in African music. It is said that playing the Banjo in the 1840s was exclusively a Black instrument and was unheard of for a white person to play the banjo. The instrument has had a controversial rise to music fame as in the  In the 1850s, minstrel shows became grossly popular and depicted enslaved Africans as slow, lazy and as cannibals, also it was depicted with Banjos which in affect popularised the Banjo within the white communities inventing the genre Hillbilly music around in the 1920s. Hillbilly music later changed to Country music, first artist drew inspiration from from slave spirituals, field songs, hymns, and the blues, which itself has black origins. Despite America in the 1920s and 1930s being  segregated Hillbilly and black artists would collaborate on songs which became popular and nearly 50 black artists would appear on successful songs with white artists because the music was seen as a black genre but changed hands with white people back and fourth. It was in fact after World War I after 1918 when Hillbilly music got changed to Country music after a big push from the record companies who wanted to start selling Country music but couldn’t due to the race of those artists. The black artists who were signed to a record company in the 1920s was underpaid and didn’t get any recognition. There music was sold on to white artists who were the stand ins and made Country music a white genre with the help of the record companies whose audience favoured middle white America looking people. DeFord Bailey was the one of the first Black musicians to gain recognition and was the first to play the Grand Ole Opry—a big deal for country musicians. His harmonica playing style greatly influenced the country musicians that followed him. Succeeding Bailey was  Charley Pride. As mentioned before, Pride was the first black artist to be inducted into the Country Music Hall of Fame and is often referred to as “country music’s first Black superstar.” He served as an inspiration for countless Black musicians. In their tow, Ray Charles was responsible for blending country with R&B and pop music in a way that would forever change the genre. His music also helped fuel the civil rights movement. Bailey, Pride, and Charles are three of the most recognizable Black names in country music, but there are many lesser known names that have also been critical in forming the genre. Gus Cannon was a Black musician who helped popularize jug bands (a precursor to country) in the 1920s and ended up teaching Johnny Cash, a world renowned white country singer. In addition, the guitar fingerpicking style that is largely used in country music today was developed by Black guitarist Leslie Riddle. Still to this day black artists still struggle to get the recognition and acknowledgement they deserve for their work in 2019 rapper Lil Nas’s Rap and Country song Old Town Road was removed from the Country Billboards Charts when Rolling Stone told Billboard, “it does not embrace enough elements of today’s country music to chart in its current version. Also some Country fans accused Lil Nas of cultural appropriation for wearing a cowboy hat but you can’t even wear a pouch without being called Skippy the wannabe kangaroo in my opinion. Beyonce also got in some heat when she released, “Daddy’s Lessons,” in 2016, she faced heavy backlash from the industry despite the fact that the hit single includes all the elements of traditional country music. Even when Beyonce performed “Daddy’s Lessons” at the 2016 Country Music Awards with The Chicks, country fans were enraged and some heckled her one woman said “get that black bitch off the stage.” She additionally submitted the record for a Grammy but was denied. Linda Martell was the first black woman to break into the Country industry and gain success with her 1970s album Colour Me Country it’s hard for black woman to break into the industry and even though there has been a rise in black female country singers in more recent years they are still faced with the same issues.

THE REVOLUATION OF BLACK COUNTRY MUSIC

I really do think it’s revelational as music should be as not only is she opening doors for other Country black artists but she is also reclaiming the lost history and the origins of Country music. There’s a stigma of what people expect of you being black or biracial which is all the urban genres like Hip Hop and Trap here in the UK UK Garage and UK Funky and House which I do actually make but I also like my synthesizers. I’m obsessed with them actually so I make Vapourwave, a bit of Progressive Rock, Synthwave and general synthy vibes which some people would class as white genres but I always said it doesn’t have a colour, I think no genre is White, Black, Asian or other apart from the tribal and traditional stuff from around the world. The boundaries of what people find is black or white is a recurring thing that happens and something I face a little bit in my own life and I think Beyonce’s album Act II is going to break boundaries and the hypocrisy between the races whilst defining the genre in the new form which incorporates other genres such as Hip Hop and other urban genres if it is acknowledge that is. As I said before it would open doors for other black artists who may of come before her and been doing this despite all the backlash and hate that they might get due to it being a white dominated genre. It’s kind of shallow to think that a person doesn’t like anything but Hip Hop and urban genres that’s like saying all Mexican’s drink Tequila and especially when they have strong roots in the genre and was pushed out due to race or race and or being a black woman. I think there is some sort of hypocrisy of what the races identify as being white or black and that is heavily linked in music and the fact the white race are being pushed more then the black race which makes it seem like the white race invented all these genres when really it was passionate black musicians that paved the way for the genre to grow into a mainstream staple diet. There is no denying that things such as colourism and sex has major parts in making it in the music industry and I’m guessing they start where they finish the big wigs I mean who push for what they call desirable and fashion too. Black people are undermined and underpaid and arts are quickly taken away from them and used, as in a video I watched on YouTube as toys just something to play around with and to suit the mainstream audience they are trying to extract money from. I’m sorry to say but most even all of the old white but black singing artists are replacements for the undesirable or what they call undesirable which is black, big nose, big ears and non straight hair again also a thing in fashion and Hollywood. And as we know the south of America and America as a whole can be pretty racists and some do not welcome African and West Indies American descendants into their life or anyone who is not white American. I saw this one example on Facebook this girl took a black boy or young man to the Prom and the mother was f’ing and blinding saying she’s cutting her allowance and even her life insurance she really stomped on her. I was like dang she really doesn’t like black people and she’s going to need that in case she got shot that’s a joke but I think that is the nasty way society is xenophobic and scared of the unknown so they cast it out. I feel there needs to be a lot done when it comes to changing the perception of what music is and the roots of each genre not to mock anyone who came before and paved the way. There is still like ugh you like rock you’re white or any other white based genre. Only once have I experienced slight undertones of racism it was on Tumblr when I used to make a lot of Progressive Rock tracks or call them that even some of them weren’t but anyway he wrote “sorry you ain’t got the long silky hair” and other comments that I thankfully forgot. He was referencing that most of the Progressive Rock bands had long silky straight hair and I was never too be marketed as Progressive Rock as I have a afro, that was it one message read “stick to what you know” as to say this is not the allocated genre for me. It’s funny cos some people actually expect you to stick with the allocated genres like Hip Hop and make a bigger deal if you are of colour even though they are just getting on with it and not trying to be ground-breaking or life changing you actually like that genre and been listening for all your life and was brought up with it. It’s not a well known fact and I don’t really put it as one of genres I like but I like Country. I like Johnny Cash, Dolly Patron, Hank Williams and Pasty Cline or though Pasty Cline’s music reminds me of sitting by the bar drinking myself to oblivion cos my girlfriend cheated on me that’s the feeling I get from her music. But I like country more so when Grand Theft Auto San Andres came out it was one of my favourite but secret favourite stations. Okay it’s not my favourite genre but I enjoy it and actually reminds me of being in a bar or Karaoke night when Johnny Cash the second or Dolly Parton the second takes the stage. Not only that Country is seen as naff or Hillbilly it’s not cool for a young person to listen to Country in the eyes of the young but Beyonce will change that and make it more fashionable. Not only that she’s doing the music industry a big favour by making a Country album as there has been a resurged of Country music in the last couple of years so it works in their favour and music is more inspiring as I said I feel inspired by her two latest albums even though I would never make Country I haven’t got the tools for one or knowledge for two. I like the fact that other black artist incorporate country with other genres like Hip Hop and people who work for Billboards need to start welcoming country infused with other genres for the sake of Country they can always push out the traditional artists too. Hip Hop got turned into Trap which is a Southern America genre but the UK has it’s own spin too, so why not welcome the new styles of Country and allow black artist to shine and make changes instead of being part of the problem. It’s all down to the outside world perception and what they would call black or urban or white if there wasn’t such undertones of racism there would be more balance within the genres and more freedom to express the genres you like without the fear of being laughed at or being laughed at and also make the music you exactly like instead of spitting unmeaningful lyrics or being a stereotype you know you’re not all to fit into your culture. Though this isn’t one sided and comes from all the races and sides which is all tribalism based stuff and a interesting topic to talk about. The basis of real tribalism is working together as a team and putting any race issues aside the old your English I’m English that is one angle. But the Western tribalism is all clicky and you all must look the same to fit into the gang or tribe which translate into music so horribly well. That’s why it’s so important for people like Beyonce to smash a few doors down someone well known and has done the rounds and also respected. Just how many boy bands come after Take That or N’Sync how many Janet and Michael Jackson’s were there. They made music or was in a group that inspired so many people and Beyonce is one of those people and has inspired so many artists out now but granted she has her haters too but who doesn’t. I only said that as I think it would inspire black artist to do a country album or put elements in their songs who wasn’t even diehard country music fans to begin with. Not to mention as I said before it will aid other artists who make Country and put them on the map too and to also tell them to keep following their dreams even though the odds may be against them but now it works more in their favour. Popular music you hear say on the radio, on YouTube Music, Spotify etc etc it’s all been demographically done and should appeal to the massive not just a group of people or though it is marketed at them but it’s marketed for everyone at the same time. That’s why there is no colour when it comes to music genres and the way we consume it or even sex or though artists like the City Girls are pushed for the girls with all those hypersexual lyrics and money money money lines but it can appeal to anyone I liked Twerkalator I would of listened to that more if it was pushed but guess they have gone now. 

Chrisizer VST [FREE DOWNLOAD]

December 7, 2023

CHRISIZER VST PLUGIN [FREE DOWNLOAD]

It’s that time of year again it’s once again Christmas so I got into the festive mood by making another VST. I again used Romplur and this time Christmas sounds from Pixabay I used different FXs on the sounds and they were mostly hardware filters, but I like the sounds and think they came out well. There are 40 sounds 8 arp-type sounds and the rest is keys which is Christmas synthy sounds and some voice one too. It’s not all Christmas stuff and I would say you could use it in most genres. I used it on House, Synthwave and Jungle/Drum and Bass in my demo tracks which you can find below on this page but you are free to try it out on something else. The plugin for Windows and Mac has all the main knobs to shape your sound to what you like and has features like delay, reverb, chorus, phaser, HP and LP filters, glide, voice amount and the main features like attack, decay, sustain and release. I called it Chrisizer as it’s half the word Christmas and the other half is from synthesizer I wanted to have a Christmasy name and that was the best I could think of to be honest but I like it. I made the GUI in the picture above I used the Romplur website and their stuff to make it and I also used Gimp a free Photoshop program as Adobe takes ages to load and I always seem to have some sort of issue with it but Gimp works a treat. Below is a demo video with all the sounds in the VST and three demo tracks I made which is a mix genre single I put together so you can see the finished sound, anyway enjoy the free download and Merry Christmas.  

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Another Haunting Dream

October 6, 2023

Introduction

I had this nightmare or dream last night it was a recurring dream of me being in a nuclear bomb explosion and the fallout around that. I already did an Ebook on the last couple I had cos now I had at least six or seven dreams or nightmares but they are more like anxiety dreams. I explained that it was probably from the aeroplanes going past and it sounded like a bomb just got dropped or that’s how I think it sounded or my brain should I say thinks it sounds. I recently finished a zombie game where I got the template online and did my own thing with IE. I made the sprites including the zombies and other stuff in the game, which is why I had zombies in my dream or a zombie  but I’ll leave a link to both the game and Ebook below if you want to check that out it’s all free and on this website. I didn’t read the news article or watch the video but there was an explosion in Oxfordshire apparently it was a gas tank that got hit by lightning and there was a big fireball the thumbnail to the video looked like it was a nuclear explosion which probably is another factor of me having the dream or nightmare but it’s been a while since I had one and was quite scary exactly in parts I was on my edge of the seat in my dream and real uptight and on edge I remember that. 

Mental Release

In the first part, I was in a mental hospital or a prison or it could have been both as it goes one bit to the next like you just fast forward the ads. The television was on and a nuclear explosion had just happened somewhere. I’m not really sure what happened before that but I think the news reporter got munched by a zombie after the nuclear explosion and it panned and stayed on the horizon of a field or whatever the backdrop was. I was then let out of the prison or asylum because of the explosion they said I was let out on good behaviour even though I was causing some sort of ruckus over something that I can’t remember. But I remember thinking I can’t believe they were letting me out but was quick out the door.  I rushed home because of the pandemic and presumably because of the explosion too. As I was making my way home on foot I went down alleys and roads that were best described as the Black Mirror episode where she wakes up and finds she’s the only person to be in existence but there was a bit where she’s walking down the roads and passed houses as you would see in Coronation street or up north new built attached houses. Something happened just before I appeared in my flat in the next bit I remember but it was something that shook me a bit in my dream and happened around the newly built house and was like the Civic Center dream I had and mentioned in the Ebook there’s a whole chapter dedicated to that part of the dream.

Home At Last

The next bit I was in my flat there was some sort of row in my bedroom. I’m still unsure what it was about but it was something major and taking up a lot of my time as I had plans to leave for the town as it might have been said on the news at the asylum or prison to leave your homes and head to safety, I’m not too sure.  Something caused me to leave my flat I think as I said wanted to head to town and get to safety so I walked which took some time and was slow-paced. Also, I was in my flat for some time as I couldn’t leave but I wanted to and had to wait for something but again I’m not sure what. I think I watched TV and got more updates of the explosion and watched normal TV as they told us on the TV we were safe and that nothing is going on even though there was a nuclear explosion live on TV and also a zombie attack or some sort of beast but I think it was a zombie as it looked more like but it wanted blood.

Up The Market

I was by Old Market Street it’s the main point or one of the main points into town coming from the outskirts of Bristol and is a famous street in Bristol it’s well known and not for it’s roughness. I was attacked by a zombie as I made my way into town and also met someone after I got attacked by a zombie and we stole a car because, in the car we were advised to get into a car but that was it and we thought another nuclear explosion was going to happen. Not only that there was some sort of barricade blocking the way to walk and only cars were going past there weren’t that many cars but there were one or two. The car journey didn’t last that long and we ended up going our different ways once we got into the main town part which was outside Debenhams but at the back entrance away from the main street and overlooking a busy road, opposite a busy bus stop and a Beefeater but in my dream the bus stop and Beefeater wasn’t there. It wasn’t busy in my dream either and no one standing on my side of the road even near the main road by Marks & Spensers I was standing at the top of the road so nowhere near there but I could see all the way down.

Wait Your Turn

So there I was outside Debenhams and I saw people on either side of the road. It looked different to how it looked in reality. The road had barriers on both sides, queuing up to leave town. There must have been talk of authorities or some man who took over the town whilst it was in a state and in panic well I think the authorities told us to leave and the man whoever he was, was trying to get everyone to stay why I have no idea but it seemed like a cunning plan he was going to hatch. I didn’t know what was going on as in people queuing to leave Bristol till I saw these queues of people and found out then.  Whilst queuing up we all learned of the man who wanted us to stay in Bristol which we knew we were going to die if we stayed and somehow he was holding us back but this was our actual freedom. Why and how who knows but it was decided we were going to hunt him down and set off to his destination. He may have been a zombie creator whatever it was it was bad enough to go hunt for him down and win back our freedom. Some people were talking of staying if they managed to get hold of this man whoever he was. We then went to look for him, hearing that he had escaped to a theatre so that’s where we headed to and wasn’t much of a walk but seemed longer in the dream. 

The Show Begins

The theatre was cordoned off with wood fencing, but music was blasting from the outside speakers with flood lights that were still on in the day time. The zombie creator or whoever he was stood behind the wooden fencing and behind a wall out of view and we all knew he was there but couldn’t get to him who knows what would have happened but all that could be seen was his shadow. There were two entrances in the front and two as you go in like an old-fashioned cinema entrance or theatre you might still see and a  pink neon lighting and writing in a cool font I was admiring the font with the neon light and there was music playing. It sounded nice at the beginning like cinematic music then it went all wired and hard to hear the music and was like a distorted wired noise it scared some of the people but not everyone. The next bit was away from the theatre it seemed around the corner but there was talk of some people held captive nearby and just as it happened our freedom was awaiting at this location but we were warned it wasn’t pretty or it was going to be just a walk in the park but we were all worried about it and didn’t know where we were going end up, especially with the zombies or whatever they were but we were up for it and wanted to be at the final place with no drama.

Nightmare In The Woods

Next, there was a long trek, for someone gave us the next clue as to what we had to do next, we had to leave Bristol. We trekked to this place or it morphed into woodland it was rather dark in the woods but  was still light out of the woodlands. There were zombies or dead bodies all over the place and covered the forest floor. The whole floor was covered with bodies every last patch of woodland and there was this skeleton zombie thing that looked human at first until I got closer and recognized it wasn’t alive it had a lantern in its hand. Some bodies were still alive but pretended to be dead and was a horrific sight I nearly ran away. The whatever it was with the lantern didn’t detect me and let me pass but was sniffing the next person as it was standing there like it was in a zombie game and I remember quickly walking ahead at a fast pace before it detected me and not to see the fate of the person behind me who knows what happened to them? The creature with the lantern, they were over-seers and looked strong and powerful oh there was also groaning going on coming from the creature and some of the bodies on the floor it was terrifying, I was looking for someone in particular, but then discovered that they were one of the dead bodies on the ground in the woods so I had to get out of there as soon as I could and that’s what I did I got out safe and I think there were loads of undead creatures by that point and chased me out of the woods into the daylight again as that felt like it was the safe zone again.

The Chase Is On

During this last bit of the dream, I ran into a building, it was a side-view like a long mobile builder’s hut, it had windows but at the same time it was a train maybe it was part of an old railway line in Bristol onwards to Bath but at first it looked like a hut. I was by the window so I opened it oh there was also some unhidden danger that I faced so I opened the window to get a better look and saw a crowd and a man, not the person or the unhidden danger but they were all running away down the hill as it looked mountain. I had my head hanging out of the window and they were running away from me because I was shouting and waving for them to go there was also this weird eclipse that happened too shortly before I chased people away and also a quick glimpse of some dragon King Kong I don’t know what it was but it looked a lot like that and then I then woke up once again relived it was only a dream especially the woodland bit I was shook it felt like I seen it all before but a different dream.

Dungeon VST [FREE DOWNLOAD]

October 1, 2023

DUNGEON VST PLUGIN [FREE DOWNLOAD]

I made another VST free to download it’s a Halloween special and I used an old Yahama keyboard for the sounds and put FXS on them to change the sound, I also designed the GUI to the plugin which as always I enjoyed doing the most apart from making the sounds for the VST which I also enjoyed the most. I named it Dungeon to go with the Halloween theme and because it’s a dark-sounding VST and you can’t get any darker than a dungeon. I used an old photo I took which was around 2010 of the woods when it was getting dark it is one of my favourite photos I took other than the one I took with my dog the same day with her in a misty background in the background it looked like she was standing on her legs and her eyes were all lit up, I should dig it up again one day and try to use it in something but I have no idea what. As always I used Romplur to make the VST with the Romplur website to put the GUI together which didn’t take that long I also used online FXs for a change to make the main background picture for the GUI. I wanted to make something diverse so I made or as I wished to I ended up with various sounds that would be good for soundtracks of all types including atmospheric soundtracks so I’m pretty happy with the outcome and with the new plugin. I rent to own which is paid in small bits and it’s yours once you pay off the balance no extra charges and you can cancel whenever you want. I love the scheme and I’ve been doing it on Splice since they introduced the thing I can’t remember when that was but it wasn’t that long ago. I used Infiltrator 2 plugin to change the sounds and transform them it’s the newest plugin I got and I’m still trying to get to grips with it so I used the presents for now until I know how to use it properly but it sounds good still unsure how much or how many times you can change the sound to a different texture but I like it. As always the plugin comes with built-in FX to further change it like Reverb, Delay, Chorus, LFO Routing, Chrous, Glide, Cutoff for High Pass and Low Pass Filters and more. The plugin is suited for all genres as it’s a synth but also good for Halloween and Horror soundtracks and songs and also dark and moody tracks but I made it with Halloween and Horror tracks in mind.  Below is the demo video with all the sounds in the video and also 4 tracks which show off the sounds some more and are all different genres to get a feel for what it can and can not do but something Halloweeny and also can be found on my Bandcamp free download page since it’s Halloween.

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Playroom VST [FREE DOWNLOAD

August 1, 2023

PLAYROOM VST PLUGIN [FREE DOWNLOAD]

I’m back with another synthesizer VST plugin for Windows and Mac and of course another free download for you. I made this one with toys I got from the charity shops and put my own twists and turns to the sounds which of course I enjoyed doing the most. I had some toys lying around already so I decided to get some more and get creative with it and twiddle with the sounds for different FXs and sounds. Of course, the toys will be going back to the charity shop now I have finished with them and I thought it was a perfect way to shop and have fun as I love charity shopping it’s always fun to look for something you don’t even know you are looking for or want but I always come out with some good stuff even though it just tack. If I was older and collected records I probably be at the local charity shops a lot more looking for those gems but I’m more tape deck myself. I used a lot of FXs like reverb, delay, flanger, compression and other FXs to mould the sounds and to get them to sound different from what came out of the box I am satisfied with the sounds that I made but some could be a lot better I must admit. I would describe this plugin for electronic-based genres like House, Vaporwave, Jungle/Drum and bass, Techno, Synthwave and gaming music but I think you could use it for anything and hopefully is diverse in sound and options. But I think it could make some alright old-school House and Jungle/Drum and Bass vibes with this plugin. I’ve tested it out and there is something retro about it probably because they are all old toys. The toys were all from different charity shops and I looked for toys that make noise and most importantly electric based as you get some good samples from the toys that are electric based, unlike the analogue ones. I like to think that I’m killing two birds with one stone so to speak as it’s helping the needy and vulnerable whilst doing what I love which is making music and making music from everyday objects, I mean it could be anything as long as it makes a noise I can manipulate the sound to make it sound different and not like what you heard when you first played it. My favourite way to experiment is with everyday objects that somehow I get a good tone out of after a bit of caressing the sounds with various FXS and plugins that is. I have a Tascam which is a voice recorder that comes in handy every now and then but it’s what I used to record the sounds with and then load onto my computer. It’s a bit annoying as it’s a mini SD card and I had to buy a special device to transfer audio with but the fine wine of having such gadgets makes life a lot easier even though you have to find the stick and put it in but not to bad I suppose. I did run into some trouble with some of the sounds but I managed to save the best sounds and do what I could with them. I describe the synth plugin as being rough sounding for those edgier tracks. It took two days to make plus the GUI art which I also made with the plugin called Romplur which makes it easier to make VSTs.

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Synthetics VST [FREE DOWNLOAD

March 19, 2023

SYNTHETICS VST PLUGIN [FREE DOWNLOAD]

I made another plugin for Windows and Mac and this one is called Synthetics half the word synthesizer and half the word genetics and is another synthy VST for you if it’s any good to you. I made the VST sounds with Massive and the plugin itself with Romplur and took two days to make the whole thing from scratch. I must admit I could have done better with some of the sounds but I couldn’t be bothered to find a good tutorial to make some outstanding sounds and I haven’t made sounds with Massive for a while now so it was kind of hard to get the sounds right especially the basses which I spent more time with that then the synth sounds. I made 40 synth sounds from scratch and 20 basses from scratch which took all morning and all day to do but it was kind of easy as it was swapping the settings around and changing Oscillator wavetables, some of the sounds are a bit rough but it is an experimental synth plugin and also I left some options like delay, reverb and filter cut-off to modify the sound as you wish. It’s ideal for all synth genres but especially for electronic experimental which wasn’t how I planned the plugin but it turned out that way I kind of started off making an experimental plugin and then forgetting and then wanting some more normal synth sounds.   I would describe the sounds as sounds from the old 70s synthesizers like the Modular with square and sine basses but the synth sounds remind me of the old skool original synthesizers that were before my time but still fashionable and well sort after in my era which was the 80s and 90s I was born in the 80s though.  I made the GUI as seen in the picture above and I love to photoshop. I use Gimp for now to do all the photo editing but I really need Adobe as I heard it has more options though a bit long and stretched to put it together but it’s always worth doing it. I also called it Synthetics as I have synth music in my blood and am quite obsessed with them if that’s the right word. It started down at the Fire Station a hang-out in Bristol for up-and-coming artists and I used to play around on the synths making my own beats once I had the drums which I used to do that way in advance to save me time and effort when I really wanted to make music and plus I only had a couple of hours a day but it was time well spent and all the fun I had whilst there. Synth music is my passion and don’t think I would have enjoyed playing around with them if I didn’t play the keyboard at an early age but I always wanted to make my own music and sounds and now I have the chance to do it I can’t stop and I am always looking for new ways to make music and love to make Electronic Dance Music too which is my other love. I’ll probably use this plugin again for some more experimental stuff but I already used it for a synth scape which is an hour-long synth journey using only this plugin and drums. I made the first one after I messed up a mix I was making and it came out weird but interesting so I  decided to make something of it which is now going to be a running theme on my YouTube channel and in the video section on this website but YouTube is the main channel and have already posted lots of videos to hopefully keep you entertained, I posted the synth scape video in this post below the demo video since I only used this one.

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Farmyard Frollics VST [FREE DOWNLOAD]

March 2, 2023

FARMYARD FROLLICS VST PLUGIN [FREE DOWNLOAD]

A free VST Plugin and a bit of fun it’s of farm sounds with extra knobs to twiddle with and experiment with. I did leave the sounds as they were but I was going to make sounds but I like the idea of experimenting and coming up with different sounds and rhythms but I might make another one with more sounds you can use straight off unless you are using the sounds for other then making music then this plugin may be for you. It has 20 of the main sounds of the farm including a cow, a duck, a chicken, a horse, a pig, a sheep and lamb, a donkey, a rooster, a turkey, a rabbit, a frog, birds chirping, a goose, chicks, a cricket, a dog and cat and even the llama.  As I said before it also comes with extra knobs to fiddle with such as flanger, delay, reverb, LFO, chorus, phaser and knobs for attack, decay extra. I do encourage you to use extra plugins on the sounds I used filters from Arturia on all the demo songs below and Fab Filters to smooth things out a bit but apart from that all the things used were from the plugin itself. I used Romplur to make the plugin and I used their website and stuff to make the GUI cover which I like and I think looks different and a bit public information film or PIF for short as I always type after each time. These are royalty free sounds and you can use them for any genre as they are just sounds with extra options but I made two synthy tracks, a Reggaeton track and House track with the sounds using one or two paired FXS at  a time. I could have added more but I wanted to stay with the main animals on the farm and did a bit of research on the animals you will found on a farm which are all on this list. I called it Farmyard Frollics as I wanted something fun like I hope the plugin will be and I thought there was something funny about frolics but I spelt it with two ls by accident actually but then I remembered something I read ages ago that plugins are meant to be spelt wrong or different so it all worked out fine in the end.  Making this plugin does make me want to get back out there and start on them country walks again as I love to walk and seem to over walk until I’m too far and realise I have gone way to far and wished I didn’t walk so far and that I was at home again but my dog seemed to love it R.I.P. There something about going to the country side and seeing all those sites and sounds and feeling quite relax but saying that I’ve been on some noisy walks with the tractors and ducks and animals making a racket but it’s always fun to be out in the open I’m too busy in doors now a days which is a shame but in the summer I must try and get out a bit more that’s the plan anyway but I do like being in front of the computer a lot. 

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Cry Baby Keys VST

December 11, 2022

CRY BABY VST PLUGIN [FREE DOWNLOAD]

I made another VST plugin for Windows and Mac and I used my synth doll I brought online and Serum to make the sounds and once again I’m happy with most of them but there are a few I don’t like. This is the most unique plugin I made as I used my synth doll the Baby Bot and also a picture of the Baby Bot which I added to the other generator in Serum you can use pictures to generate sounds and there are two generators to make sounds and loads of dials and filters to make the sound better. On top of that I used more hardware filters and FXs to make the sounds less generator sounds which came as sine, square, triangle, pulse and saw which I’m guessing the pictures make up one of the above, there are a few more and also wave table forms which aren’t any of the above but custom made wavetables and wavetables are what generator the sound the square, triangle, sine, etc. The plugin makes up 100 presents in total 40 keys, 20 leads, 20 sequencers, and 20 basses and I used Blue Arp for the sequencers. I added filters and other options to handle the sounds a bit better and there is drive which is currently left on but is best to turn off that option it’s in the bottom left corner as seen in the picture above. I didn’t know what to call it, to be honest, but I thought it had to be baby related as I used the Baby Bot to make the sounds so after a quick think I liked the sound of cry baby and had a ring to it and couldn’t be bothered to think of another name but I liked the sound of it. I needed to get good use out of that doll I bought which was £250 at that time plus £35 custom fees but it may have been £45 but now it’s £350 plus the custom tax you pay I blame Brexit but anyway. The doll is custom-made and has seven dials to change the sounds and one of them is a filter it generates harsh sounds from the built-in generator which it’s endless but there are not actually sounds you can make music with straight off and takes filters and other FXs to make the sounds better but it was worth getting as I’ve had so much fun with it already even though I don’t really play with it that much but when I have  a good use for it I definitely get it out and mess around. I’ve filmed a few videos now with it now and made a few songs which the music can be found on Soundcloud and the videos on my YouTube channel and also under the hub in Hub>Videos>Random Videos. The videos are just me messing about with the Baby Bot and making songs with them the eyes light up different colours and change with the sounds which is how I fall in love with it and also I could get some good use out of it as I like my things practical. I also made the GUI the picture above the background for the VST and I actually used the Romplur website and also the Romplur plugin to make the background and the main layout of the plugin and the plugin itself which took two days to make throughout the day and night that does include making the sounds as well I must admit I could of spend more time making the sounds but I like to make them fast and not spend too much time making them but I do enjoy making them. I will be making more plugins with the Baby Bot as it is a good useful thing but I will have to get back to YouTube to see what I may have left out whilst I was making the sounds and also to get some different techniques but I was surprised I remembered how to make the sounds as it’s been a few years since I made sounds with Serum. This is a free download so I hope you enjoy it and has some use for you all, let me know what you think.

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5 Reasons Why Music Can Help With Your Mental Health

November 27, 2022

I got inspired after making my 24-hour mental health music marathon and I thought I’d do a blog post around mental health and music and how it helped me and also how it can help you with five ways music can help with your mental health with examples of songs for that topic. As I said before music has always been a blessing and a curse and at times music was my downfall but also my up fall too. I would have phases of different subjects but in the end I noticed positive tracks really helped me and the negative tracks sometimes worked just as long it wasn’t too violent as I’m not a violent person and that might of lead me down the wrong path which is not what you want when you are starting out to be someone. I started off using music as a remedy after a teacher said I should listen to some Classical and after hearing it I noticed how still my mind was, but it wasn’t my thing being around six at the time maybe seven. So, I began to hunt for tracks with the same side effects, but I lost my way and found some other tracks with lyrics like Queen Break Free and also Madona Live To Tell A Secret and noticed how that made me feel on top of a lot of House and a bit of Junge too. It’s safe to say music has been my savior though and I owe a lot to it also a few stern words with the music and myself for leading myself down the wrong paths which I’m not even walking a centimeter near it it’s a graveyard. I feel it can be a potential answer to some of your problems you might have and has answered some of my burning questions and at the worst to know I wasn’t alone even though it wasn’t my lifestyle and spent time differing the two. I do remember some music wasn’t good for my mental health as I said some tracks and albums made me angrier and I was on for doing the unthinkable, but it wasn’t murder but getting my own back. That is why I don’t play a lot of violent raps as it doesn’t make you want to do something bad, but it makes you in the name of Ludacris “Act A Fool” which I try and not do. Yes, true fact though I used Ludacris Act A Fool to calm down and not be so out there on the streets and worked when I wasn’t smoking weed as that was doing the job for me. I used to smoke a lot of weed whilst listening to music, I also collected quite a few tracks in the past and had a good decent number of tracks from all sorts of genres but all the old skool classic I probably had them at one point in my life. I had fun making my own playlists of different types of categories like relaxing, summer, morning etc it’s how I got the feel for each state of the day or season. My first music awakening was by Salt ‘n’ Pepa Unnecessary with the song None Of Your Business I really took a lot from that track alone, but it was how I dealt with racism I was getting from the kids at school which all ended up good in the end apart from one. Also, Janet Jackson’s That’s The Way Love Goes taught me a lot and not to be so hung up when things don’t go my way which I still have the same attuited to this day. Also Adventures Of Stevie V’s Taught me about the evil of money and corruption there’s been a few tracks I have learned from and mostly good. The weirdest learning curve through music was actually Barbie Girl where I realised it doesn’t matter if you were fake, you still could be a good person and not stale something I wished I took more attention to when growing up as I always let the haters get to my head which is now a thing of the past thankfully but that was a nightmare.    

1. To Relax

It goes without saying sleep is important and even though I do have a lot of all nighters I do get my sleep and catch up eventually, but music has always helped me with getting to sleep and also relaxing. My two choices for relaxing or sleeping are slow jams and classical music and when I’m in the mood I listen to that or used to should I say. I always make Sunday a calm one with playing slow songs but not always it helps me keep calm and also focus a lot which is what I need a lot of when I get distracted. Also rain and the sounds of the woodland that helps me relax as well and get to bed early but when I’m up its stuck. It’s hard to say what R’n’B singers help me relax because they all do all the best slow jams from the 90s especially which is more my specialty, or it used to be. For me there are two types of relaxing music stuff to unwind to and stuff to fall asleep and funny enough I used Janet Jackson’s song That’s The Way Love Goes and Anytime Anyplace also by Janet Jackson for my sleeping pattern as I find Janet has quite a soothing voice and especially on those tracks. Another song that comes to mind when I’m playing music to sleep is Aaliyah’s At Your Best (You Are Loved) or the Isely Brother’s original version, also Dru Hill’s Beauty because I always said I got my beauty sleep with that song, oh one last one Mariah Carey’s Rooftop Ft Mobb Deep that gets me asleep really quick and one more Johnny Gill My, My, My, the keys always put me asleep. For my just relaxing at home, I like to listen to a lot of Reggae Dub but not all the time and normal Reggae also Hip Hop and R’n’B but I try to play something different each day. I like to listen to relaxing mostly at night when it’s dark and more nighttime listening or though when I haven’t had much sleep I tend to listen to softer music and fall back asleep which sounds lazier than it is lol. Sleep is part of the well being cycle and as I said it’s important to get enough sleep even when you didn’t get any you have to catch up to stop the mind from wondering too much. Not only that it does help repair the tissue in the brain and that helps to regrow cells which we need in our brain to function right. Not getting enough sleep can lead to delusions like hearing and visions and also if you are already intolerant it could dramatically increase your mental illness if you ran yourself to the ground.      

2. To Vent

Say what you want music is good for venting angry and other emotions from your head just as long it’s in your own personal space and it’s not hurting anyone everyone needs to vent every now and then or it will fester into something more serious. I vent in many ways through music and the classic one is have a nice day won’t you putting it bluntly when dealing with haters something I won’t bring up as the music industry and Hollywood has taught me don’t give them too much light or they might grow bigger, and you wouldn’t want that. Venting could be any emotion, but I would say it’s more of a negative thing than a positive and has helped me get all my emotions like angrier out and has also guided me as the stuff they were rapping about haters I could feel that and know way before clout became in it was a thirsty mind set and was looked down at now it’s all topsy turvy. I also used songs to vent my anxieties and push past the barriers of fear and paranoia from weed and my mental health. It wasn’t easy and took a distraction like talking or singing the words to overcome the fear, but it was all in my head.  The last song I used to challenge demons was Lil’ Kim’s Haterz when it came out whenever that was, I was in college and there’s a lot of bitches it was a bit too much, but I completed the course for Business but that was a hard year for me. That was the last time I used a song to vent but when WAP came out wet ass you know what did come to mind for some next up shinny thing. Artists I tend to pick up a lot of talk about haters is from Notorious B.I.G, Lil’ Kim, Tupac, and Mobb Deep those were the artist I tend to listen to when I was and wasn’t thinking about my haters. I mean really you shouldn’t even let them unnerve you, but it is hard with all the comments they give but don’t want any real smoke. That’s how I use music to vent my angry out without losing all control as you don’t want a “sore loser” now do we. Music can also be to let the tears run though I’m don’t believe in sitting in trauma and pain though some circumstances obviously, time is a healer but there are some things you can easily recover from. Basically, it’s not as bad as you thought, I mean I’ve been through a lot of shitty stuff and know half the things that happen are just silly mishaps that you can easily get around the trick is not to soak for too long and a healthy routine or activity in your life can stop you from bouncing off the walls. Songs I listen to vent my feelings for angrier I play Lil’ Kim Backstabbers, Notorious B.I.G. Playa Haters and Big Pun Beware. For Sad songs I like Whitney Houston Ft Faith Evans & Kelly Price Heartbreak Hotel, Brian Knight Anytime, and Mary J Blige I’m Goin Down but on the flip side Changes I’ve Been Through which is more my thing less downy and more upbeat. 

3. To Lose Time & Forget

Music is a good key to lose track of time and forget your troubles even if it was worth a x number of minutes. I use music to speed up the clock and make things go a bit faster in the day and at night my music is on low and to also forget my troubles and is a good source for doing so. For me it started at a club or rave and losing track of time there, so it was only natural to bring it home with me. I notice though it didn’t have to be ravy and could be something relaxing and calm you can easily shut your brain off and zone out but not too much as that is bad for you. The quickest way though to pass time is to put on something clubby and long and the time soon goes there’s been a couple of times where I was listening to a really long mix, and it was over before I knew it which was what I was looking for also having something to do with the brain and fingers that helps and is sort of like binge watching on YouTube or wherever. If I’m really feeling the music or I am already up I might do a quick twirl on the dancefloor and that helps me relax later down in the day when I’m still energetic. I use music to speed up things mainly when I want the days to go quicker or if I’m just bored but I feel a bit of music warms the place up and can stop it from feeling isolated and empty. Also I make music music and that keeps me busy doing stuff when I’m actually making music, but I don’t watch TV as I don’t pay a TV licence, so I watch YouTube and make music instead which is a lot more fun than sitting in front of the box and switching off, but TV is another aider for time passing if there is something good on that is. I like to leave the music on throughout the day and night as it keeps me company and I tend to listen to my radio Ghosting Radio home to all my music as I just want some background noise and don’t want to change over every two minutes it drives me mental lol. On my way to London, I noticed how fast it would go if I had the right music so it may take a bit of practice to fully get your mind to fully switch off but it’s worth it. I also never used to travel anywhere on foot or on the bus without my MP3 or Walkman in the 90s it’s the only thing that gets me through the travel as I don’t really like travelling no more and stay busy on my computer. Music helps me zone out and also concentrate which I tend to put something suitable on depending on what the task is, but I use my music to concentrate on things I do creative wise and need undescribed music and my music fits the bill. Music wise to lose time to Missy Elliot Click Clack which could be seen as a vent song also, Dem Franchise Boyz Oh I Think They Like Me, DJ Zinc Supa Sharp Shooters, Da Brat Fab 5 Freedy which is another vent song and lastly Sticky Ft Kele Roc Things We Do which I always have to turn up loud for that one. I would say they were some of my release songs that has helped me through a lot like dealing with haters, getting money and also life in general which was a huge learning curve for me never again though life is always hard when you are a kid growing up. 

4. To Remember

The real magic of music it unlocks memories and yes for the good and bad, but I like to concentrate on the good side. I have countless memories with ties to music but the ones that come to mind is partying but I’m sure I had some sensible times as well. There are lots of good times I had with music that I now have lost or didn’t find which is a shame, but I have lots of songs I remember and some I don’t. I have songs for every occasion from summer, summer in the 90s, Christmas, birthdays and many more events I was a part of and lucky to be a part of. I love when I’m walking with my MP3 on, and I suddenly get a memory out of the blue I haven’t had any like that for a while now but that was the fact I was listening to music whilst walking. What I don’t like is being on a bus and getting a flashback as I like to think in my own time when no one is around which sometimes I over think things, but I hate that and try to turn the music off before I have a laughter fit and people start looking at me funny. I might have said this already on a different webpage but if you are trying to get some old memories back try playing some songs from that time maybe from the charts or whatever you were playing at the time which does trigger the memoires and believe me, they can be shocking and unbelievable as I didn’t believe myself, but music does help with rusty brains especially if there are a few years missing in your memory calendar. It may take a few goes and best when you are not distracted by things around you, but I got a lot of my memories back with the help of playing the old bangers which can be taxing on your mind and make you feel like you are going mad. Also, I used music to memorize a function when I was working at an agency which had a whole of rhythm to it and found it easier with some music and an hour to memorize the 5 handles left, right, angle, arms up, head tilt. What I also like to do is pick and rap song cos my singing is crappy, but I would learn the song step by step and get confident enough to rap it out loud it’s good for motor skills and for memory. There are a few songs I know off by heart and can do some blindfolded which I still don’t know how I got through it since I haven’t listened to the tracks in quite a while but it’s good to know I still have the memory space I thought I lost it. Another good practise is playing keyboard and I used to be better at learning new songs I haven’t tried in a while now like 3 years as I haven’t got the motive to do it, but I want to and want to do another Bach piece and something easy at first.  My songs that I have memories with is Salt ‘n’ Pepa Whatta Man that has a lot of memories attached to it, Corona Rhythm Of The Night which reminds me of the good times in the early 90s, Lumidee Uh Oh which reminds me when I was at St Pauls Carnival and where I was hearing a lot of Reggaeton which was all good and easy to dance to. You might as well say the whole How High album by Redman & Method Man but their tracks Let’s Do It is my favourite and has a lot of memories. It reminds me of my young self with bongs and going raving whenever we had the money. Lastly Sean Paul’s album but mainly Gimmie The Light as that’s a club banger and I got drunk and danced to that quite a few times and they are all similar to my bus ride reflections a bit cringe but laughable, I’m always up for a laugh though within reason but that’s why I enjoyed raving and clubbing as it was a good chance to have a laugh.

5. To Laugh

I do like a good song to laugh to and I think music can help you laugh it out and is a good way to boast your mood if you are feeling low and have several songs that do that for me. It all started with the TLC Crazy Sexy Cool interlude you know the one where she is missing some toilettes  items in a prank call that always boasted my mood no matter how much it made me cringe it always made me laugh. There are a few interludes and skits that make me laugh and mainly in Hip Hop but some R’n’B too it’s always good for a laugh and to also forget where you are for a minute which when bored or low is always a handy tool to have and thanks to YouTube, Spotify and other music platforms they are all at our finger tips and you just need a good memory to know what album it was on as that was the problem I faced when looking for those skits and interludes. I supposed the more shocking or true to life is the ones I usually play like the ones that you are like I can’t believe you said that or ha true that those are my favourite to play. It’s also memories you can laugh at the memories you had or though I won’t go on about it again but they are good for remembering your memories with the people and things you hold dear to you. As I mention in all my status I like to have a laugh and think it’s important not to take yourself seriously as you have no fun in life. Though saying that there is a time and place for having a laugh but I think it’s important to let go every now and then even if Becky is bitching about how fabulous she thinks she is you should let them bitch and do you don’t worry about the haters as I say I don’t live for my haters which mean say what you want we ain’t related or in any kind of friendship I’m going do me. That’s why it’s also good to laugh at your haters and the people who chat shit and there are a lot of songs that help me laugh at them. I always say like the saying goes there’s no point sitting there in the dumps with the why me attitude as the haters will be having a field day so I use music to also help me laugh and put my middle finger up to the bullshit and say not today thank you. I also use music to rap along and entertain myself for a few hours at the most which I put on the funny songs to help me get in the mood with things but I always rap the most sensible lyrics and leave out the most obscene. I don’t really remember all the funny songs but I used to have quite a lot of tracks that I deemed as funny but I have lost them now. I say it’s good for your mental health and it can help boast your mood but also your confidence and has helped me a lot during my hardest times to laugh it out and make me forget about the situation or know it wasn’t worth it as those people are stupid and not worth fighting over or going to prison, which they would of won the fight and once again we can’t be having that now lol. Do you think of a song and say that reminds me of ol Keshia and not Cole lol it’s how I found balance actually and think it’s a good way to balance yourself out without going too over the top. I also use music that makes me laugh when I’m overthinking and feeling not myself it’s how I get back into the swing of it which usually takes a couple of days when I’m feeling really low. Songs that make me laugh is Notorious B.I.G. Story To Tell, Rick James Cold Blooded, Quinn Doin The Most, Lil’ Kim Big Momma Thang, and Good Girl ft Mulatto Thirsty cos it’s not just those you know who are thirsty. I think they are good funny but true to life songs that always make me laugh and also cry at some of them I love music like that. 

Mind 24 Hour Mental Health Music Marathon

If you enjoyed that then please head over to this page for a 24 hour mental health music I streamed with more sensible songs on that is high energy and all in your feelings. It was going to be on YouTube but it was kicked to the curb like I thought it would of done so for now you can find it on this website and also on Mixcloud it has genres from House, Jungle/Drum & Bass, Motown, Soul, a bit of Reggae, Hip Hop and R’n’B and much more all from the 60s and up to present day, it’s more of a mental health music party with only  a few sad songs on there as I kept it feel good and bouncy with a couple of sad songs in there for mix.

Synergy Synths – Harmony VST Plugin

November 21, 2022

I made another plugin and this one is going to be a series called Synergy trying to get that synth word in there somehow lol. The VST is for Windows and Mac and I made the sounds myself using Serum, I also made the GUI too which I’m now happy with. I had quite a few sounds already from what I had over the years of making sounds but I did add 20 more which I made from scratch. Once again some I am happy with and some I’m not but it is a free VST and I’m still a beginner so not all the sounds are perfect. I did add extra knobs like a filter, delay, reverb, chorus and some other knobs as I found some of the sounds were a bit dry but there are always knobs in the synth anyway. This VST was going to be a sampler from one of my old keyboards that aren’t midi and is a Yamaha but I am not sure if they would be happy if I resampled the whole collection on the keyboard and gave it away for free and I think is copyright infringement so I decided to make the sounds myself which I will be doing plenty more of in the future with various of plugins that you can make sounds from scratch with, with the right guide that is. My favourite part of making the plugin was doing the GUI and making the sounds which took some hours but is fun doing and as I said, lucky I had a bag full of sounds already which I tried to make  better and upgrade a little.  I tested it on Windows and it works on Windows but I haven’t got a Mac computer so I’m not sure if it will work on Mac also I used FL Studio as my DAW so it works in FL but I’m not sure if it works on other DAW so please respond and let me know if it works on your DAW and computer.  This is a free download and feedback will be appreciated it’s partly what I like about synths dark, melodic and light and thick and comes with synths and basses.  

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