L.A. Investigators – Sanctuary Or Satanic

August 31, 2025

INTRODUCTION

It’s a topic that has been brought up time after time and a damn right good one two the subject of backmasking in popular songs. For those who don’t know what backmasking is I explain quickly with a quick definition.  Backmasking is a recording technique where a message or sound is intentionally recorded backward onto an audio track that is played forward, creating hidden or reversed messages that can only be understood when the track is played in reverseArtists have used this for artistic or comedic effect, for satiric purposes, or to censor explicit words for “clean” releases. While sometimes a deliberate artistic choice, backmasking gained notoriety in the 1980s amid conspiracy theories about secret satanic messages in heavy metal music, which have since been largely disproven. I’ve always been into finding new backmasking songs especially when I was younger which I used to make it jump to get the hidden message which okay isn’t good for the disk reader but boy did I get a thrill when I managed to hit it just in time. The first time was a fluke though which is how I discovered the so called hidden messages.  There are many allegations to why they back mask and it’s from the Illuminati to the devil worshipping to cooler but more scarier heights like secret plans and fixed terrorist plots like the 9/11 conspiracy which I think rings some truths in as something isn’t right but that’s a whole new story. The first recordings of backmasking was  “Car Trouble” by The Eligibles in 1959, which features two nonsense reversed passages. However, The Beatles popularized the technique with their experimental use of reversed tape in songs like “Tomorrow Never Knows” and the vocal backmasking in their 1966 single “Rain,” which also accidentally led to the “Paul is Dead” conspiracy theory. Rewind to the 2010s I would of been up in arms calling them all satanic devil worshippers but fast forward to now I’m in a good state and kept a open mind when compiling the tracks I have on this post. My conclusion will be at the end to what I think all this merlarky is about so stay tuned for that. After making a interactive post around backmasking and can be found on my randomgas.com/boiler-room page if you haven’t seen it already but after making that I decided to jump further down the rabbit hole so to speak and break down some of the sections of some of the songs I played in that interactive piece.  Below you will find well talked and debated about songs that are accused of using backmasking in their songs and many of things actually. I didn’t do the whole song which I cut up into bits and reversed it I did the juicy bits which I tried out myself and recorded each bit of the song and reversing it. You will find four versions of the clips the original clip which is played in forward motions and then you have the reversed clip of the original track and then the other two are me one in forward motion and the other in reversed to see if it was all by accident or more of a calculated plan of action stay tuned.   

LADY GAGA - PAPARAZZI

This song Paparazzi by Lady Gaga has been in some controversy surrounding backmasking and the hidden messages within the song. There’s a couple of messages about Lucifer  and some weird admissions but this is  just standard satanist vibes you would expect from a shed skinned creature we call A Star celebrities.  The first two clips are of the start of the song and reversing the first clip seen below you get the message 

“The star above, above he follow your wish no you’re not funny”     

 

It is suggested that the star refers to the Morning Star and is a Christian interpretation of Isaiah 14:12, which describes a once-exalted figure, the “morning star,” who has fallen from heaven. This term was later linked to the Latin word for “light-bringer,” Lucifer, and applied to the fallen angel, Satan. However, the biblical “morning star” is also a title for Jesus in Revelation 22:16, highlighting a stark contrast: Jesus is the true “bright morning star,” representing eternal light, while Satan’s “morning star” signifies his fall into darkness. It is also suggested that he refers to Lucifer or the devil and he followed their (the people she is meant to be singing about) wishes which is suggested to be a blood sacrifice or mass misconception one of the devils favourites tricks. And whatever it is she is not amused and telling someone they are not funny whatever that means I have no clue.

Saying it myself over the microphone and reversing the clip you kind of get the same message   but it tails off to some inaudible bits but listen carefully and you do get the message 

“The star above above he follow your wish”

 but tails off with the no you’re not funny part.  I’ll leave it in the sanctuary section and pass this off as a coincidence and something that wasn’t forced except for the last part the “No you’re not funny” part that didn’t transfer in my own recordings which does suggest a bit of hokey pokey.  

Play this part in reverse you get a shocking message which is

“The star above, above he modelled on the arts of Lucifer, on the baby”

It is suggested that Lucifer was the angel of music which they modelled the music on even though this is not true.  There is no biblical or definitive historical evidence that Lucifer was the angel of music While some interpretations of Ezekiel 28:13 suggest he had musical instruments incorporated into his being, this verse refers to the King of Tyre, and the terms “tabrets” and “pipes” are often translated to mean the settings for the precious jewels on his body, not actual a musical instrument but is still heavily speculated till this day.

Saying it myself over the microphone and reversing the clip you nearly get the message that she was singing I got 

“The star above above he… inaudible…arts of Lucifer” 

Know that I think about it the followed part did seem more force but I have no proof to back it up with so I’m going to leave it in the satanic pile as even though I don’t think she’s a devil worshipper as such it’s still roots.

Play this part in reverse you get another weird message which is

“On the arms of your bible, step on someone evil save us”

For those who don’t know celebrities as a whole are accused of being satanic and not following the bible hence why it’s suggested she’s saying your bible not our bible. They are also accused of stepping on people to get where they need and should be and also the conspiracy of Satan coming to save them on judgement day a day where they are supposed to align themselves more with the devil or Lucifer.  

 

Making my own recordings and reversing it I got;

“On the arms of your bible….inaudible…evil save us”

Bible and evil save us is pretty much clear but the rest is just gibberish so I pass this off as sanctuary and just a accident   or though and again there seems to be forced words I call them forced as they are words that have or may have been edited later on down the production line but who knows. 

Play this part in reverse you  get another weird message which is

“Help me please someone inside me”

It is speculated that the celebrities like Lady Gaga are leaving in misery and a slave to the Illuminati and they are pleading for people to free them from the mental and physical abuse they are supposed to live with. It is also speculated that Lady Gaga is just one of many who secretly live as reptilians and that is what is inside her or she is a proper loon and she lives with voices and torment this has all be speculated.   

My own recordings and reversing the clip I get a slight  message which is

“Help ma please”

It is hard to pick up the audio but if you listen carefully you will hear it but not the best clearest message in the list but it just about passes so I put this in the sanctuary pile and  call it another possible forced audio or it could just be a coincidence and it just sounds like that but who knows you can be the best judge.  

BILLIE EILISH - WHEN THE
PARTY'S OVER

This has to be one of the creepiest songs I’ve heard in a while and with that out the way you can definitely hear

“We walk in hell Satan”

in a part of this clip but it’s so hard to pick up anything that made sense and not dribbling black tar from their mouth lol but you really have to concentrate on the audio. 

Nothing in this one apart from the last word which is a very slurred Satan right at the end so another one for the sanctuary pile as much of it was inaudible and didn’t make no sense like the M.E.M. which called mean Eminem you see how easy it is to twist the subject around into something that makes complete sense.        

Play this clip backwards you will get the message 

“Kill it kill it kill it  kill it…inaudible” and “Like a lifer” a slang term for someone who is serving life in prison. 

This is a newish song from 2019 so way after the YouTube first stage of feeding us all with junk they call conspiracies so I don’t know much about the song but my guess is more so called satanic messages or her egging someone or us to kill someone  in subliminal tones but who knows what the official conspiracy is. 

Absolutely nothing in this reversed clip of my version just gibberish so this will go into once again the sanctuary pile. Maybe I could of done better with the voicing and the rhythm of the song but it was quite a hard one to get out for someone who just heard the song but nothing but gibberish in this clip.

MILEY CYRUS - WRECKING BALL

In this reversed clip well actually it’s inaudible for most of it but at the end it seems to say

“Whining” and “Tis I supposed to die maybe we should watch”

It could be suggested that Miley is singing about her being dispensable and at the hands of the Illuminati and the other secret society’s we know and don’t know about. And the maybe we should watch may be speculated about a snuff movie or her suffering and everyone watching in and making it a circus which is part of the puppet chain.

Nothing in this one either I recorded and reversed the clip but found nothing to report back  on with so another dead end. It sounded like nothing what Miley sang or spoke down that mic. So I guess this goes in the satanic pile as I feel now this a blatant forced message  or it could be by accident but there was no way I got that from this. 

Playing this part of the song in reverse you get the words.

“Leave, yeah eh eh eh heave eh eh eh loading we are. Oh we are soaking all in our lawn….inaudible…rucaliptian”  

Breaking it down into parts starting  with the first part “leave” which is actually self explanatory but  just for reference it is speculated that she’s telling someone to go possible to be a outcast in the real world or it was someone’s warning them to leave town or even the country someone high up and wouldn’t have to spend a night or their life in a cell. The “heave” part is suggested it’s on about slavery and particularly to the so called slaves who are at the bottom of the pyramid and food chain in hierarchy. “Oh we are soaking all in our lawn” people suggest it’s about soaking in the sun while the slaves run around like busy bees or possible soaking in blood and even worser things. Finally the word rucalipatian is meant to be about shape shifting and the so called reptilians who want to take over the world and the human race which is a pretty far out conspiracy theory I reckon.    

Okay maybe I could of sang the last bit better bit I didn’t find anything interesting in this clip only a indistinctive heave at the beginning and that was it. This will go into the sanctuary section as I didn’t find anything too shocking or worthy of putting it in the satanic pile so onwards and upwards. 

There are chopped up bits and pieces in this part of the song including

“Leave the illusion off with that”,  “No we are not movin”, “Satan”  and “Slow misery let me know” 

The rest is untranslated and speaking in some sort of Juju tongue but your ears might of heard something else. To explain the theory bit by bit “Leave the illusion off with that” is speculated about using smoke and mirrors like what they say about when the Twin Towers got hit on September 11th in 2001. They say it was a order by a higher up person who controls the media and businesses around the world and those people put out smoke and mirrors in order to keep us where they want us to be. I half believe in this as I do believe there are secret cabinets who do the bidding behind our backs and start wars etc for gain and profit including making new laws even if that means breaking them to make it which means cold murder in some cases. “Slow misery let me know” is suggested that they get off on seeing people down and hurt and they have the power to do such a thing which in that part of the song it could be suggested that it was a open invitation to cause pain, havoc and mayhem in the name Lucifer just one of their gods the celebrities are meant to worship instead of God and even Jesus.

Okay not much in this one either but I did notice 3 seconds in it sounds like I’m saying Satan but it’s pretty mangled and distorted. I’ll put this in the sanctuary pile as there wasn’t much in it and seems like a fluke or some sort of accident as I couldn’t find anything substantial in these clip. 

In this reversed clip it seems to be saying

“This is revenge what you did to me. Miss me honey”

It is suggested that she is on about a ex and tormenting him through this song. The honey part is suggested to be linked to the Monarch part of the Illuminati where celebrities like Miley Cyrus are brainwashed sex kittens and are controlled by handlers and they use trigger words like honey to make them do what they want. Interesting at it’s best scary at it’s worse but I think it’s pretty much exaggerated claims I think.

In my reversed clip I got 

“Revenge” and “Miss me honey”

Not the whole sentence but a bit of mix and match. It definity says “miss me honey” which I think is a coincidence and makes me laugh for some reason. I’ll put this in the sanctuary pile  as there was that coincidence and the rest didn’t make sense so in the pile it goes. 

BEYONCE - SINGLE LADIES (PUT A RING ON IT)

In the revered clips it seems to be saying 

“Hail Lucifer” 

Not much to explain in this except more devil worshipping accusations from the conspiracy theorists and also trying to align herself more with the devil I mean it’s up to you to decide but they are wild accusations. 

Not much in my recordings or though it does seem to be saying

“Lucifer”

A couple of times but I’m not getting the hail bit which you do have to listen really carefully to hear it in the original song. I’ll put this in the sanctuary pile or though I won’t dispute a bit of forced audio in there but who knows.

In the reversed clip of this bit of the song it seems to say

“Lucifer, the world will..not..have..fun, the world will bow to me, people tears fall”

More accusations of devil worshipping  and the accusation of when the day comes the world will bow to Beyonce the queen of hell or the other one is she will replace Christianity and the world will bow and worship her instead. And the people’s tears fall part is to do with Aaliyah and the fact she so say killed her and how people still cry out for her a possible regret so called. The other one is another world wide thing that will affect us all and how our tears will fall like 9/11 all over again. And oh the world will not have fun part is meant to be about how she is laughing and saying how the world will be restricted and how we will not have fun like it has been since 9/11.

My reversed findings find it says

“The world…Inaudible…will not have fun” and “Gurl  will bow to me”

But the rest is inaudible and something I couldn’t pick up on. I’ll put this once again the sanctuary pile as I couldn’t find the sinister message in the audio and doesn’t find much of the clip.

In the reversed clip of the final bit it seems to be saying

“Galaxy” and “Lean on me”

Silly accusations that Beyonce is God as we all know the Gods open up all the galaxies so  they are saying she thinks she’s God and going to open up a galaxy which is meant to be blaspheming and disrespect to God and the Bible.  The “Lean on me” part is quite silly but she is meant to be the puppet and she’s the one they lean on IE take it out on and she’s meant to be tired of being leant on apparently.

In my reversed clip it says

“Galaxy” and “Lean on me”

Okay a bit jargoned but if you listen carefully it does say that the lean on me and galaxy are quite distinctive. I definitely put this in the sanctuary pile  as it was a natural recordings and nothing to suspect about it  even though it was the silly part of the song and nothing to be taken too seriously. 

IN CONCLUSION

Well we have come to the end of the post and I leave with my conclusion. I pretty much call it sanctuary over satanic and even though I did find some suspect or what I called forced audio it’s pretty much a coincidence and something that should be taken seriously.  They probably deliberately put messages in the songs for profit and sells even though they are all saints but not perfect as saints aren’t perfect. I don’t know maybe it’s the accent or the way it was sung and even though I did try to sing it or at least get the melody part right I found not a lot in it. I don’t know of a technique used to get hidden messages when reversing a part of a song but here is the conspiracy part of the post but maybe they have a technique or certain voices and accents sound different or maybe they have a book of words and the song writers use that to meet the satanic and sinister requirements but this is far fetched allegations from me and also not what I found in my own recordings. Whatever the case I myself think it’s pretty much BS unless it was all what I said above and more which I always keep a open mind when investigating and debating the topic. I wanted to make my own recordings and conclusions and I would suggest you do the same with the same clips and other well known songs to make up your own mind but I hope I helped.

Conspiracies Gone Wild

August 21, 2025

INTRODUCTION

Don’t get me wrong  I enjoy a good conspiracy I remember in the 2010’s when there were a lot of what they call now truth channels or other well known as conspiracy channels on YouTube. Some of it which is nothing but some harmless fun is okay but then we jump into the wild side stuff you have to believe in aliens and stuff to believe what they say. I heard it all from the queen being a reptilian and eating babies to replacement clones of the stars of yesterday and even today. As I said some of it is just harmless fun but the funny thing about it is people and the person delivering the news actually believes it. Even though it can be what I called  harmless fun it can lead you down dark and lonely paths which I get into further down this post. I wonder all the time what the person’s agenda is the person who is behind spreading the craziness is it to spread the word or just because you can’t stand that person or a way to get global attention like here’s the scoop but don’t forget to buy my merch or buy and stream my music it does make me wonder. Obviously it’s a topic starter in real life and on YouTube and online the reactions are priceless and most take it with a pinch of salt and then there are people who over react and start hating or acting shady towards that person and is mostly to do with the satanic nature but more on that later.  I’m actually writing this post as I seen a surge of the so called truth channels and the return of the crazy and dam right silly with bigger and bolder claims and talk of proof without showing proof and fake what it looks like fake AI made thumbnails that is meant to be the proof but it just not cutting it. I mean how many tear duck photoshops are you going to do with a miserable face they use it on everyone and at first it was convincing but it’s been done too many times but still impressive gear. I remember when I first really started hearing about conspiracies and fully understanding them was at my old school Fairfield Grammar School and when I was about 11 when I first started secondary school. Our teacher was a bit of a kook too and he told us some of them which always used to scare me but sounded so real and interesting. He was well up to date with them and knew all the old ones he was a bit of a wiz to it actually. It did change my perspective of the world and my outlook on things but I said nothing was going to stop me doing what I wanted to do and I did it. 

MESSING WITH MY PSYCHE

As I said I started hearing and making way of conspiracies when I was 11 around 1996 and when I started secondary school. I always had a mental illness well since when I was seven and only got treated in 2016 when I got some help. I got sectioned and this was due to a number of reasons but one of them was watching too many conspiracy videos on YouTube. Like any nutter I stared watching harmless videos like long videos in 15 minute section videos about JF Kennedy and also the clones then it got all serious and it was scary stuff scary cos I was on some nasty K2 weed that left me overthinking and paranoid but it was still believable until they pushed the boat out.  It left me unhinged and thinking radical cos I actually thought Aaliyah was murdered and I was in this whole conspiracy and my meeting with Aaliyah when she came to my school in 1997 was linked to her death some how or I was cursed was the other one. This was after watching countless videos on YouTube to do with Aaliyah including all her videos looking for clues but alas I couldn’t find nothing this was in the 2010s by the way when there was no mute button for it and I was looking for the truth even though I really didn’t need to.  Even though I couldn’t find any truths in her music videos and also interviews YouTube filled up my box with countless videos that had convincing clips that looked like the truth like the backmasking of popular songs that if you play it backwards you will get a usually satanic message like worship the devil or worship me that is linked to the illuminati or satanic clips in the music videos which is meant to be worshipping the devil, the illuminati or is linked to the butterfly monarch and is where they are sex kittens/slaves to the rich and famous which sounds interesting. I believed all the above and more and liked the fact even though I was against it but I liked the fact of this higher foreseers who control us and the rich and famous pulling those strings one by one and some of the rich and famous being sex kittens and secretly  worshipping the devil and illuminati it sounded so interesting but scarily real. Watching the videos on YouTube about conspiracies gave me my own idea to reverse some of my own songs I had and one of them Aaliyah’s I Care 4 You that song really scared me and though played normally it sounds like a song about love or what not but played backwards there are some horrible lines that makes it seem she was laughing behind our back and nasty name calling like she hates us or me at that point. It really did shook me up and made my mental health even worse but it was a state at that point as it was due to binge watching conspiracies on YouTube was one reason it didn’t go with the K2 I was smoking either. It was pretty dark stuff and mostly related to the next people I’m about to talk about Beyonce and Jay Z the so called king and queen pins of the illuminati.   

THE JAYONCE COMPLEX

Long live the days when Jay Z was just a hustling rapper and Beyonce was that chick from Destiny’s Child boy has time moved fast. I don’t know what it is but for some reason they are putting a X over Jay Z, Beyonce and even their kids. Every two minutes they are speculating on YouTube on them two and they are some serious allegations and some silly ones like news just in Beyonce wore Aaliyah’s skin in order to keep Jay Z like geez Jay most people would ask them to dress up as them for Halloween and make another baby if you know what I mean. I mean it’s ridiculous that people would believe it and something so far fetched. For those who don’t know and hasn’t watched any conspiracy videos on YouTube Beyonce and Jay Z have been accused of being top members of the Illuminati and devil worshipers and have been since Beyonce got with Jay Z and they later got married and had kids together. This is also linked to the Hova sign (seen above) which resembles a pyramid which is linked to the pyramid and all seeing eye on the Dollar currency and the all seeing eye is traced supposable to the illuminati which they scream what Jay Z and the others who signed and not signed to his label are referencing when they do it. One of worse things and something that is brought up a lot is Jay Z killed Aaliyah so Aaliyah can be replaced by Beyonce. This is mostly linked back to the Hova sign which Aaliyah was seen posing in a picture. It can also go as far as saying the Hova sign was a sign that Beyonce has successfully taken over Aaliyah when Beyonce first done the sign. I really don’t know where to start with this as there was so much I went through with everyone being accused like Missy Elliott the madame in this, Ginuwine, Da Brat and so many more including her own uncle who did get a substantial payment when Aaliyah died so say. I really can’t see the resemblance between Beyonce and Aaliyah and if anything they should say she was to replace Michael Jackson as she’s on the same stature now and as much as I love me some Aaliyah AKA Baby Girl I really don’t see her on the same performance wise now like big sell out shows and top selling albums and streams in this current state I mean in 2025 or anything before 2005. Everyone know she was moving into acting and was going to be Neo in the Matrix but she died in the plane crash in 2001 before filming but she had a number of film appearance before her death. I really do see her still acting and appearing on things like Empire or even some guest appearances in TV in Sitcoms and serious stuff she might not even still be singing and touring if she was alive today. The other thing is which seems pretty harsh to say but is a valid comment so I say it but would she still be relevant in 2025 in the music industry and have a sell out out grand tour like Beyonce has. As I said I love me some Baby Girl but I’m being fair and just asking some simple questions we all have to ask ourselves and FYI I’m am and was Aaliyah’s top fan. The other allegations that are being made is Jay Z is drugging Beyonce to  keep her in a bad and controllable state, Beyonce does witchcraft against people and countless other rumours and allegations. What’s even worse is there are people coming out and backing up these wild claims and becoming the next sensation for a bit. I mean I’m not being funny but until I see actual proof of these claims I’ll treat it as just another wild allegation or claim made by a hater or someone they think they are in the know and spreading these claims for likes and profit or just because they think they are in the know. I’m not saying Hollywood is not satanic I’ve worked in the outskirts of the Hollywood zone and been in the Hollywood zone when I was a dummy, a music assistant for Ant Records and noticed a stale feel to the place but most people were nice actually it’s true what they say it’s always about money and how much or what you got but everything is superficial and showy. So I do believe that but I don’t believe they worship the devil no more as I haven’t seen real blatant proof apart from what YouTube channels have said and pointed out which is in my opinion all lies and false facts and something that should be cracked down on to save our soul and sanity.             

AT AGE 40 GAS NO LIGHT REVEALS ALL

Me and my friend Arctic Fox laugh at the silliness of some of the titles and thumbnails on YouTube like the silly titles like At Age 80 They Reveal What We What We Was Thinking Along and those silly time traveling videos you have to be mental to believe and this is me not trying to be horrible about their believes. The fact is like all conspiracies on YouTube there isn’t enough evidence they promise to show proof but don’t actually give you anything to believe in and is something that has been photoshopped for sure when they do show the so called proof. Clickbait comes to mind and the proof was so say in the thumbnail now I wasted up to 15 minutes and still you haven’t showed me nothing what a complete waste of time and energy. I mean there is nothing wrong with it really and I do count that as harmless fun even though most of it is clickbait but it does frustrate me because people lose their mind to it and end up in some bad predicament all because the hater or so say knowing person gets on their high horse and start galloping around. Get down from there and walk like a real man or woman or anything below or above. I mean it really does put me off people when I start or did start believing the lies like when I heard the rumour Rihanna gave Chris Brown Herpes a sexually transmitted diseases and was so called uncurable and the reason why Chris Brown attacked Rihanna in that car incident I went off the two. It was all I could think about when I saw them in the online pictures and music videos and that is the downside to hearing gossip online and in your daily life. They even go as far as saying that people like Rihanna, Beyonce and countless others can’t carry babies no more as their uterus is damaged from the uncurable STDs or STIs Sexual Transmitted Infection. Even though this is false as Beyonce and Rihanna and the others have all had babies they carried themselves but they say they are fake bumps and fake pregnancies if you insist sir or madame. There was a big conspiracy that Beyonce was wearing a fake bump with proof of a picture that did appear to be a bit frumpy but anyone who has watched someone go though pregnancy and maybe countless times the woman is usually a bit frumpy during the start of the pregnancy which means looks like she or he has a cushion underneath the top and it’s not proper rounded we all have had the cushion underneath the top and pretended to be pregnant for a laugh and giggle or you might have been pregnant and know what I’m talking about.      

IN CONCLUSION

In short conspiracies videos and talking about conspiracies are fun to do but can lead you down dangerous paths and dark alleys which isn’t good for your mental health or your wellbeing. The other thing as well it can leave you feeling or being stupid and there is enough crazy and stupid in this world to go around. There’s nothing wrong about talking about conspiracy or watching conspiracy videos or browsing generally online but it should be treated with a pinch of salt and until you get solid proof it shouldn’t be taken serious. Whatever the case most of the people who perpetuate these rumours and conspiracies are mostly liars and they are unhinged and have some sort of agenda behind there wild tales or they are just hating cos they are either racist, sexist, a religious nut or something else. Always remember wait for the proof before going ahead and cancelling them or striking them off your fav list it’s the decent thing to do and saves you ending up looking stupid and insane in some cases. 

The Fame Game And The Controversial Rise Of The Downfall

January 3, 2025

THE RISE OF THE INTERNET

 I was born in the 80s 1985 to be exact so back then fame was a big deal and not something you could do willy-nilly and you had to have a talent and also something you would work ranks to get to the top and earn a top dollar or at least get some credit for say your singing abilities or stage presents or break boundaries which is one music is meant to be about. Music connects audiences and makes so many memories for the audience for good or for bad and we have that one song that reminds us of a good experience and thankfully that would never die out. Having to break down doors in order just to sing or be heckled for being quote-unquote the wrong colour isn’t new and as we should all know by now was something the greats of the singing and entertainment community had to overcome in the olden days. However, once again this is old news and something that still happens to this day.  It is more accessible if you will to become famous for any colour but it still is met with trolls, backlash and cancel culture. I will use Michael Jackson and Beyonce as a newer example but two people and Michael’s sister Janet Jackson too three people who with sold-out tours and worked their butts off to get that coin and recognition in this cold world. In my earlier years of being on this earth Prince, Madonna and Michael Jackson were the three who dominated the world with their talents and presence and in the 90s and 00s things changed since the rise of Paris Hilton, the rise of the internet and gossip outlets and magazines. This happened especially in the 2000s with the downfall of Britney Spears and her infamous meltdown and attack on the press. Also, the start of YouTube which was on Beta and had that boy I can’t remember his name but he did skits about his abusive mother who locked him in the basement and then came Shane Dawson. It’s funny actually on a side note as I was going to do a two-minute skit it didn’t rely on being over the top it was actually quite bitchy and did mean putting on a wig. Anyway, I didn’t do it in the end as funny as some of the skits were they were over the top and being copied by other people and some were just either stupid or damn mean. The internet changed after that and it was and still is but more than ever it was a place where you could get insightful information or tune in to a live stream which meant you were either dealing with a big spender or someone who got a deal with their internet company who always specialised in graphic design. I was lucky I had the internet when it first was publicly accessible around 1998 as my dad worked in the office for a council and it was mandatory to have it to access the ever-growing emails they receive from both clients and the office. Around the same time maybe a year or two after some libraries were giving free access to the internet but you had to book it up if it wasn’t free or alternatively come back when they weren’t being used. Having the internet at home was also quite expensive still and meant the good dial-up internet which meant slow loading speeds, computer freezing, and long waiting times to connect to the internet and countless other tedious problems you just couldn’t fix unless you were a computer technician. So going to the library for a few hours to post something in a forum, get advice or even message your favourite celebrity or singer/actor/actress and hope to get a response and they used to no they probably listen to the advice from their manager or publicists who tell them not to respond but you would be lucky to get a retweet nowadays for example. But basically having access to the internet was a big deal and something that at the time was either unaffordable or just not in the budget. When I first started on the Internet in 1998 around it was full of design companies and also forums but it wasn’t that much on there which is probably why most people didn’t buy into the Internet at first and they could get it for free at the library or in the office for people who worked in the offices. There was a big talk on the fate of the Internet and it was determined it should become a place for knowledge and fun stuff and something that should be accessible to all at reasonable prices and should eventually be free I’m still waiting for that to happen lol. So they basically made it all that and the internet as we know it or used to know was born. Oh and the rise of the webcam around the 2000s meant you didn’t need any technicians and cables running through your setup to stream live feeds which opened the door to Beta YouTube in my opinion which was unfiltered and uncensored which meant you could do or say whatever you liked apart from the cops who sometimes pick up on illegal active and come down on them. Also worth noting algorithms were still fun experiments for the nerd to have fun with there was no market or great reliance on using it and knowing. It was big social media companies on the internet today like YouTube, Facebook, TikTok, X formally known as Twitter rely on and were built on but is still something anyone can jump to you just need to know how to get attention and keeping attention. 

SUBSTANCE AND FLAVOURS

Fast forward to the present time and the change of the Internet and as we have seen it is technically easier than ever to get famous. I say technically as you still have to post lots for visibility and compete with others who are just like you or who copy you and other factors but you can have that one song or video or even tweet that blows up and you get handed what I would call the fame baton stick. I’m not saying it’s all the way a bad thing as I think it’s a cool thing for singers, actors and actresses, comedians, and producers like me to get some attention and most importantly not have to have an agent or label to manage but it’s definitely becoming an issue. Lil’ Kim is my favourite female rapper so I’m accustomed to potty mouth lyrics and quote-unquote trick me out with diamonds and pearls, eat my cat and you ain’t shit sentiments and I always favoured female Hip Hop other than male so nothing is shocking or new to me but the issue people are having or one of them is the two female artists who both jumped into the scene and are the current let’s say the current baton holders. 

Sexy Red (picture above) and Ice Spice are two questionable female artists in the current scene of Hip Hop and are known for their lack of substance in lyrics and like Ice Spice’s lack of substance and just shaking her ass on stage or in the videos. After that one song they did in Sexy Redd’s case Pound Town and in Ice Spice’s Munch people started to question the substance and the lack of it talking about the same old issues as Lil’ Kim and rappers around the same time did like Foxy Brown and Trina and also to mention Khia who Trina and Khia came after Lil’ Kim and Foxy Brown and was in the 2000s but followed on their now blueprint of female Hip Hop. Having the same style of rap throughout your whole catalogue or having foul lyrics which is the case for the pair of them is something that is overdone in the now Hip Hop world and things are becoming meaningless and soulless and just done for shock value instead of talking about real issues and your own issues like mental health which I think doesn’t get talked about enough and is glamorised and sensualised by the main media but that’s a different topic. Thanks to things like  Instagram and IG models and celebrities from all the range bodies are being glamorised and obsessed to the point normal people from normal lives are going under the knife to get that body they desire and be like the celebrity they always admired in pretty value with in some cases horrifying and regretting circumstances. Things are more how you look, what you got and what you are worth other than qualities you may have or actual talent and substance. I don’t really know much about Sexxy Redd or her music other than her booty hole is round.

However, Ice Spice was recently heavily pressed on YouTube with tiles like The End Of Ice Spice and YouTube commentaries talking about her two ex-friends who claim Ice Spice was horrible to and treated them dirty on tour and in their personal life and one of them claims she was bullied by Ice Spice in school. Also, the heavily talked about text conversations where Ice Spice called Niki Minaj being like her mum ungrateful but that’s again a whole new topic. Ice Spice uses the rap style of Drill music no no no actually drills are used on the tracks it’s a repetitive but catchy style that is used in New York Drill music and also UK Drill which replaced UK Grime here in the UK. In portions it’s enjoyable and something I personally can listen to for around two hours without getting bored of the same style of rapping. This is the case for Ice Spice who since her breakout track Munch has gone on to do the same song with a different beat with the same Drill style every song feels the same. The other thing that was talked about Ice Spice was accused of using the drug Ozempic to lose weight. For those who don’t know the drug is intended for people with Diabetes and also something I forgot to mention people fell in love with her assets her curves and ass so when she lost weight and lost those assets people mocked her and straight out told her we don’t like you any more now, you are a twig. Also, people began to notice the pattern of poo references in her music in one track she raps I don’t need a Diaper but I’m Miss Poopy and in another one, she raps and is the title of the track you think you’re the shit you’re not even a fart and has a fart sound on the track which was apparently a diss to fellow female rapper Latto in an ongoing beef between the two. This brings me to the next thing people have been talking about a lot and Ice Spice and Latto is one of them being flavours IE Bi-racial and pretty privileged. For those who don’t know Hollywood and the music industry you might as well say mainstream media have a preference and that’s either white or bi-racial people with killer looks and cheekbones and assets. The media is perpetuated with these images and rarely shares people with dark complexions or gives them chances. Thanks to things like slavery and also the repressions around the world black people as a whole don’t get given a fair chance and this is included in their day-to-day life too especially in Hollywood and in the music industry. Since the ancient days, people with lighter skin were seen as more attractive and seen as things like more trustworthy or friendly and also the soaps were used to become just like them and have a fairer chance or to become quote-unquote pretty. The psychological effect of bad history and the imagery of what must seemed like a white-dominated world in Hollywood and the media and also the effect of seeing racist imagery like black face and stereotypical stuff like being slow or eating watermelon thankfully people in the present day are starting to question and push back from making everyone accountable for what was said and done even if that meant digging in the vault and looking for evidence or making your favourite entertainer accountable for their actions. Tyra Banks is someone who comes to mind when talking about controversy and being made accountable. For those who don’t know who Tyra Banks is she’s a black supermodel and host to the infamous America’s Next Top Model TV show where contestants compete to have a shoot with Vouge and earn some money as well.  Now I won’t talk about the black face incident where the white women were made to use cosmetics to briefly change their skin colour as I believe that was done in good intent and should be an experience all non-racial people should experience. I was more thinking of the time Tyra told one contestant in the elimination process she was to straighten her hair as it was too curly and in another bit she said she was acting too black and that was the feedback she was getting from others. This is the problem in Hollywood, the music industry and in mainstream media as a whole and is not something I don’t care for or entertain. Being Bi-racial with both African and Scottish roots and with an understanding of who I am and where I came from and also the uphill struggle of black and bi-racial people as a whole I found that hard to watch when it first aired in the 2000s and it’s funny actually how it was brought up cos I was outraged and started to question Tyra’s alliance with her own people and the state of the model world when first watching it. I still believe prettiness comes in all shapes and sizes and skin tones. I see a lot of black women and think they are attractive they seriously don’t know what they are on about and that happens quite frequently. I really don’t understand why people could say that person can’t be attractive as they are too dark it doesn’t make sense to me whatsoever. There was a complete attack on bi-racial people all over social media and debates on mostly YouTube and TikTok saying we hated black people, we could do whatever we liked, we were not suppressed, we think a lot of ourselves and that was hard to watch. There was evidence of this with countless stupid bi-racial people being racist and being all that my gran would say pretty pretty in front of the camera and that was annoying as I hate people who make a show of themselves on camera and are obsessed with their looks it’s so annoying and also are racists, especially to their own race. I do understand though the complexity of it all and have seen for myself being me as an example of favouritism and unfair treatment but like I said I never did and never will stand for it and get called out and worked on as I hate unfair treatment and I hate the fact some people hate me because of my skin colour cos that’s the other thing I get it from both ends and beyond.

SORRY CANCELLED IT'S OVER PARTY

As I said holding someone accountable for their actions is very important and not something you should do carelessly or with ease. In some cases I have seen people jump on them for the littlest things come to find out it was misunderstood and was nothing or misinformation being spread about them and also the sorry (insert star here) it’s over party on X formally known as Twitter it was relentless and silly some were just to keep the party going of hungry Twitter users who most likely hated that person or the world but not everyone. In some cases, it’s done with a valid reason and this is due to the ever-growing rise of the internet and the realization and getting tired of the same behaviour shown by celebrities and them not revolving to be a better person. It used to be one rule for us one rule for them so to speak and the fact people, me personally used to make excuses and not believe the allegations made against them and put it down to the haters and clout chasers who are always lying and starting new schemes to get that dollar. Now you get held accountable and people are finding fewer excuses to make and are tired of toxic behaviour, misinformation and bad products. Being sold a lie is very easy for Hollywood and the music industry to do and it is all based on your image and public perception and also your own talents or used to be. So when it doesn’t meet our knowledge and requirements it’s easy to get hurt and feel betrayed and at times used or like most times betrayed as you sold me a fake image and was all based on greed, power and fabrications or though sometimes it was for the best and was done to keep number one happy yourself. Most importantly you feel stupid as you may have defended that person internally or vocally or made excuses for them so when you come to find out that person was fake or a bit of an excuse my tone but a bit of a prick or both you feel hurt and let down and more than ever more inclined to call them out not to make the same mistake of being complacent and accepting bad and toxic behaviour and also as it’s easier than ever to do without being jumped on but of course you always got the stans to watch out for and not be attacked by them for ringing bells or even criticizing that person or having a laugh in my case. Thanks to social media and cancel culture several celebrities and YouTubers have been cancelled and put under heavy scrutiny which has brought their problems to a lot of people’s attention especially their fans and unknown audiences. The ones I’ve been watching and have watched are the coverage of Jeffery Star, Mr Beast, Ice Spice, P. Diddy and James Charles with all the in-betweens like the Sugar Bear Gate incident. 

Jeffery Star a YouTube makeup guru and before that a singer on My Space and known for his controversial lyrics and imagery and is now known for his pallets of Makeup he formalises and does himself apparently got cancelled for past videos of him being racist to a passer-by and involved battery acid which is shocking as who would say such a thing. Throwing acid in someone’s face is something that has no words to describe as for saying that even for a joke and shouldn’t be entertained in the least not to mention using violent and aggressive language and bad body language is a no-no even if you were wasted and you couldn’t control yourself. Since then he has been cancelled many times for a set of reasons but still, manages to climb his way back to most of the viewer’s eyes. His bad bitch persona and his ever-growing apologies videos where he apologises for his actions says he’s been disgraceful and holds himself accountable but still makes the same mistakes he said sorry for and keeps it moving rubs a lot of people up the wrong way and his name leaves a bitter taste in some mouths judging by the venom of the tone of voice or what and how they said it. To sum up his success he is the YouTube makeup guru’s Michael Jackson and his makeup pallets sell very well selling out in most cases in the day and has also or used to have quite a following before all the incidents came to light and people saw a toxic side of him rather than what was fed to them a package good boy deal.  There’s nothing wrong with that though as we look for pure and real people we can relate to take Aaliyah the R’n’B singer who was out in the early 90s  up to her death in August 2001 where she died sadly in a plane crash which people are still speculating till this day but different topic. Aaliyah was pure not saying she had her moments and she was always angelic but she had a nice spirit and worked hard and was always appreciative and respectful which is why I can see why Beyonce is always mentioned in comparisons as if you are on about all those things mentioned and the fact they are good singers and dancers. But Aaliyah is highly regarded cos not only did she work hard and come up with that flavour she also knew what the streets would like and gave good performances, songs, albums, videos and interviews she was always highly respectful to her peers and fellow workmates IE the competition of the time like her well known rival Brandy which was nothing more than a kick up dust from the media to get people talking and to get more views and more money in the bank but I guess they were rivals but friendly ones as they both were competing for albums and singles sales and being both black female R’n’B singers who were in both cases had a successful single and album out everyone just couldn’t put down myself included. What I was trying to say before I got caught in the whirlwind is people myself included look for pure, outgoing, bubbly, talented well spoken in a articulate fashion kind of people who are worthy of our time and most importantly our money. They don’t have to be all those things or even one in Heinz sight but as long as they appreciate what we give them our time and money and support which can be consuming and of course what they have got as we ain’t got nothing so go and live the best life and stop complaining I’m really not trying to hear you are gutted cos you didn’t get that bag you saw at the mall come to find out the price of this bag and the wish of wanting to be rich but not famous which is something I always thought and worked on even though I make music and have three websites and is always typing or doing something on the internet but the fact is some of them are just ungrateful or overwhelmed with the price tag of fame and the second one is okay to be. 

Once again I have someone in mind so bringing the spotlight over to Doja Cat a successful and talented Pop, R’n’B and Hip Hop artists who is by the way also bi-racial and has had a few incidents including talking to known to Neo Nazis and letting them be opening racist even joining in one incident and being openly racist herself in her songs and on tweets and chats but that’s not what we are talking about and already covered racism in the last part but side note this is not acceptable and shouldn’t be allowed but she is young and dumb I wasn’t always this squeaky clean even though I was clean I too made inappropriate jokes about other races bar the accents I do and was only when I was around in my late twenty’s did I start to question my antics and was not what I actually believed in or understand and was more just for jokes even though some were offensive even to black people and my own kind so I do believe in being young and dumb but at the end of the day I didn’t want people to get the wrong impression of me or think I was part of the problem so I stopped and used other ways to get a laugh out of someone or even myself watching stuff on YouTube and silly memes and being silly. But Doja Cat openly mocked and laughed at her fans at the fact her album which is a Pop album and was something she didn’t admire was nothing more than a crash grab and was part of a scheme to hype up the new release she was making at the time which was a Hip Hop/Trap album and something she wanted to make. This caused her after the other reasons stated and more to be cancelled and seem ungrateful for all the hard work the fans and stans did for her which was spent on her and give time and support and people were left hurt some admitting to crying and what did she do mock them some more laughing at them and telling them emotion blackmail wasn’t cutting it and she wasn’t going to say she liked the album and repeated the cash grab gag.  Not to mention the comments people left on the internet before and after that incident saying how they were tired of the ungrateful selfish narcissistic celebrities and how they were looking for real grateful talent to spend time and money on which was always the theme growing up and before the internet but somehow most people find themselves where they left off at the hands of the evil apart from the most shocking crimes do people stop messing with some tuning in secret until it has all blown over and many being OTT and not caring what they did and still tune in like and comment their love for that person and then there are people like me who wait for a case in court and hear the verdict and go from there as I believe with accusations comes evidence and you should ask for more evidence before you make your final decision and say out that person or start to have a dislike for them or in most cases you start to feel a type of way for them which is usually a negative impact.

Some of the rumours were started by Tasha K a gossip and drama channel on YouTube and at its height had over a million subscribers and eventually got cancelled and sued by female rapper Cardi  B for spreading misinformation about her and her husband and rapper Off Set. But some of the lies she spread which huh is being echoed more times than your voice in a cave till this day and this was in the 2010s but the lies she spread about not just Cardi B and Offset but also Aaliyah was shocking and was damn right disrespectful especially saying Aaliyah died with an STD and she was always burning up from all the man she ran through it was something like that I was shouting for Aaliyah’s mum to sue her for deflation and assignation of character as she also accused Aaliyah’s mom of pimping her out to R Kelly and any passers-by in the music industry because her mom was on her knees IE struggling. But these were the things people should question and not feed into without evidence also serious allegations of sexual assault and being a predator but that should be taken more seriously but again should come with evidence like a legit person to back up your claims or serious legal action against that person or something recorded like a video or at worse a voice recording. 

P. Diddy formally known as Puff Daddy his other alias are Sean Combs and Puffy Sean Combs or Puffy exploded onto the scene in the early 90s when he started his record company Bad Boy Records and has had successful artists like Craig Mack, Faith Evans, Lil’ Kim, 112, Mase, The Loxs, Total and the Late Notorious B.I.G his most successful artists on the label and countless others. He started when he was an intern for record company Interscope and turned into a venture after being fired by Interscope but after finding lots of R’n’B acts for Interscope they were loyal and ditched their plans to sign to Bad Boy. He has then gone on to become one of the most successful record company owners and moguls branching out in fashion with his Sean Combs line and also alcohol with his drink Ciroc Vodka I don’t drink but that drink had me obsessing selling other alcoholic and none alcoholic beverages too with other ventures. One thing he was known for in the celebrity and eventually the world was his parties. His lavish parties which cost no less than a million and were extravagant brought in the in crowds of the celebrity world and went on for days even carrying the party on to a different location sometimes which meant flying to a different part of the world which was seen on one of his birthdays I think I don’t blame him good for him is what I say. His parties and other allegations have come to light about Diddy his other aaliis name like what happens at the parties since countless celebrities and non-celebrities have come out to say I went to a Puffy party and there were freak-offs. For those who don’t know what the expression freak offs is it is a term used when two males, females, other or different sexes do freakish things to each other to compete for money or affection from the power or breadwinner. Puff’s freak-offs are apparently forced and you are made to do it in the hope he would sign you or the fact he could ruin you as you now hold the secret of the powerful so-called straight man. 

The infamous Fabulous interview where Puff is sat down with several male Hip Hop artists including Fabulous and Puff is looking drunk and thirsty for a bit of hanky panky at times lusting for fabulous a rapper from the 2000s and tempting him to come to one of his parties by inviting him which Fabulous looked kind of nervous and responds no thanks I don’t party or something like that. At the time watching it as I also watched that interview when it was published it did make me wonder one why did fabulous looked so spooked and two what goes on in those parties. Other allegations which are more what I now call foundation is sex trafficking, drugging and use of drugs, rape, mental and physical abuse, exploitation, and unfair deals but he later gave back the publishing rights back to some of the owners of the songs and the ones who wrote and performed them. 

Also, Cassie the R’n’B singer from the 2000s who was also signed to Bad Boy filed a civil case and later settled for $30 million out of court after she came out with claims of rape, mental and physical abuse by Puff and also being trafficked and sleeping with male prostitutes against her will and those sexy times being filmed and sent to people in Hollywood and the music industry. Those allegations were sort of backed up by some but for me for being an abusive person when that now infamous recording of what it appears to be Cassie escaping Puff and Puff running down the corridor after Cassie and kicking her ordering her to get back into the room. Puff was taking a shower at the time so he was dressed in only a towel and his flip flops and Cassie looked scared and was on the floor and visibly shaken like the audience after watching it and could be quite triggering for those who have been in a one-sided abusive relationship. Puff quickly messaged the world and later did an apology video saying how disgusted he was and how he was working on his demons and also how he hated himself watching back the video of the Cassie elevator incident. But this wasn’t enough for most and they called for Puff to be arrested like a normal person would and to push back on male-to-female violence and he was also cancelled for good with people saying this was the end of Puff and pointing fingers at people like Beyonce and Jay Z taunting them by saying you are next which later got captured by the same title and calling Beyonce and Jay Z demonic and predators and Opera Winfrey too. Since the Michael Jackson court case and the Me Too movement the movement that happened in the 2010s and was about sharing stories of being raped and fighting your aggressor and your own demons since the event. There have been a lot of people who I believe were brought down due to the knock from the knock-on effect of the Me Too movement such as

Jeffrey Epstein a wealthy billionaire who hanged himself in Prison and while waiting for the court case and his girlfriend and sex offender assistant Ghislaine Maxwell, 

Bill Cosby the actor and comedian,

 R Kelly the R’n’B singer of the 90s, 

 

Harvey Weinstein the film director 

Dahvie Vanity with his band Blood On The Dancefloor which is the same title’s of Michael Jacksons later album may I add. This is the debate Jeffery Star who is also tied to Dahvie as they were both from the My Space era and they both toured together whilst the allegations were being made but Jeffery swears he’s never seen anything and flip-flopped on the whole thing in one instance saying how nasty he was and a month or two later or somewhere down the line after calling him a brother and how lovely he was also later going back on tour with after calling him nasty and a sexual predator and even worse a child sex offender but he’s done that more than once but more on that in a bit. And now we have Puff to add to that list as he is currently in jail awaiting trial for sex trafficking but all the other stuff I mentioned too. With the fast pace of the internet and the now desire to speak your mind about issues, you have about yourself or with other people such as being raped or being fairly mistreated and be heard by people not just some crazy talk you had on a chat room back in the day where you accidentally spill tea and go even more crazier by not stopping and confessing even more tea but no one takes you that serious. Also, the a demand for truth seekers who are kind are expected to give their view on pressing issues nowadays or they will be known as complacent one and part of the problem also people not using their platforms to do so like talk about things like racism and unfair treatment and also people just want to know your opinion and points of view are you righty are you a lefty are you bias or non-bias so many questions, not enough time. It goes back to the Aaliyah and Beyonce thing but so many others too it’s all about relatability as you flock with those who think like you and are relatable and like some shun the ones who don’t or at least pay them no mind. I wouldn’t call Puff relatable as he was flashy all about the sex thirst and being rich and successful flaunting wealth and promoting prettiness all the things I hate but he had likeability which is another factor you have to have if ever became famous. This is the exception of his reality TV show I Want To Work For Diddy a reality show in the 2000s where contestants could win an intern deal with Diddy and work for him. That really put me off him and showed his egoistic and exploitation side and was not something I never bought into when I signed up and the thing I have an issue with and is being brought up is the unfair use of wealth and mostly power. If true it seems Puff gets a kick out of making people powerless and dangles his wealth and power over innocent straight males and females to get some sort of gratification from it and is his cocaine which funny enough reminds me of some of the coke heads and I’m not suggesting he’s a coke head but is the same power struggle and kick they get from making someone weak and holding power over them. I’m not mad at Puff I’m disappointed ha the good old I’m not mad I’m disappointed a bit motherly but okay. I think he needs help for his sex addiction and being controlling and holding power over people other than being held accountable in the courtroom as everyone should have their time in court if strong allegations are made and you are arrested and taken to court I’m always listening to the max in that way but I do listen to all the stories even though it’s hard to figure out the truth seekers from the clout chasers and the ones with good intent like lying to get other people the real truth seekers to speak out and end this whole gossip mill. Also so people get heard as their friends who like the others sit in silence because they would get shouted down, laughed and mocked or no one will believe them saying nasty things like you probably gave the wrong signals or they enjoyed it and they were only looking for a quick pay cheque or how lucky they were and they wished it was them. Also, some people feel some type of way about you when you have been raped judging by some people I met in my personal life and what they say and this sadly includes friends and family too. So holding people accountable and like Puff and the others I mentioned that are now convicted sex offenders and predators but not for Puff’s case not for now as he hasn’t had his court case but for the others, it was a good thing and they deserved what was being served to them as at the end of the day rape and misuse of power but especially rape and sexual misconduct ruins lives. The predator can always live another day with no worry of being called out or any worries whilst the one who went through it has to live day by day with suicidal thoughts and doing things like attempting suicide, self-harming, irrational behaviour, mistrust and alcohol and substance abuse in a mechanism of copying and going through the pain. Waking up each day and going through the ordeal and feeling dirty used and disposable and betrayed as this is the person you trusted and looked up to and they slip you the wrong drink and your ashes on the floor or so you feel like. Some of them get a kick from this and is their downfall in the same breathe as somewhere down the line you will get angry by realizing that person was holding the rape over your head and the feeling of not being alone even if some of them swear but more hope they were the only one but something tells them they ain’t alone and they must speak the truth even though that means fighting alone and even though you will eventually meet your crowd of people you hoped didn’t exist IE other victims who had the same fate by that person and like them. I think it should also be done as it stops people from running into the traps and keeps the public informed of stuff happening our eyes will never see to make better decisions of who we accept and don’t accept and who we spend money and time on. So cancel culture as controversial thing as it is and where we all now can cancel someone’s work and is something that is necessary at times to stop the bad that happens or at least slow it down to minimal speed making it harder to repeat history and to make environments including our own more cleaner and transparent so the next person doesn’t have to deal with the downfalls and the hardships you would face when dealing with Hollywood, the music industry and of course mainstream media. Not to mention it’s a good thing as the money I spent could be going to or you are supporting the lifestyle of a sex offender and someone who doesn’t care for the lives of others which is basically your own co-sign with the devil. 

I will use the chocolate brand Cadburys to explain further. Before their clean up and that includes other well-known brands like Nescafe, Primark and the meat industry with how meat is reared in poor conditions and without any medical treatment and other issues like boxed calves, imprisoned sows and mistreatment of animals by fast food companies like KFC but so many other companies from all the range with different or the same issues all to widen their margins and compete with other companies who do or is similar to them. But before the media clean up and their efforts to become more informed and better companies and brands and before and during the rise of the internet it was sometimes made known by mostly insightful undercover documentaries which was an undercover agent reporter who would get a job at a bad company or brand and film evidence to show the general public of all the at times horrific things they were doing leaving it up to us to decide what action was to be taken as it wasn’t just made to say look at this ain’t it terrible at a guess and was something you take some sort of action against like what they were asking for demanding change, doing better and keeping us all informed instead of hiding it and it becoming the dirty secret that could ruin your brand or company when it came out. By accepting the problems from these greedy companies and other fields and behaviour spectrums you are being part of the problem and throwing your money at the devil or as I said doing a co-signing or a contract with the devil and you are throwing your soul away if you do so in my opinion. Again being informed about unethical practices and misuse of power from well-known brands and companies and the fact they can be cancelled and boycotted cos boycotting comes with the cancellation if you want to get your toes fully wet. But the fact they can be cancelled and boycotted is power to the people and is something that is very important in the climate of today. People don’t want to eat, wear or buy into something that was made from mistreatment humans and animals respectable though animals get the worse wrap out of the two, and also it must be cleanly made not something that was made and polluting the earth which is something companies are only starting to acknowledge and work on which does get a shout if they are doing all the good things they say they do say on the label print of your favourite brand or company. The other thing people expect when buying into a company or brand is and is nothing new but we expect quality and good for your money. Okay with the prices of high-end products, it’s not always easy to give the customer value so maybe not the second thing is quantity as my friend would say it’s quality over quantity and with these high-end brands it is just that. But charging ridiculous prices for stuff you could get up to 60% sometimes 90% cheaper that works and is more affordable come to find out what you paid for was a dud and you are not happy with the product no matter how much you pretend and justify it by saying things like maybe it’s just this one or maybe I got it wrong with getting it to work properly you still ain’t happy and felt let down and once again betrayed or at best confused as that’s not what was sold to me or I was told or even read about as some people pay other people to post fake reviews or positive posts around the social media and \the internet which is why I always use Trust Pilot for legit reviews on products I’m buying to make sure I know what I’m buying into and this wasn’t always how I was but I learned from my mistakes. 

Mr Beast is the most successful YouTuber to date and specializes in fast-paced quote unquote action-packed short videos where you would have several people who would compete for a life-changing amount of money or in some videos give away money and luxury items to random strangers in all cases people who were poor and couldn’t afford or wished they had that type of money. The most shocking videos were the Making 100 Blind People See For The First Time video and his follow-up video Making 100 Deaf People Hear For The First Time which I thought seeing on my timeline was just outrageous. Okay, it was good that someone was paying for their surgery and they get to hear or see for the first time or in years and decades and was something they always dreamt of but could never afford it. It’s the god-like persona and throwing water in the other people’s faces who never got the chance to win that raffle to get their eyes or ears worked over. Also, the expression coined by a disabled person it was something like disability porn which means media using disabled people as props to make the non-disability people feel better about themselves and think I’m not that bad it could be worse quote unquote and in most cases those people are used and slowly or rapidly flushed out the conversation when they are done using that person or people. Do I think Mr Beast cares and was using disabled people as disability porn no I don’t but I know he cares about ratings and is smart when it comes to trends on YouTube and what makes a great video, thumbnail and gaining a worldwide audience it’s transactionally without a doubt but I do believe he does it with good intent and is generally a nice person and nothing yet has alerted me about him like toxic behaviour apart from the office banter and that can always get offensive so mwah. He was recently put under the microscope and was cancelled losing views and probably money due to the two things I will briefly explain. As I said his videos are fast-paced and have a big budget and kind of populated the market on YouTube for high-end good high-quality videos and it is noted the style he was doing and created was recreated by some after seeing the amount of views he had and just for reference his best videos is Squid Game In Real Life with a whopping 541 million views earning. $456,000 in revenue off YouTube making him one of the most successful YouTubers and one of the most watched YouTubers of the time. But with all those views and money came the scrutiny like where was this money coming from like $500.000, the money for the Ferrari car classic red style that you might have seen one in real life or at the best and you were born before the the late 90s seen on Gran Turismo game on PlayStation one or two I can’t remember now not important though. Well apparently the money wasn’t just coming from the revenues of videos or even his failed ventures but more on that in a minute. The money was also coming from illegal gambling and his shady business practises where he would invest in a company early on and sell dreams to passers-by with money and are looking to invest, he would promise things like high returns IE a nice sum of money at the end of it if you invest x amount for x amount of years. Only to do dirty and an expression used in business I’ve heard before they would pull the rug meaning cash in their investments without sharing any profits or money made and leave the other investors in limbo and with no money or returns as promised to keep every last penny or dollar the other investors invested in and they know what they are doing and do it with ease and from the jump saying things like you’re going be rich and a toast to the winner or something like that. It’s basically a pyramid scheme where the rich gets richer whilst the unknown and the poorest or less wealthy and powerful get duped and ripped off but at the time of the so-called deal are made to feel they are losing out if they don’t act now, sound familiar to you. As for the illegal gambling there is one video where he is on an illegal website and in the reflection of the big panel windows and the big monitor they had the logo of the illegal gambling site and was heavily visible and he is seen leaning over in this Yatzies style fashion if that makes sense like he was rolling dice or something. Now I don’t know my Adam from my Eve when it comes to illegal gambling sites or recognizing logos so if that was a gambling website logo is not even questionable to be honest as I believe it was why wouldn’t it be and like they lie about something that is easy to verify. Do I think he is involved in illegal gambling and pyramids schemes well there is no saying and at this point can’t be proved by me so I won’t say and that’s not to disclaim others or back him up as I will say due to the cost of his videos him and his team makes it wouldn’t surprise me and by the way he claims all the money made goes back into his YouTube videos and helps pay for all the things people were speculating on like where was all this money was coming from and how he managed to make so much money in so little time if that was true and he was self-funding these videos and done it without things like sponsorship and revenue from YouTube. The other factor that was talked about and is the other reason why he has fallen out of popularity was his choices in business practices though he fired back at the ones who manage his business by suing them and claiming it had nothing to do with him or the brands he made. His first venture was his burgers which you couldn’t nip down to the local to get that burger you’ve been craving you had to order it and get it from a kitchen that made them as basically there wasn’t any restaurant either not even one like you would see at your favourite and non-favourite fast food chains. But never the fewer burger fans and fans rushed to their phones and ordered a burger with the curiosity of what it was going to taste like and due to the fact things like heavy logo images placed in his videos and the promotion it got in those videos where in one video Mr Beasts states you haven’t tasted a burger till you tasted the Mr Beast burger basically hyping it up and once again selling people lies and getting other people well known YouTubers and Z list celebrities who probably took the Mr Beast challenge and earnt themselves some side money and gave good feedback by saying things like best burger with some making over the top delicious sounds like they were over enjoying it or they were starved for days by Mr Beast and that was the first meal they had since they last ate that was sarcasm or was it? Judging by the reviews people were given after tasting the Mr Beast burger it left them underwhelmed and surprise, surprise disappointed. People were quick to buy the burger and record themselves on video unboxing and eating it giving first impressions and taste and quality-like reviews. People called out the quality of the burgers stating it wasn’t even real patty a substitute for real meat or real beef and is still an acceptable form of meat for most cooks and chefs. They also said how it wasn’t even seasoned and in my opinion and judging by my own eyes it looked like a no-frills burger you would find in the more cheaper shops where it is well known you might not be buying say real meat or 100% meat and is mixed with pork and in some cases horse or some sort of alternative mixed mixture and could have parts of nasty bits in you just wouldn’t eat if there were separate or known which it used to be unknown but again with the rise of the internet it has become more transparent and food chains get called out and boycotted when found out and they get a bad reputation and that is bad in a business stance just to point out the obvious. After the burger venture, he later went on to have two other failed businesses his what we would call here in the UK the Dairylea Lunchers and his toys venture. The Dairylea knockoff which was actually set up to be another company’s rival who had the same kind of foods inside and must be overseas snacks as I have never heard of the rival company. The snacks were once again pumped up and made to be the next best thing by making stats compassions from nutrition value to source of meat and its value to the taste test and even as far as saying it’s more healthier than the rival brand and once again getting well known YouTubers to taste the product and give feedback other than joining in with the debrand of the other brand like saying how much better and healthier their product was. People took issue with this as his audience is young and impressionable and would buy into most things as that’s their favourite says the YouTuber in this case he’s trustworthy and in fact getting a young person to determine a trustworthy person from a non-trustworthy person most would find it hard and is the only experience that stops the young and older people from making the same mistakes but happens all in your younger days of life for most. Mr Beast’s toy collection is the classic example of selling and targeting younger audience who are impressionable and still lacking knowledge of how the earth is ran which in a nut shell after your wallet and commitment to brands and companies and getting them rich while we just float along which isn’t the case for all brands, companies and even media but everything or most things is like a strip club no money no lap dance or pole action which I do believe in paying for some services since they shouldn’t have the brunt of paying out for people’s needs and pleasures not if they are paying for them but there are a lot of free and open source software that is similar but most of them you don’t the premier options but apart from that they are great open source software which means it’s free and free to anyone who with like most of the software is using it for non commercial use Gimp the alternative to Photoshop is a free open source software that comes to mind and is something I personally use for all my virtually art and other things like making games and making cover art for my music if I’m not just whacking a title and my artist name over the photo I found online, and use it quite frequently. 

The other person who was heavily discussed and got cancelled and the last person on the list before I wrap it up is James Charles. For those who don’t know who he is, he’s another successful makeup guru on YouTube but not as successful as his rival Jeffery Star but never the less he too had a following and sold out makeup pallets and like most of his other rivals blasted on your computer monitors in the late 2010s and came after Jeffery Star with his makeup brand and and the Jeffery Cosmetics branch. He was and continues to fall into hot water after a video was made about him accusing James of inappropriate texts to underage straight boys and a waiter made another video where he claims James badgered him into getting off with him and potentially sleeping with him even though he stated he was underage and not comfortable with the idea and felt pressured into doing something so he made out with James. This was sort of backed up by a resurfaced YouTube video where he openly admits to liking underaged boys and then his own words stated how he likes straight men he could basically turn out and he seemed turned on and sexually aggressive of the fact he could do this watching the video and is another too much power for those little hands scenario and another classic example of abuse of power. He did make that one apology video like all the others before getting taken down in the hope it would all blow over and be forgotten about but there are always people who don’t forgive or forget and look for copies of the video to repost or they are doing it for views and likes but is a necessary thing I think on the internet as nothing should be just deleted or hide evidence or in this case hiding the lie of the apology. Holding yourself accountable means admitting you have a problem and taking a sort of call to action which means seeking some sort of help for the vice that holds you so well not making a quick and easy apology where you address the issues shift blame or even apologise for your actions like Jeffery Star James Charles only to do it again it’s like they don’t care and think they are untouchable and also unstoppable when that is not the case and is something that is being asked by many YouTube outlets and people when will they just fly away or actually be cancelled but for good and question the remaining fans and customers on what their values actually are from what I gather. The other factor for the downfall and cancellation of James Charles was the whole Sugar Bear Gate which is what I called it and for those who don’t know what that was or how it happened, I briefly explain. James Charles started the drama when he posted a swipe-up ad which is meant to be an engaging way for buyers to interact with the post and discover new and exciting products that were or are being launched. He promoted the Sugar Bear Hair brand line at the music festival popular to influencers called Coachchella a festival held in the desert and going by what was said about the events it attracts influencers and celebrities but mostly influencers and is filled with people taking meaningless photos and videos on their phones around gorgeous settings and backdrops rather than enjoying the music or scene and maybe I don’t know dance. And not just cos you are going get a good photo or segment for a later-on video you put together to show off your experience and is also noted is where the influencer’s brand owners go to and where you may be sponsored if you have been called and at worse get merch which consists of high-end fashion brands, makeup, accessories and other expensive gifts which you pay for at more affordable prices even though sometimes or all the time is always expensive price tags but you are getting a discount and don’t pay retail prices from fashion huts as it’s been explained to me by YouTube videos. Now if you are not in the loop and you may be thinking what does promoting a swipe-up ad about a product called Sugar Bear be so dramatic it’s a product for your hair.

You see there is another well-known YouTube beauty guru. Like the other makeup gurus, a professional makeup artist called Tati Westbrook who had her own line of beauty, hair and skin lines which she was launching called Halo Beauty and was in direct competition with James Charles’s line Sugar Bear Hair. According to Tati herself she felt hurt and betrayed by James for swiping her IE being all friendly and doing countless videos together where he calls her mum and how she taught him the game of the makeup industry allowing him to launch his own products only for James to steal the competition and cut Tati short in financial and also in her own personally life and way. Tati claims she reached out to James but got a cold and stiff reply after a while of waiting and wanted to brush it off as some sort of silly mistake but the messages she got back from Charles only backed up her thoughts. This caused Tati to lash out and make the infamous Bye Sister video as something to explain quickly James calls his fans sisters and in the Bye Sister video Tati explicitly calls out James for the sugar bear incident, explains the backdrop of the matter and her own side of the story whilst dragging other famous TikTok and YouTubers in the conversation and explicitly made strong allegations that James was a sexual predator, preyed on what appears to be underaged vulnerable young men and boys and several other things like being a bad friend and not being a real sister to being narcissistic and toxic and also she heard him speak badly about yet another YouTube beauty guru and makeup artists

Jaqueline Hill when she was nothing but nice him and aided him to his once success at the time. It became an ever-growing back-and-forth tale tell well she said I looked fat in pink, well he said I hated the colour green kind of thing. This is by the way I think is the reason why James got cancelled and the people who came forward with their own allegations against Charles backed up what Tati was saying in the Bye Sister video she recorded and put out on her YouTube channel. Que Jeffery Star again as he after watching the Bye Sister video he had a lot to say about the situation siding with Tati and calling out James and saying nasty and sly comments about him adding more fuel to the fire. Like true YouTube fashion they all later go on to deny they said all those allegations they said about each other and they all admitted of having flaws in their relationship but was something they would like just to move on from as one said it the other joined the skipping and repeated what the original person said which does make sense but what about the victims they won’t go away as easy and people would want to forever know what really happened and if it was all true. It’s also noted that after things died down and people were left to speculate people and began to push blame and speculate on Jeffery Star’s involvement of the Bye Sister video Tati made and then and afterwards since he was dominating the world with his pallets like the Jeffery Star and Shane Dawson Conspiracy Pallet and another sale out cosmetics and both were competitors of Jeffery so it makes sense that he would knock them out the park so he could be at the full front of the cosmetic world of YouTube especially, but also the whole wide world getting him more shop stores and revenue and stopping both James and Tati from getting at his market as that’s a daunting and worrying factor that could happen and as we saw in Sugar Bear gate it has happened as like any chain or most business it’s a cut throat industry and only the most cut throat will go home with that bag IE money but that’s not always the case. I used James Charles, Tati Brooks, Jeffery Star and Sugar Bear Gate as examples as I think it’s classic examples of if true and in James Charles’s case misuse of power and wealth, in Tati’s case the misuse of her platform and utilizing people with ammunition in order to fire at James without evidence or presenting evidence and did it out of spite and angrier or though I do see where she is coming from and was sort of or shadier coming from James’s part I personally would rather of done a collab and split the profits myself. And finally If true Jeffery is guilty of adding fuel to the fire and masterminding a plot to bring down his rival brands and using the innocent like Tati to fight the battle and crush the grape so to speak by spreading misinformation to the YouTube outlets and letting them report on the misinformation Jeffery pays for them to spread and talk about it which in most cases the real hidden issue is unknown to them and they think they are running with real tea IE gossip or information they believe in and are against and they know needs to be talked about so basically most are duped into feeding into the narrative presented until they start to investigate and come to find out it was all lies and they were used or stories don’t just match up and the consistency of the topic shows heavy cracks on the surface.

 

MY FINAL THOUGHTS

First of all, if you made it all the way to the end congratulations and thanks so much for reading this now extensive coverage of just some of the pressing issues being discussed and have been discussed on YouTube especially but is over all the social media platforms as a whole. I really didn’t plan on making it this long and had a lot of explaining to do for those who don’t tune into the gossip and celebrity news channels and for those who are not on YouTube and frequent users to know who those people are or you might just have a different feed than most users of the social media platform. I must admit I didn’t have a clue who Jeffery Star was or at least I rediscovered him after clicking on one of his Makeup tutorial videos on YouTube which was in my feed after being intrigued did I got inundated with his content and the infamous videos I discussed like the Bye Sister video and also coverage from YouTube gossip and drama channels started to flood my feed around the same time I first clicked on one of his videos. I don’t even like makeup but I must admit I was drawn by the personality and all the makeup scandalous that followed and was publicly made by those outlets. I’m not saying we are all perfect and I’m not even saying I’m perfect or e should have perfect pitch all the time but making people accountable for their actions they don’t make amends to or even acknowledge the problem or problems is something I think should be held accountable for no matter who you are and despite the controversial rise of the downfall and the ever-growing list of cancelled people we must all do our bit but keep in my mind this is a great responsibility and is something that shouldn’t be done as I said before and a few times in this post be done willy nilly and with no actual good enough reasons or most important evidence and we should make decisions after hearing other sides of the story, other people’s testaments and hard evidence but saying all that keep an open view of the situations and take people seriously if they do come forward with strong allegations about that person by not  making excuses for them and hold them accountable for all the crimes they committed no matter how much you like and respect or admire that person. It’s easy to shut your eyes and count to ten and the problem vanishes in mid-air and by not shutting your eyes and counting to ten you are helping the world and at times vulnerable people or people who are stuck in bad situations and it becomes harder than ever to put up with such things like being a sexual predator, being toxic and even just bad people in generally and we must push back from all of this as it’s making the world more stupid, carefree, soulless and more narcissistic with bad behaviour being reward whilst good behaviour is being shunned and ridiculed as everyone loves a real bad bitch or boy even though that’s not part of the keeping it real package some people may think it is. Also being just like them doesn’t mean you are exempt from reprisal or that you are safe and those same people don’t show you or talk about the demons they have and most importantly struggle with and when some of them do it is glorified and all about selling that image of being that bitch or boy in most cases which is not having a mental illness is about but that’s one instance. Cancel culture as I said before but to put it more bluntly and to wrap up this blog post is the key to unlocking the sanctuary for both us and other people who are like and not like us and I think is the key we are looking for to push back on on people who abuse power, unacceptably toxic or other things. When used right it can bring people justice and hope for a better day and future and ends their pain and misery or at least stop the pain from rising to the top as they have been heard and people responded which should make them a bit more happy as people are fighting your corner and most importantly believe you even though you thought or were told that no one would and you were alone which can’t be a good feeling. Those who lie and do it for clout something I never covered in this post but is another problem when facing being on the internet but they should be sued like Tasha K and held accountable by the public and come down more heavily on them instead of allowing people to make up lies that pull on your heartstrings and feed into the more vulnerable side you have which is thirsty for insightful information and backstage passes of the behind the scenes to get a glimpse of what really goes on in Hollywood, the music industry and social media outlets like YouTube where everything is fabricated and concealed to hide things and to stop you from finding out the truth and further down the line to prevent you from stop spending money on the person, company or brand.  so it’s all bout the money surprise surprise. Before I go I would like to thank YouTube channels Spill Sesh, LovelyT,  The Empressive Channel, Tee Noir, Tea Spill and Cruel World Happy Mind for their insightful videos and for bringing troubling issues to my attention minus all the makeup scandalous but was still insightful and enjoyable to watch. I did this mostly all from the memory of what I have watched in the past and without those videos I watched I wouldn’t be able to make this blog post or even question my own alliance with black people and black culture or my own alliance with the ones I hold dear AKA the celebrity or in more my case rappers, singers and musicians of the music industry from the older to the newer generations. All the channels mentioned get a thumbs up as they are none biased channels and are points of view they didn’t shy away from which is always nice to hear someone was covering things others were too scared to do even though they are later copied by a copy cat for views and to emulate their success but once again thank you and well done for being that Louis Lane beeatch lol.

Beyonce Act II Country Music And The Hypocrisy Of Black Music Standards

March 30, 2024

INTRO

If you are not aware of it Beyonce has new album out a country album to follow along Renaissance her club and Afro Beats infused album that ran along side her tour also called Renaissance. Wow she’s doing good a successful tour and album with this one following on Act II a Country album which as I will explain is going to break barriers and change the hypocrisy of what people would call black music or associate with black music. I’m actually listening to the album right now for the first time so I will give my review of the album at the end it has 24 tracks on so it’s quite a long one but some of them are short songs. So far the first track is very Shania Twain and the second track is very traditional reminds me a 60s songs I’ve heard it before by a different artist. I must admit I love the fact she’s done it in different act something I would like to do say three different genres but call them chapters or something but linked somehow altogether. Now I think about it the horse on the first album goes well with this album Act II which has a very patriotic western theme  and also has a horse on the album cover. I think it was in all a clever thing to do and makes music interesting again and also dare I say inspiring yeah inspiring. The internet was buzzing with this album with various of funny memes and statements all for the album and some said they put down the Renaissance album and play the crap out of her new album which came out last night 12.00 AM 29/03/2024,  whilst some asked for Act III to come out so they can rotate all three albums. Hang on don’t be a bitch come take it to the floor now HEY lol! I’m on Texas Hold Em I like this one reminiscent of country the melody is catchy. So far I’m getting country music from throughout the decades this one Bodyguard very flowers in her hair style it feels 90s or something you would hear at a festival or light gig it’s very radio friendly too, so far no skips.  Well I was expecting Dolly Parton to be on the album but not as a intro lol that hozzy what a skank we would say. Now I would like to watch Dolly and Beyonce on stage singing Jolene that’s the next track after the Dolly intro. Oh I love it the bleedy sheets on dirty floor or whatever she said very country and upbeat for the next track Daughter, I really like the lyrics for this one called Daughter and the melody. Oooh no sause for Spaghetti the next track a bit of Hip Hop, oh okay like the other album a change up to country music near the end keep it country lol, still no skips Alligator just finished. Well I just finished listening to the album and yeah no skips and a good country album with one or two southern Hip Hop I’m guessing. But I enjoyed the album something I would actually play again if I was in the mood. Will she get her Grammy for this or are they going to say there wasn’t enough traditional pieces in we were find out but check it out if you haven’t already it’s worth a play I would say and not something I would usually go for.  

THE ORIGINS OF COUNTRY MUSIC

The Banjo a well known southern instrument was in fact a instrument made from Western Africans who crossed the Transatlantic in the slave trade and the instrument was made out of gourds, called the Akonting. For Four hundred years the enslaved made their own music including hymns, spirituals, and field song, all with roots in African music. It is said that playing the Banjo in the 1840s was exclusively a Black instrument and was unheard of for a white person to play the banjo. The instrument has had a controversial rise to music fame as in the  In the 1850s, minstrel shows became grossly popular and depicted enslaved Africans as slow, lazy and as cannibals, also it was depicted with Banjos which in affect popularised the Banjo within the white communities inventing the genre Hillbilly music around in the 1920s. Hillbilly music later changed to Country music, first artist drew inspiration from from slave spirituals, field songs, hymns, and the blues, which itself has black origins. Despite America in the 1920s and 1930s being  segregated Hillbilly and black artists would collaborate on songs which became popular and nearly 50 black artists would appear on successful songs with white artists because the music was seen as a black genre but changed hands with white people back and fourth. It was in fact after World War I after 1918 when Hillbilly music got changed to Country music after a big push from the record companies who wanted to start selling Country music but couldn’t due to the race of those artists. The black artists who were signed to a record company in the 1920s was underpaid and didn’t get any recognition. There music was sold on to white artists who were the stand ins and made Country music a white genre with the help of the record companies whose audience favoured middle white America looking people. DeFord Bailey was the one of the first Black musicians to gain recognition and was the first to play the Grand Ole Opry—a big deal for country musicians. His harmonica playing style greatly influenced the country musicians that followed him. Succeeding Bailey was  Charley Pride. As mentioned before, Pride was the first black artist to be inducted into the Country Music Hall of Fame and is often referred to as “country music’s first Black superstar.” He served as an inspiration for countless Black musicians. In their tow, Ray Charles was responsible for blending country with R&B and pop music in a way that would forever change the genre. His music also helped fuel the civil rights movement. Bailey, Pride, and Charles are three of the most recognizable Black names in country music, but there are many lesser known names that have also been critical in forming the genre. Gus Cannon was a Black musician who helped popularize jug bands (a precursor to country) in the 1920s and ended up teaching Johnny Cash, a world renowned white country singer. In addition, the guitar fingerpicking style that is largely used in country music today was developed by Black guitarist Leslie Riddle. Still to this day black artists still struggle to get the recognition and acknowledgement they deserve for their work in 2019 rapper Lil Nas’s Rap and Country song Old Town Road was removed from the Country Billboards Charts when Rolling Stone told Billboard, “it does not embrace enough elements of today’s country music to chart in its current version. Also some Country fans accused Lil Nas of cultural appropriation for wearing a cowboy hat but you can’t even wear a pouch without being called Skippy the wannabe kangaroo in my opinion. Beyonce also got in some heat when she released, “Daddy’s Lessons,” in 2016, she faced heavy backlash from the industry despite the fact that the hit single includes all the elements of traditional country music. Even when Beyonce performed “Daddy’s Lessons” at the 2016 Country Music Awards with The Chicks, country fans were enraged and some heckled her one woman said “get that black bitch off the stage.” She additionally submitted the record for a Grammy but was denied. Linda Martell was the first black woman to break into the Country industry and gain success with her 1970s album Colour Me Country it’s hard for black woman to break into the industry and even though there has been a rise in black female country singers in more recent years they are still faced with the same issues.

THE REVOLUATION OF BLACK COUNTRY MUSIC

I really do think it’s revelational as music should be as not only is she opening doors for other Country black artists but she is also reclaiming the lost history and the origins of Country music. There’s a stigma of what people expect of you being black or biracial which is all the urban genres like Hip Hop and Trap here in the UK UK Garage and UK Funky and House which I do actually make but I also like my synthesizers. I’m obsessed with them actually so I make Vapourwave, a bit of Progressive Rock, Synthwave and general synthy vibes which some people would class as white genres but I always said it doesn’t have a colour, I think no genre is White, Black, Asian or other apart from the tribal and traditional stuff from around the world. The boundaries of what people find is black or white is a recurring thing that happens and something I face a little bit in my own life and I think Beyonce’s album Act II is going to break boundaries and the hypocrisy between the races whilst defining the genre in the new form which incorporates other genres such as Hip Hop and other urban genres if it is acknowledge that is. As I said before it would open doors for other black artists who may of come before her and been doing this despite all the backlash and hate that they might get due to it being a white dominated genre. It’s kind of shallow to think that a person doesn’t like anything but Hip Hop and urban genres that’s like saying all Mexican’s drink Tequila and especially when they have strong roots in the genre and was pushed out due to race or race and or being a black woman. I think there is some sort of hypocrisy of what the races identify as being white or black and that is heavily linked in music and the fact the white race are being pushed more then the black race which makes it seem like the white race invented all these genres when really it was passionate black musicians that paved the way for the genre to grow into a mainstream staple diet. There is no denying that things such as colourism and sex has major parts in making it in the music industry and I’m guessing they start where they finish the big wigs I mean who push for what they call desirable and fashion too. Black people are undermined and underpaid and arts are quickly taken away from them and used, as in a video I watched on YouTube as toys just something to play around with and to suit the mainstream audience they are trying to extract money from. I’m sorry to say but most even all of the old white but black singing artists are replacements for the undesirable or what they call undesirable which is black, big nose, big ears and non straight hair again also a thing in fashion and Hollywood. And as we know the south of America and America as a whole can be pretty racists and some do not welcome African and West Indies American descendants into their life or anyone who is not white American. I saw this one example on Facebook this girl took a black boy or young man to the Prom and the mother was f’ing and blinding saying she’s cutting her allowance and even her life insurance she really stomped on her. I was like dang she really doesn’t like black people and she’s going to need that in case she got shot that’s a joke but I think that is the nasty way society is xenophobic and scared of the unknown so they cast it out. I feel there needs to be a lot done when it comes to changing the perception of what music is and the roots of each genre not to mock anyone who came before and paved the way. There is still like ugh you like rock you’re white or any other white based genre. Only once have I experienced slight undertones of racism it was on Tumblr when I used to make a lot of Progressive Rock tracks or call them that even some of them weren’t but anyway he wrote “sorry you ain’t got the long silky hair” and other comments that I thankfully forgot. He was referencing that most of the Progressive Rock bands had long silky straight hair and I was never too be marketed as Progressive Rock as I have a afro, that was it one message read “stick to what you know” as to say this is not the allocated genre for me. It’s funny cos some people actually expect you to stick with the allocated genres like Hip Hop and make a bigger deal if you are of colour even though they are just getting on with it and not trying to be ground-breaking or life changing you actually like that genre and been listening for all your life and was brought up with it. It’s not a well known fact and I don’t really put it as one of genres I like but I like Country. I like Johnny Cash, Dolly Patron, Hank Williams and Pasty Cline or though Pasty Cline’s music reminds me of sitting by the bar drinking myself to oblivion cos my girlfriend cheated on me that’s the feeling I get from her music. But I like country more so when Grand Theft Auto San Andres came out it was one of my favourite but secret favourite stations. Okay it’s not my favourite genre but I enjoy it and actually reminds me of being in a bar or Karaoke night when Johnny Cash the second or Dolly Parton the second takes the stage. Not only that Country is seen as naff or Hillbilly it’s not cool for a young person to listen to Country in the eyes of the young but Beyonce will change that and make it more fashionable. Not only that she’s doing the music industry a big favour by making a Country album as there has been a resurged of Country music in the last couple of years so it works in their favour and music is more inspiring as I said I feel inspired by her two latest albums even though I would never make Country I haven’t got the tools for one or knowledge for two. I like the fact that other black artist incorporate country with other genres like Hip Hop and people who work for Billboards need to start welcoming country infused with other genres for the sake of Country they can always push out the traditional artists too. Hip Hop got turned into Trap which is a Southern America genre but the UK has it’s own spin too, so why not welcome the new styles of Country and allow black artist to shine and make changes instead of being part of the problem. It’s all down to the outside world perception and what they would call black or urban or white if there wasn’t such undertones of racism there would be more balance within the genres and more freedom to express the genres you like without the fear of being laughed at or being laughed at and also make the music you exactly like instead of spitting unmeaningful lyrics or being a stereotype you know you’re not all to fit into your culture. Though this isn’t one sided and comes from all the races and sides which is all tribalism based stuff and a interesting topic to talk about. The basis of real tribalism is working together as a team and putting any race issues aside the old your English I’m English that is one angle. But the Western tribalism is all clicky and you all must look the same to fit into the gang or tribe which translate into music so horribly well. That’s why it’s so important for people like Beyonce to smash a few doors down someone well known and has done the rounds and also respected. Just how many boy bands come after Take That or N’Sync how many Janet and Michael Jackson’s were there. They made music or was in a group that inspired so many people and Beyonce is one of those people and has inspired so many artists out now but granted she has her haters too but who doesn’t. I only said that as I think it would inspire black artist to do a country album or put elements in their songs who wasn’t even diehard country music fans to begin with. Not to mention as I said before it will aid other artists who make Country and put them on the map too and to also tell them to keep following their dreams even though the odds may be against them but now it works more in their favour. Popular music you hear say on the radio, on YouTube Music, Spotify etc etc it’s all been demographically done and should appeal to the massive not just a group of people or though it is marketed at them but it’s marketed for everyone at the same time. That’s why there is no colour when it comes to music genres and the way we consume it or even sex or though artists like the City Girls are pushed for the girls with all those hypersexual lyrics and money money money lines but it can appeal to anyone I liked Twerkalator I would of listened to that more if it was pushed but guess they have gone now. 

My Seven Mental Health Songs

May 10, 2022

MY MENTAL HEALTH JOURNEY

This week is Mental Health Awareness Week here in the UK so I thought I’d do something around mental health and something with music. But before I do that I’d like to talk a little bit about my journey with mental health and where I feel I am today. My experience with hearing voices came from an early age after an unfortunate event in my life I won’t get into but all of a sudden I was hearing voices and I was alone and in my own world for decades before I got help in 2016. But all before that I lived with hearing voices and having paranoid thoughts due to smoking the wrong weed called K2  and other synthetic drugs I didn’t know were synthetic but that was the worse stages of the episodes and thoughts that are invading and can get quite rough. But tIt caused me to act weird which as an embarrassed teen around that time I used to cringe at my outbursts but not now I kind of look pasts that and know I don’t do that and was just the young me trying to survive in the ever-changing world. The silly thing was I never told anyone that I was hearing voices and that was because I felt safe and it was always fun to wake up to do something I was also adventurous and I still am in a way but I was always on the go and loved each day with my dog and the few people I let into my life as I was paranoid but all for the good reasons and at the end of the day kept me safe and off the hard drugs which I’ve never touched and I mean non Class A party drugs like heroin or crack. It was also some other events in my life that made the voices intense to more I’m going die vibes which were fueled by outside thoughts and people it was bad but I always fought the devils and tried to do my best till it got too much and I kind of gave up for the meantime and focused on getting my mental and health together and get over all the things that had happened in the past. In 2016 I was admitted to a hospital ward for psychosis and I’ve been taking medication ever since which helps with the irrational thoughts and the episodes which I am grateful for. I’ve built my confidence up and my memory is getting stronger as I kind of lost my memory or at least I forgot about all the good things and concentrated on the bad which suffocated me and lead me down a dark and lonely path which was hell and somewhere I won’t be going back to as I wouldn’t let it get that bad again oh no. It makes you do outrageous things and the paranoid thoughts are intense and not something I enjoyed especially when smoking weed and taking some drugs which I did bring on myself but I was self-medicating and trying to cope in my own way while making great moves in life but as I said that came as a toll which was the stresses and lifestyle choices equaled to a more unstable me but it wasn’t the work. Somehow the paranoid thoughts got worse and I could no longer feel like I could work or even get out of bed there were days when I wouldn’t even go anywhere and was too paranoid to go to anyone I thought I was being watched and thought everyone was talking about me or wanted to do some sort of harm but to be fair this started at an early age but it came back and got worse each time with stuff I was adding up that didn’t even come up to the right total and now I think about it it was common math problems but being young and unknowing it was hard to judge it right and of course, my mind wasn’t in the right place though I was pretending it didn’t exist in the most difficult situations I choose when to listen to the voices as sometimes the information must have been my sub conscious talking to me like old memories but it came in the form of people in my head talking to me and it was good and bad stuff but mainly a mix of dark and light slash funny stuff.

I have cut off a lot of people I knew in the past like old friends as I wasn’t comfortable being around them and always thought negative thoughts about how they see me and so forth which soon came with evidence now we have grown apart and it’s been a long time so it’s the time apart that did it but no one makes the effort even me as I have seen they didn’t so it was kind of like well I don’t need this and left it for them to get in touch with me if they wanted but some people I left as I do not like to be the donkey of the group and made small because of my beliefs or where I was going or even been which is not here or there but I’ve been to a lot of good places which causes a lot of hate and I have my own band of haters but we all do so apparently it’s normal. Getting rid of toxic people and being with the people that make you happy not like a piece of poop but that is something I had to do to heal myself which was a long and drawn-out process also admitting and wanting the help that comes from you and only when I was ready which was after I was admitted and I realized I couldn’t even go back to the being the local nutter and try to revert back to when I was cooler and calmer which was certain times like being on holiday where it was easy to forget the problems I had but when I didn’t go on holiday which was must years I would go for walks or go out of the city for the day but I don’t really go anywhere nowadays. I’ve been thinking recently and I’m now looking for a change I don’t want fame and never wanted fame but I do want to be comfortable like most people where I don’t have to worry about certain things. But more importantly, I’m alone and looking for something to do instead of being in my room thinking and over making music which I now want to do a bit less which means not every day but I do worry people will forget me quick so that is why I post nearly every day. I mean I do like being alone I’m used to being alone and doing something as I like to be occupied and can’t be sitting down doing anything as I might have oversaid by now but that’s the other reason. I do vow to do something about it though and have made a few arrangements that will hopefully make my life better or worse but I’m a big believer in the new start it does take some work though but when I’m on something I’m on it. The truth is I stagnated for too long and now I’m trying to break out of that shell and try and do something new and hopefully meet more friends or meet old ones but I’m way over that paranoid feeling I’m more I have to grab the bull by the horns times and do it cos I can’t keep up with the isolation routine it’s numbing but I do speak to people though. The stigma of having a mental illness is something that I have also experienced throughout my mental health experience and even though we have come a long way it still is unheard of. I feel people are undermined or looked down on if they have a mental health problem and I also feel no matter how much you hear it can happen and you bet I did it even though I was “ill” like go to university which some people are doubting me because of my illness which is why I can’t forgive these people or want to know them for any more time I mean the haters, okay but my friends and family well I’ve seen enough.

MUSIC AND MY MENTAL HEALTH

From an early age, I used music not only to express myself but also to understand my pains and problems and mental health was one thing I used a lot which started with Queen I’m Going Simply Mad but went to stuff that wasn’t really about mental health but the love fall out and other tracks which I felt helped me to understand and overcome some of my problems. This is why I believe in music healing and believe songs can unlock your heartache and cure it. Of course, the dark side to it which there was a dark side on some tracks made me think more negative let’s just say but I tend to stay away from the negative songs and concentrate on the more club and of course, the ladies in the 90s rap game which I found helped me with some of the problems like haters. I played the keyboard and write silly songs and poems about my feelings growing up and that also helped me with my problems but that was inspired by the 90s heartbreak songs the point where I felt low due to my voices in the early 90s. It wasn’t really I’m going to sit down and listen to these songs and feel I was in the room and heard it and thought how I could use more of this in my life. When I listen to music I like to remember things and think music is good for bringing back your memory and the right song like that obscure song you were obsessed about or that one-hit-wonder you used to hit the town with which puts me in a sort of delusional state as it was so long ago and a one-off moment in time you say that was the best I’ll never forget but decades down the line you can hardly remember what day it is or some times how old you are I’m now 37. There is always that one song that stays with you but there are lots of songs that can strike memories the more decades you go back you can kind of see the past but it’s a quick flash to the past sometimes I’m standing in the room and that is due to heavy isolation way before they were doing it lol. I mean I use music for everything and listen to it a lot in my downtime when I’m not making music which I also listen to but I’ve recently started getting back into music from other people like from yesteryear and beyond and it’s surprising what I remember. I have a few playlists on my hub if you want to listen to them, it’s in the Testing Site section and it’s called Jukebox. Thankfully liking music helped me grow tastes that were different but it always helped me express how I was feeling which was always a good outlet to let it all go and as I said make me remember the younger me which was a chaotic time for me. My favorite genres for helping with mental health has to be House, R’n’B, and Hip Hop, and those are the three that helped me but in earlier years dance music from the 80s to 2005 and the old house helped me to understand people. That’s the thing I also think it’s good for younger people and kids to understand the world but people I mean I can play a track and feel like they were talking about someone I knew as it was so universal in the laungeue of hate or whatever it was. I mean I feel some people look down at their nose too much House is too gay, or some R’n’B is just for the ladies it’s just music, and as long as it does something like keep you going it’s a good thing as long as you like it that’s all that matters.  

Reggae from the 70s really helped me overcome problems I mean if you really want a genre that ticks all the boxes for mental health struggles reggae is the answer I mean it’s all about feelings and how they feel about situations and statements which I do miss having statements in fashion and in also music only cos everyone had their own identity or there were groups who dress a certain way but also have their own lifestyle. But reggae always made me happy and reminds me of a lot of good times it’s also good for chilling at home on a sunny day of course. I remember the words like kicking them to the curb which is something I still do to this day but I remember it like I was taking the advice of the drunk stranger if you excuse the phrase who would get drunk and tell you your truths as your ride home from the youth club it was sort of like that or though I thought that was a drastic thing to do at the time I got stronger. Sometimes I found myself kicking myself for not going with my gut when I listened to that one song so I did find it useful I will be like I’m going to be the next Fast Lane victim washed up on the streets and so forth or dealing with the haters which I have had a few. Listening to positive music helps with your mental health and can do great things for you I mean the one song I can think of well two actually is I Will Survive or Survoir which are two songs that seem to talk about a woman’s pains it could be anybody but granted I Will Survive is the more woman’s anthem but they are two songs anybody could listen to that will make you see the positive side if you ain’t feeling sorry for yourself and that is somewhere I have been but will never go that low again cos at the end of the day happiness does come from within and that means keeping yourself happy at all costs but not your kids though just throw that in there. I don’t really listen to sad songs when I’m down no more I just sit there it’s best not to feed it positive or negative emotion as it does lead to funny consequences and all that whatever talk just looks silly especially when you are not in the right state of mind I mean silence is something I begin to like and when I’m bored I have nothing else to do but to sit in silence but I think its good to have a bit of silence I mean I used to go the woods with my dog and just chill there and listen to the birds and watch the sky it’s really nice to get out and enjoy nature and have that alone time-space you probably won’t found in a city but that could be listening to music too. What I also like about music and mental health is it brings people together and it’s easier to talk about your problems there have been times in the past where I’ve seen a comment a low person on a sad song but it was either a desperate cry for attention or just someone lost but I was taken back by the sensible responses to the post and be like it’s still a caring world or it was now it’s getting sinister and remotely childish but less said about that but that’s the other thing social media is draining our souls and trust me I love all the platforms even though I’m never or never will be on them as I would probably struggle to found an audience and also I’m really not looking for celebrity status lol which I’m not saying I would have but I’m happy working in the back it somewhere I’ve always been in the back doing something either something that seemed pointless or something creative. I will leave a playlist that has a mental health theme to it and there is a couple about being lonely which goes with this year’s mental health theme which started yesterday 09/05/2022 and runs for a week here in the UK but there is a World Mental Health Day on the 10th October so if I can I do another blog post as it’s something close to my heart. hopefully, there’s a theme you know I love my themes and always doing something theme-based or I used to do.