The Art Of Bad Music

August 25, 2026
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INTRODUCTION

There’s nothing better than a great song and throughout the decades and now over a century (100 years) the world has been blessed with so much good content by artists and musicians who take their craft very seriously and are dedicated to the arts.I was born in the 80s as I probably mentioned a few times now so music was still crafted and even though it had some mishaps which I’ll be getting into shortly it still had feel good music that was hard to put down. One thing that was throughout the years and important to the foundations of music is it must have soul and be relatable and hit home as that sort of music used to sell a lot quicker and be transitioning to all walks of lives and colors. Meaning used to play a big part in the foundations of music making and a lot of thought and planing was taken and reach audiences you hope to get. I’m a music maker myself and I’ve been playing the keyboard and writing lyrics since I was around seven and worked on some high profiled stuff so I know what dedication is taken when making music and I always try to make good music that anyone who loves music can listen to and work hard on making it. All good music should be heard that is apparent but with the state of the music industry, the rise of bedroom producers and singers and also how music is being consumed nowadays there has been a huge shift in music quality. Though I’m for those silly, quirky fun songs music seems to be getting more stupider to a point the genre doesn’t even make no sense no more and has lost it’s spark and soul. Music is meant to be a bit of fun and can do wonders to your hair but also music can be stupid and degrading which is what most music nowadays sounds like as mentioned a number of times the same old thing recycled and repackaged. Not so long ago female rapper Megan Thee Stallion was on the Michele Obama podcast and she was talking about having the most rubbish song on Instagram and it still blowing up to mega per-portions surprise surprise some people were on her neck but it something I would agree on and since before the start of the modern world where technology now ruled the earth music has taken a turn for the worst and is now seems like anyone can do it but here’s the thing not everyone can be a star but you may be able to play a instrument or be a low key singer. It’s also worth mentioning before the rise of the internet the only way to make it to your dream job was to work hard and be all in the right spots now you can say something for good or for bad or have that one viral clip or song and you are propelled into stardom. I still think this is a good thing as you can now try and make it without no record deal or manager quote unquote where before you couldn’t get anywhere without your agent or manager who knew the PR people and have all the tools to help you get you where you want to be in the money.     

THE DECLINE IN MUSIC

With a quarter of the new century around the 1920s came a new style or genre of music which had a reputation around it and I’m talking about Jazz. Jazz began in the 20th century and at first conservative critics and religious groups and cultural elites marked it as dangerous, vulgar and morally corrupt. Before then music had a more religious background and the genres Country and Jazz both starting in the early 1900s helped change the face of music and how people consumed it. Though due to a number of factors like the serious ones racism, the break and attack on western tradition and the misunderstanding of the syncopated rhythms it was deemed as “noise.” It was very successful with the younger generation who liked to dance to it and later drink at Speakeasy bars illegal drinking dens when alcohol was banned from 1920 to 1933. This was also the first stage of the great rebel against their parents where things was a little looser but not too loose. Smoking weed and cigarettes was associated with Jazz and commonly found in the 1920s onward and even though there was a great push back by religious, major figures and associations nothing could stop the young kids attending bars and dance halls to listen to this new style music. It’s also worth noting Jazz came from New Orleans Louisiana from enslaved black people and has complex polyrhythms, syncopation, and call-and-response vocal traditions. This seems trivia but it was brought to a white audience who danced to it at a grand hall room which was all white and for white people. But that a side Jazz was the first evolutionary change in music that shaped music and music consumption and even till this day it influences many popular genres like Hip Hop, Pop and any modern genre as it all stems back to Jazz. Jazz broke away from the classical methods of the time and saw more unconventional ways of playing and making music which is why it fall flat on the critics. It blended Blues, Ragtime and Brass Band rhythms and with the improvisation of the singer or player the critics were unfamiliar with the sound and also the faster pace of some of the numbers it was deemed as bad and nontraditional. It was the first break away from Classical music and was the first fundamental step in modern music though racial segregation and hangings were still rife especially in the South of America where colors weren’t that well mixed. Prominent figures like Henry Ford promoted biased claims against the genre, while national publications and groups like the General Federation of Women’s Clubs labeled jazz un-American and destructive to Western civilization. The physical, uninhibited styles of dancing that accompanied jazz made older generations anxious. Critics claimed the syncopated beat stimulated physical passions and broke down moral boundaries. Music educators and classical purists dismissed jazz as “noise” or “trash” rather than art. They argued that its chaotic dissonance, bent notes, and reliance on spontaneous improvisation lacked the discipline and structure of European classical music.

FREE RANGE IMPROVISATION

After the evolution of Rock music in the 1950s and by the 1960s there was more a relaxed view with music making and things like Improvisation Jazz and Psychedelic Rock was in. This was another great shift in music making and how it was consumed and at that time it was best to see it live rather than vinyl and things like LSD changes your conception of time, hearing and visually so what sounds bad straight could sound awesome on LSD and I best describe it as House, Jungle/Drum & Bass, Techno, Dubstep, UK Garage, UK Funky any rave genres in order to feel the music you might need to be on some Mandy or something that’s MDMA otherwise called Molly. No I’m not suggusting to drop one on a night out but music sounds better high on weed, LSD and MDMA you find a whole new connection with the song and also a hell a lot of energy lol. Critical reception of 1960s psychedelic rock evolved from contemporary skepticism of self-indulgence to modern critical acclaim, recognizing the era as a high-water mark for studio experimentation and countercultural art.  Many mainstream 1960s critics viewed early psychedelia as formless, self-indulgent, or a shallow commercial cash-in on drug culture. Mainstream outlets often dismissed extended instrumentals as tedious noodling. Established traditionalists gave mixed reviews when non-psychedelic legacy acts awkwardly incorporated fuzz-boxes or backwards tapes, viewing the shift as unauthentic.Re-evaluation: Regional Stylistic DividesUK Complexities: Critics often praised British psychedelic acts for intricate tape loops, whimsical pastoral themes, and avant-garde orchestration, though detractors occasionally found them overly precious or whimsical.US Garage and Blues Grit: Critics highlight American psychedelic output as more grounded in raw garage rock, folk, and blues, reflecting socio-political turmoil. 

DISCO SAID QUACK OFF

By the 70s and with the arrival of Disco music music was still good but came the dramatic turn of music consumption and music making. It was the rise of the novelty song with songs like Ray Stevens The Streak in 1974 and Disco Duck by Rick Dees and His Cast of Idiots in 1976 both silly songs I see a seven year old child picking up but hey if that’s your market then that’s your market. After the 1920s and 1930s and after the first great Jazz era fresh faced record companies saw their was money in pressing records and by the late 1970s music was still being sold but by then cassette tapes and vinyls were the two ways of consuming your music. Disco which started in the late 1960s to the early 1970s started as a as an underground dance movement in New York City. It grew out of African American, Latino, and LGBTQ+ spaces like “The Loft,” where dancers sought safe, inclusive places to enjoy soul, funk, and R&B music. By 1974 Record charts began recognizing the sound, with Billboard launching its first dedicated disco action chart. It was such songs like Disco Duck by Rick Dees and His Cast Of Idiots that gave Disco a bad name and why some people may of called it naff. Obviously more racial, homophobic and transphobic tension in the air as things were still pretty rough for all the above and for some is still a problem but by the quick look of my cards I think things are getting better for everyone if it wasn’t for Mr Toupee and The Russian Spy Doll but less is said about them as it’s not that subject. This is why I think they really burned all those Disco records at that baseball field in 1979 and why some people including Disc Jockeys wasn’t playing it on the radio. The intense anti-disco backlash peaked around July 12, 1979, during Disco Demolition Night at Chicago’s Comiskey Park. This exact timing happened because commercial over saturation of formulaic tracks collided with a powerful cultural reaction by young, white, male rock fans.The late 1970s saw a rising conservative political climate (led by figures like Anita Bryant) that pushed back against visible gay rights and civil rights progress. Rock radio DJs, like Chicago’s Steve Dahl, weaponized white working-class alienation, framing rock as authentic and rebellious, and disco as “foreign,” elite, and emasculating. Record labels rushed to cash in on the trend, flooding the market with rushed, low-quality, and repetitive disco tracks. By 1979, even mainstream listeners were growing tired of the relentless synthetic beats, making the genre an easy target for a coordinated media and radio backlash. 

GAME CHANGER IN MUSIC

The 1980s was a great decade for music and not just the content which is everlasting but also in music making too. The revolutionary Roland TR-808 and the Roland TR-909 drum machines came out from 1980 which pioneered a lot of genres from early Hip Hop, House, Dance music, Electronic music and so many more. Both drum machines were made to replace the drummer and a more efficient way to make music and became a popular tool in making music on most popular songs from the 1980s. Some critics and professional drummers saw the new invention as well some called it lazy and some called it a lifesaver as it now meant with the drum machines you didn’t have to pay for professional drumming or be a professional drummer to program a simple drum pattern. The 1980s was the second step to over commercialized music and though worst was to come in the 2000s and later it was one of the golden decades of music and still imitated to this day. It was the use of supersonic electronic sounds over digital reverb and FXs that seemed like it was recorded in a empty warehouse and that made it seem bad. From the start of the late 70s onward instruments were being replaced and as technology advanced so did the music equipment which meant more realistic sounds and textures which was good for players in the late 70s onward as you didn’t have to practice on the instrument you just needed to play the keyboard. Such keyboards like the Roland Juno released in 1982 and the Roland Jupiter released in 1978 came with more softer sounds unlike what came before that and around the same time which was the Mini Moog a more harsher and darker synthesizer.  Synthesizers and digital drum machines were in an awkward, transitional phase. Instead of warm tones, early digital gear often sounded thin, plastic, or mechanical and things like the metro-meter was used to make the drum pattern warm and unmachine-like. Mainstream music was bombarded with high gloss highly synthesized sounds by the early 1980s and critics said it lacked emotional depth or raw human grit compared to before that which was Rock and Punk in the 1970s. A cultural and political backlash happened in the 1980s where Electronic music was targeted for it’s  perceived lack of authentic musicianship and the lawless counterculture of the late-decade rave movement. Traditional rock purists and critics claimed that synthesizers and drum machines lacked human emotion. Detractors argued that microchips and sequencers played the notes instead of human hands. By the mid to late 1980s pioneering synth artists saw their fame diminished after mainstream audiences grew tired of the initial electronic wave. 

BEGINNING OF THE END

Looking back at the 1990s I would say it was hit and miss particularly the later half of the 1990s but this was the start of the deterioration of music as things got more commercialized and washed out. Though granted most of my favorite songs came from the 1990s that’s not to say what was being played at the time didn’t meet my requirements other than American Hip Hop and R&B and half of it was one to be silly to at the school disco tracks like Whitfield’s Saturday Night and Babylon Zoo’s Spaceman though songs I liked at the time as that was the young boy standard of the time. As I said music was still good and still had a high standard especially in the early 1990s by 1996 and with such songs by The Spice Girl’s  “Wannabe,” 1997’s Aqua’s “Barbie Girl” and B*witches’s “C’est La Vie” 1998 it was around those times British music took a nosedive and though they are cheesy happy numbers I myself have memories with it was still wishy washy music targeted for little girls and songs for a school disco or a god forbid 90s Pop club night. After the stock market crashes in the early 1980s music was still being sold as normal and was a big earner to all people involved or so it seems. By the 1990s and after the explosion of Brit Pop from all the angles like The Spice Girls, Blur, Oasis and The Happy Mondays to name a few the British music industry were looking for their next big meal ticket and pumped out what I call pure garbage though I would say they were all successful so successful garbage in order to put more British people on the map and to line their pockets of course. It’s also worth mentioning The Beatles were the first British (One Direction later on in the 2010s) to have a number one on the Billboard Charts and also had the same hysteria levels as seen with The Beatles 50 years before. I say that as there must of been a great push in making music in the UK and failed so miserable of making the next biggest thing since The Beatles and to keep up with the Jones’s AKA America who were already greatly in the lead with the birth of Jazz, Rock, Motown, Hip Hop, R&B, House and Soul  all coming from America. It was around 1996 UK music was getting dry and also worth mentioning lacking colour other than Ultimate Khoas and Beverley Knight who did chart the British charts and successfully. Before I would say around 1996 music was dedicated and crafted with love and passions which okay sounds corny to someone who doesn’t like music and don’t see the state it’s in but music was well planned and rehearsed which meant a lot of time practicing and crafting your art not matter what it costs in money and time consumption. So by 1996 around and the birth of groups like The Spice Girls it was all about having a catchy popular song rather than substances and delivery and even though The Spice Girls had more than that awful song Wannabe and were a collective group. 

END OF THE WORLD

It’s safe to say the early 2000’s were the worst modern day decade of drama and you would of thought music would of got better but oh no the 2000’s saw one of the worst to date of over commercialized music. Even America saw their music being watered down for easy consumption and the UK also saw a hell a lot of cheap acts that probably best seen on a night out in Butlins (a holiday park.) By the early 2000’s with streaming services opening like Napster and Limewire and with the rise of the internet happening around the same time music was at our fingertips and with a few clicks of a mouse you could burn the CD onto a computer or IPod and share with the whole wide world. Things were okay till they worked out how popular the sites were getting and how much revenue they were losing out in sales of records and they were calling it the death of the record as did they say that about the cassette tape too. A great campaign pursued shortly after and they made it illegal in most countries to download or stream the music off the music streaming websites like Napster or Limewire but like any good bootlegger they re branded and repackaged the sites reopening them even though it was illegal and they could face fines, prison or both. This was also the start of what I call the great change where people began to question the rights of music and some artists to be heard as before music was for sharing and the birth of streaming sites but till this point music was to be shared and enjoyed and wasn’t about making money or being well known they had a talent and they were to use it for the good of mankind, not to mention the causes they were behind. It was also the re-surge of the It Girl with Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie in the 2000’s and both famous for doing nothing or daughters of the rich and famous which you might as well call Instagram a Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie style tribute. Something good that did come from the 2000’s which was halfway through the decade in 2005 YouTube started and was the key factor of how it seems you can become famous overnight. To quickly explain with the birth of the webcam and the likes of YouTube starting it was now more easier than ever to quickly whip up a video and not be tied down with all those wires and connections. Before the birth of the webcam and YouTube people would go live at various of spots with connections and the wires usually covering things like conspiracies theories, life hacks and topics of the day with the great change it meant anyone with guts could go live and hopefully bag a audience they’ve been looking for but around 2005 was the start of the great shift in how to become famous and how we consumed our entertainment with the ever so changing market. By 2007 with the likes of Soulja Boy’s Crank That who saw great success off the back of YouTube and marketed his song as a ringtone off the back of The Crazy Frog phone ringtone era in 2003 he for sure paved the way for anyone with a musical idea to take the front stage. People began to see what he was doing and pave their own lane by producing and starring in the songs and music video. This didn’t go without any eyebrows being raised down and some artist and people questioned the authenticity of Soulja Boy and called him out several times calling it not real Hip Hop.  

TONE DEAF BAD ACTS

Really it shouldn’t come as a surprise that music has gradually took a turn for the worst and the 2010s was no different. In fact it got way worse to the point I wasn’t listening to the radio and relied on a handful of mixtapes I downloaded off Dapiff.com to keep me satisified. The early 2010s was the start of Soundcloud and later on the Soundcloud rapper in 2016 which spawned a lot of underground artist to go large. Also a year before Mumble Rap was a thing which was usually performed on Lean (Sizzurp) and is a term used to describe the illicit and dangerous recreational misuse of prescription-strength cough medications mixed with soda drinks. The term Mumble Rap was coined by rapper Wiz Khalifa who used it during an interview on Hot 97‘s Ebro in the Morning. Honestly I never experienced so much commercial rubbish in my life from House, to Hip Hop later called Trap you name it most of it was washed out and meaningless. From Justin Bieber’s Baby to PSY’s Gangland Style even Niki Minaj yes some of you’s beloved queen she had Starships which I think is one of the worst Pop songs becuase I can’t call it Hip Hop and one of the worst Pop songs  to date though granted it’s a fun number but for those who feel like wearing the tiara. Even though platforms like Myspace (2003 – 2006) and Spotify (2008 – 2010s) propelled the change of how music was bought and consumed it wasn’t until social media platforms like Instagram (2010) and TikTok (2016) came along was there a massive change in dynamics in getting rich, successful and staying sexy. It was in fact Instagram that started this how many followers you have instead of music and lyric content and played a massive part in the downfall of music in the 2010s. Meeting the aesthetic in both looking the part and sounding the part of yesteryear’s rappers who wasn’t just doing it for likes, money and attention like it is nowadays especially in male and female Hip Hop and Trap music. Swedish House Mafia was also popular in the 2010s and was known for their EDM style and not to be confused with Electronic Dance Music though that is the full abbreviation of it EDM is a over commercialized sound with edgy cut throat sounds that I find jarring. That and Dubstep emerging around the same time I found I couldn’t go raving no more at my favorite places to see my favorite people as I couldn’t dance to it though I could smash my teeth on the dance floor so to speak. Both of those genres EDM and Dubstep on top of the over commercialized Hip Hop and R&B I was hearing around the 2010s really showed me how bad and lazy music was getting and how the state of music was getting worse and worse. Though as I stated there were good music out in the 2010s but was being drowned out by over commercial music that I can’t listen to. 

THINGS THAT MAKE YOU GO POO

If you think it couldn’t any worse prepare yourself to the last main section I introduce you to a new phenomena that is crapping on everyone’s or most people’s TikTok screens in the last year or two I bring you UK Poo Music. For those who haven’t been on TikTok or YouTube I’ll quickly explain “UK Poo” is a viral internet meme and satirical microgenre on TikTok that pokes fun at low-quality, overconfident amateur British rap and drill music.The term was coined in mid-2026 by X (formerly Twitter) user Cashyams and quickly spread across social media platforms like TikTok and Spotify. The sound features off-beat flows, rambling lyrics that do not rhyme, heavy and out-of-tune autotune, and raw iPhone microphone recordings over basic grime or drill beats.The aesthetic is low-budget music videos usually filmed outside local corner shops, suburban streets, or from the front seat of a parked car with a door swung open.The vibe is mundane or overly serious street lyrics delivered with absolute, unearned confidence, making it a source of collective internet amusement rather than a formal musical movement. Coining the term: the phenomenon exploded on X (formerly Twitter) and TikTok around July 15, 2026, after a post by user @cashyams featuring a clumsy melodic-trap snippet amassed millions of views.The tracks associated with the trend typically feature aggressively bad autotune, low-quality mobile phone microphone recordings, basic or nonsensical lyrics, and DIY music videos shot outside local corner shops or pubs. The term functions as both a critique and an ironic celebration of amateur overconfidence in the British freestyle and rap scene. Commentators note it continues a long underground tradition of tongue-in-cheek, DIY British internet rap—blurring the lines between genuine outsider art, meme culture, and post-ironic appreciation. Now I saw this on my YouTube feed not so long ago and was the second thing that started this blog post. I firstly want to say I’m actually for it and think it’s great for a laugh but without hating too much not worthy as a live act at a gig like we saw one of them do the come slap me dude or lady yet to be decided. It seems this UK internet craze is just banter and not to be taken too seriously as a serious form of art. I kind of like them sticking their tongue out to the UK Drill rappers who need to give it a day and hang it up and forever talking about bags (money) or grams (drugs) and oh don’t forget about poor Alesha the girlfriend they use up. Now for the bit I don’t like how it once again shifts attention from the good music that we all so hard put out and get silenced by people like that as that is just one example but UK Poo Music isn’t suitable for a rave, in a car, or at home just chilling it’s good for a laugh a two minute swipe on your phone and even though I said I was for it I still wouldn’t play it wherever I was. Here is where a parody song comes to mind and something for lighthearted entertainment. If some numb nut makes complete sense of it and makes it into a masterpiece or outdo the greats then I’m walking away from music I’ll be done. I don’t see this happening as it’s a underground UK movement idea for brainless kids to laugh at but it is funny.    

CONCLUSION

Don’t get me wrong I like feel good music and doesn’t always have to be dripping with all that ice (diamonds) or even say something relatable or meaningful to get my attention but throughout the decades music has gotten more worse and worse and has no plan on stopping any time soon unless we stop consuming the bad stuff.  I’ve been playing the keyboard and making music since I was seven so I know music is down to tastes, what you were brought up with and also what you were allowed or want to listen to. Also people’s hang ups of what they like or allowed to like and also meeting your own market and needs. I have my own hang ups which I stated already but just to recap the same redundant content and beat choices, coping and pasting music and not sampling or re-imaging the beat, swagger jacking was always a big no no for me and last but not least artists who can’t do their profession well or hop on trend and not like the genre they were singing or making you know the same old stuff which feels pretty redundant saying that in itself. There is a need for what I call trash music and it lays with the younger generation and think it’s important to have some good child memories attached to songs and trust me I have mine all what I mentioned in this blog post but good music should be heard and out weigh the bad music that seems to get more attraction than the good music. The old as long as the beat goes hard then nothing really matters but I mean really you listen to that man I feel old lol. I don’t know what it is maybe it lays with the younger generation and the lack of good music and true idols like Beyonce or Taylor Swift  to many or anyone who came before them. The music scene throughout the world has blurred the lines with Hollywood and their music industry which means it’s all about the followers and the money power and respect which comes last rather than making good music and good vibes and spreading good energy throughout the world instead of this vile undertones of sex, drugs and violence which has already broke the breaking point in the America  and here in the UK I don’t know about anywhere else. With the right music it can have a huge positive impact on your mental health and also goes the other way too a major downfall to your mental health so what I’m saying is pick your poison carefully and make sure a nice balance of music is being heard not just this one sided one trick pony most of us are tired of hearing and to support the right people and not gatekeep the music we digest.    

The Ups And Downs Of Being Biracial

November 19, 2025
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INTRODUCTION

Michael Jackson once said it doesn’t matter if you’re black or white something that hit home to me and was resonance to me as a child and also into my teen years. I was brought up in a council estate in a place called Lawrence Weston which is a rough old place growing up there and experienced many racial abuse and one was from a police officer. I was taught from a early age that my skin colour didn’t come into it and I was to be treated normally without the preferential treatment even though I have seen my days of that I was taught that it was from merit and merit alone will see me though. I have African, Guyanese, Scottish and Irish roots and not to mention the other places I learnt of whilst taking a DNA test like I’m Welsh too. I took the DNA test to find out once and for all my roots and to put the unknowingly to rest and I’m glad I did as I learned so much and feel much better to know where I came from me and my family and ancestors. There are a lot of misconceptions of being biracial and I will be discussing some of them in this blog post and I hope to vent out some of my frustrations with the world and what I call the ups and downs of being biracial.       

People think it’s easy and you don’t get racially abused even though they carelessly throw in words like mongrel which I think is a racial slur to biracial people and something I don’t like to be called even though I understand some of the elders use of the word it still frustrates me and something I will get down your neck on. Back in the 80s it was a rarity to come across many biracial people and fast forward to present day they are popping up from out of nowhere. It amazes me of the backwards thinking some people have when it comes to biracial people and that I will get into down the line. I know one thing is that you can’t be too white and you can’t be too black in the law of the ignorant who nit pick at you for just existing and doing you. The good old you’re bi racial you don’t have any problems makes people seem tone deaf to the situation and my own window pain. My gran and grandad are from Guyana, my dad’s from Tottenham, and my mum is from Bristol but her parents are Scottish and Irish well my grandad from my mum’s side is both Scottish and Irish. I was taught both sides of the family from a early age and as confusing it was it really helped shape who I am today a confident about my heritage biracial person. I am proud of my heritage and have lots of love for all my family across the board and unlike my early childhood I’m not ashamed of my heritage and can safely say I have a lot of nations within me.                 

PRETTY PRETTY AND THE LIGHT SKIN COMPLEX

You know I don’t have a preference when dating and is something that frustrates me so much every time it’s brought up. Not the preference thing but the fact the public perception of what is seen as the beauty standard. Let’s get this over and done with black is beautiful and there are a lot of black girls I would say is attractive but this brainwashing that happens tells people otherwise and stops people from dating black people on the misconception of dare I say being too dark. It’s not even funny how many people have come up to me to tell me they wished they had skin like me which repels me and not from them but the whole beauty standard. I really don’t understand how being a darker complexion makes you ugly and being a lighter colour is more appealing to the eye it doesn’t even make sense except for objectifying and sexual desires which I’m sorry I’m not a object of desire and refuse to be named as such. I walk past many black woman and girls and think what a lot of crockery you are still attractive and laugh at the ones who say they are too dark or dark and ugly. Being light skinned doesn’t even make you more appealing apart from the brainwashed who are now programmed to think otherwise. I hate the fact that I’m considered more attractive and even though I’m in my 40s now and seen my beauty days it disgusts me when there are opinionated videos like as seen on TikTok and YouTube. I didn’t like the fact that those TikTokers were being so grotesque with damaging videos they were making and thinking whilst making and posting the videos that it was funny and a good idea. This kicked up a shit storm where black people were denouncing biracial people and making hurtful videos themselves which didn’t put biracial people in a good light or most importantly represent how I felt about the situation. It kind of put me in a void where I was too scared to say hello to another black person in fear that they think like those who discussed the issues and expressed their opinions on platforms like YouTube and TikTok. It definitely made me distant to my roots and just wanted people to know I wasn’t that kind of person which is why I went out my way to say hello to black people when passing to get over this new fear I had which wasn’t the fear of the black person but the fear of them thinking I was a self hating clown who loved myself and was all about my looks which apart from a small blip I never was and love black people like I love all the races under the sun. The problem is it’s too much dictation from the fashion and media which tells people being biracial is more prettier whilst dark skinned people are misrepresented and put at the back of the que which I’m guessing as a black child or even a adult can lead to self hating and hatred to the light skinned people but more (importantly themselves) they prance around on our media all over the globe. Sadly this stems from slavery where the biracial slaves were treated better and in some cases part of the family whilst the black slaves were hard at work and being broken down and mistreated. The slave owners would use words like ugly and other cruel names to the black slaves and sadly this is still being echoed across the board by all races including black people. Skin bleaching is another thing to come from slavery but after the slavery days a lot of skin whiting products emerged which was dangerous and even life threatening to use. I’m against skin lightening and for those who don’t know I’m a massive Lil’ Kim fan so when the photos started to emerge of her lighter complexion it really broke my heart and I was a lost for a while . People think it’s to get closer to the white gene but this isn’t the case and is the beauty standard gone mad and is another nail in the coffin for being proud within your own skin. In my own opinion it’s something that shouldn’t be accepted like it is due to the terrible past and what is seen as true beauty but I have to accept it with people like Lil’ Kim who has had a dramatic transformation but she looks a lot darker and better in more recent years then she has done before. It’s more socially accepted to lightening your skin and people would even go as far as saying go for it you will look better even though that is not the case and in some cases they look more uglier than when they had black skin. Media has driven this whole topic from Hollywood and the music industry into people taking it upon themselves to lighten their skin colour and fit more into the beauty standard. I’m not even saying it’s their fault it’s people like Tyra Banks comes to mind who genuinely believes having lighter skin makes you more attractive and dashing down the runaway. Now I know you are thinking well Kim feels that way too well actually and thanks to the resurfacing of shocking clips from Americans Best Top Model  which I watched when it was first aired in the UK Tyra has shown to be tone deaf of black people like when she said to one contestant she was being too black for having kinked hair and her straw hat to show her roots which as a black person herself she should of never said those words to her and was disgusting to watch again. Screaming I’m a Afro American  woman whilst telling other black ladies she’s dressing too black and ghetto and later down the line lightening her skin doesn’t wash with me and makes me wonder if she used her skin complexion as a aesthetic and to win over the black vote.  I mean if there wasn’t such a knock on effect with the whole issue I would be like it’s your skin you do what’s best but it’s leaking into the normal world and making people feel some type of way about themselves which is why I draw the line and plus it does have deep and dark history behind it which makes it even worse.                                                   

HAVE A BABY BY ME WHO THE F CARES

As I said within the space of say 20 years there has been a uprise of biracial babies which I’m not even saying it’s a bad thing and is something wrong with the parents. What is wrong is how unprepared some of the parents are. Some people are quick to have biracial babies without even considering the fallouts they might face like racist abuse from in and outside the family, explaining their heritage from a early age, the feeling and being told they are too white or too black, outside hate from other mums and dads and once again family and friends, and other factors like when the relationship goes sour and  mum or dad start to be racist in front of their own child but there are many of things to consider before you impregnate yourself with a gorgeous biracial baby. I hear time after time that the only reason why they want biracial babies is because they would look pretty and nothing to do with two people falling in love and having a baby together. It’s more mother’s dolls collection ready to dress up and parade down the high street without doing their homework or even having a safety blanket IE away from the racist family members who will never accept them or their skin colour and go out their way to torment them with jabs left right and centre. Some kids get brought into racist environments and later on become self hating machines who don’t understand their roots and where they stand in this whole thing and I think it’s irresponsible to have a biracial baby under those circumstances it’s not fair on the child or children and is hard to understand as most times they are family so they are brought up to love all your family members even though they don’t love you. Unless you are willing to cut off that toxic family member or members it’s unfair to bring a child into this earth with bad blood already in the rear view. I witnessed a sad event that happened not so long ago and not to do with anything I just mentioned I live next to a primary school for 5-11 years old anyway he was about 5 to 6 and he was mixed race and expressing how he wanted to be white even declaring himself white. I remember feeling like that around the same age and was due to outsiders insisting I was white or not white enough and left me coloured drained until my mum and dad pulled me to the side and gave me my first lesson in life which was be proud of all my heritage. I would advise any parent who is going through or been through this problem is to not to panic and teach your kids all what you know about both sides of the family and never feel you let it slip or you failed your child. Teaching your kids what stereotyping is and what is really racist abuse is also puts them on the right level of reporting it to the teachers or telling the parents so they can ring some necks when they are not looking obviously. It’s a hard pill to swallow and at it’s worse can lead to depression and suicide so teaching your kids from a early age where they come from puts them on the right foot and is so they are not lost in where they fit in. Reminding them that you love them dearly and is not the public perception and they are just small minded bullies use the words racist bullies will make them understand a lot quicker that they are just trying to be malicious and not worth even getting upset about cos you never let the bully see you cry.  Also integrating with other black people around the same age and up does help multiculturaled schools will stop them from feeling excluded and out the loop so to speak and even though that was a burden too feeling like I was too white compared to the other black people I still found my feet and eventually I find myself at home as they made me welcome and belong in their circles and for that I’m truly grateful.                          

IGGORANCE IS BLISS

One thing that pisses me off is people’s pure ignorance and the dumbing down of the racist abuse I face and faced. They have this weird theory that I don’t get racially abused or feel anything another black person would because I’m of a lighter complexion. For one we are in the middle and get it from all sides and two do you know how many people have called me a nigger, go home, to people shouting at me because I have a dog and not even a tough dog, to be followed in shops, to being stopped by the police and endless more examples I could bring up. It’s funny how people would say we are more socially accepted and even though in some groups that is true overall that isn’t the case and still I get racially abused and stereotyped like the next man and woman. They obviously haven’t heard the stories where they accept you not for being biracial but being classed as white which is what I call colour tone deaf and a slur in itself. The other thing is preferential treatment like it makes me feel good and special it really doesn’t it makes me feel small and now I got to go out my way to reinclude the person of colour whatever race that is but I was mainly talking about my black friends or even strangers at times. It really makes me awkward and out of place as I hate not to include someone if that is sex, race, sexualities or anything else I always have.    The knock on effect of that alone is damaging and can make you feel out of place and out of socket yes painful. The amount of racial abuse that was hurled at other people but it’s okay as you are not one of them is another example of colour tone deaf and something that jars on me and that I faced countless times and yet another example no matter how much they think so biracial people don’t get the pass like they say they do. I might of brought this up before but there is this YouTuber who I respect and watch when I’m in the mood anyway she tried to say biracial people don’t get suppressed and don’t feel burdened of having black skin. I like her respectfully but to make such once again tone deaf comments and to discard my own suppression and burdens is a farce and something I was shocked her saying as it was coming from a articulate black woman who I thought was multiculturaled and a bit clued up to the ongoing problem of racism. As I stated I’m not mad and I’ll still watch her as she makes good content and I believe in supporting black artists, TikTokers and YouTubers I just was taken back from such ignorant words from such a switched on lady and I believed she was for everybody and not be so secluded when dealing with such a topic. I hope I got it wrong and she was talking to the dumb TikTokers with their gagging on lollypops antics but it really hurt my feelings and felt like my voice was being unheard and easily brushed to the side all because I was lighter then her. One example of how I was repressed and supressed was how my so called friends and their parents said I was acting too black. Ali G was a fictious charter from Stains who talked with a black accent and slapped his fingers when excited. It’s a black culture thing especially in Jamacia and the surrounding isles but was popularized by Ali G played by Sacha Baron Cohen here in the UK. Long story short it was a popularized thing in the school playgrounds and adults and we were all slapping our fingers together and using his catch phrase Boh and iz it cos I’m black. Some people like my so called friends and their mother didn’t like me using any of the catch phrases and told me in some sort of similar words that I should start acting white to which I replied iz it cos I’m black. I shortly stopped hanging around with him not so long after as my mum and dad taught me to walk away from the ones who call me racist names or make me feel some type of way about my skin colour. The other time was in more recent years two examples actually the first one is the music I make and to the haters it was too white even though I would say you don’t know what you are on about I’ll take the example of Jungle and Drum and Bass that was cultivated by black people I mean going down the heads list we have Bristol legend Roni Size he’s in fact biracial, another legend and also biracial Goldie, and now for the black ones Jumping Jack Frost another Legend, yet again another legendary pair The Ragga Twins who are MC’s they are black and R.I.P to another legend Skibadee he’s was a black Jungle/Drum and Bass MC in the rave scene with his white partner in crime Shabba D, not to mention General Levy the black Jungle/Drum and Bass/Reggae and whatever he’s feeling Rastafarian artist. All the people I mentioned helped shape the sound and define it right from it’s humble beginnings so when they say Jungle/Drum and Bass is a white genre you obviously don’t know how insulting that is for the grandfathers of Jungle/Drum and Bass and was not how it started. I use that example of how suppressed they try and make us as independent artists and how we should dare I say it stick to the bongos well sorry my bongos are being tuned as we speak so please bare with. I already talked about Beyonce and the hypocrisy of the black music standard when she released Cowboy Carter her country album and how and what I was trying to say how they tried to suppress her into sticking to the R’n’B and Ballads songs she was making throughout the years. That’s how I feel when they did that to her it was all negro please you know you never listen to Pasty Cline for example when in reality she knows the album more than the Pasty Cline fans. As if I don’t know the Queen, Madonna, UB40, Culture Club etc etc hits and I never enjoyed them all so say white artists and as if I was going to listen to East Coast and West Coast rap with 90s and 00s R’n’B hits, Reggae, Reggaeton and the other black accepted genres. I quite enjoy Rock in passing and okay not the typical genre I choose when selecting my daily tracks that is usually House, R’n’B, Hip Hop and the Dance hits but I know I enjoy particularly 70s and 80s Rock which I was actually brought up with. Being what I call musically bias means you worry too much on what people would think of you and means you can’t fully enjoy music the way it is intended to be which is for everyone and also without holding up what I’ll call the cool, black or whatever it is meter and say marking it from 1-10. The thought of just sticking to my streams and not broaden my musical taste would mean I would get bored quick and wouldn’t adapt in my musical making I mean I love music and I hope that comes across well in my music making I do but the ear likes what it likes and for me it doesn’t matter if it’s a ladies anthem like Destiny’s Child’s Hey Ladies, a swinging handbags at dawn house anthem take your pick but more Disco House from the late 90s to mid 2000’s, a dominating sexy anthem like Khia’s My Neck My Back or even Lil’ Kim’s Not Tonight, a heavy rock song so on and so on. If I like it I like it and if I like it that much I would learn the lyrics and start wailing away yes wail lol. My race no even better our race shouldn’t even come into when it comes to music making as music appeals to many races and creeds so when people told me my music was too white I laugh at the faces of the ones talking evil and blame society, the music industry big wigs and fans for being so narrow minded and thinking so small and not stepping out the box for a change and be part of the next generation of real inspiring and inspirational artists of the future did I sell it. Both Lil’ Nas and Beyonce have pushed the boundaries of Country music and I hope to see other artist follow suit and be all what I mentioned above without putting them too high on the peddle stool. It will show the world that other black people like the genre and more people will become more acceptive of the genre. Another person that stands out is Jada Pinkett Smith with her Heavy Metal band Wicked Wisdom love the name and what the band stands for and I’m also impressed by her roar and singing talents and also playing the guitar yes she a full on band member and at the forefront of the band. That is what we need more black Heavy Metal Bands and Rock bands give Chuck and Jimmy a run for their money.  I actually enjoy her music even though Heavy Metal and also second up Techno are my two worst genres but I do like Black Sabbath R.I.P. to Ozzy Osbourne and Berlin Techno so I haven’t thrown it out the window completely. It’s actually trying to stand out from the others and not be a mish mash of someone from yesteryear or current even though I do believe in the blueprint when done right and with the nod of the person they styled or got their style of singing or rapping from unless they are being difficult and in some cases jealously and rivalry means a standoff deal so to speak. So in short what I just mentioned is another way they try to supress you and make you feel nervous of doing something a little different and out your comfort zone which I actually enjoy doing but thankfully no one online has told me otherwise, result.         

IN CONCLUSION

I hope I wasn’t across as ignorant or not for mixing colours whatever colour or race and creed they or you are. I hope someone will read this and take it seriously and hopefully know what to do with your self hating son or daughter or family member it takes love and sparing them from any judgement when it comes to their white, black biracial side and them exploring their heritage but never put them in one path if you can put them in the middle and let them explore the path with your guidance IE history about both sides of the family which is the important bit and the history their ancestors went through from both sides if you can rustle up a history takeaway to go I’m selling it again ain’t I woo! By doing this they will have balance and a deeper and fuller knowledge where they come from surpassing conspiracies that all biracial people are a product of their slave masters, and we are not loved by our parents and so many silly rumours and conspiracies we hear people run their mouth about. The sad thing about is as I’ve watched a lot of YouTube and TikTok videos where usually the mum starts to become racist towards them and their father usually. Also the countless videos I watched about their stories how they abandoned them from birth and mistreated them by sometimes being physically abuses towards them which does make me sad and it’s not fair as they didn’t ask to be brought in this earth and you go abandoning and mistreating them for your mistake well I hope the lord can forgive you. I left my mum to move to Barbados and then my dad’s and then foster care when I was seven but I can safely say she still loves me and wasn’t anything to do what I mentioned above. As I said I was brought up in a council estate in the very outskirts of Bristol so it was rough and my mum lived at the bottom of the very long road in the first block the road is called the Long Cross by the way and my Dad Lived on the last block of flats on the top floor about a quarter maybe half a mile up the road it’s hard to tell I don’t drive lol. I would spend the weekdays at my mums and the weekends at my dads until I got shipped out but thinking about I ended up in a good position and I haven’t done that bad to be honest it could be much worse. In fact me and my dad and my mum haven’t done too bad for themselves and have moved away from the Long Cross and gone into Higher Education my dad is Business man and so many other things and my mum went into a Psychology field I believe she was always interested in the mind. I haven’t spoke to my mum for a while now guess I should break the ice again before it’s too late but  anyway at least it isn’t anything stupid. I am thankful that not all people feel the same way and depending on your town it should be filled with lots of different races and different backgrounds so it will be normal to say hey to a passing stranger or integrate fully by marrying, having babies or even sparking up a friendship with someone out your race. I’m not even saying having biracial babies shouldn’t be allowed but do remember kids just ain’t fashion and unless you are doing it for DNA purposes or to strengthen DNA or for the simple fact you like to do their hair in the morning which actually means that person likes structure and hair obviously and your doing it for the aesthetic looks and to appear dare I say hip and trendy/cool please don’t not have biracial babies. Now did I just do a don’t come back to Jamacia well sort of but unless you are going to guide them and see they end up in the right position and not face flat on the floor or be one sided although I do believe in the I’m a American not Afro American or I’m British not Mixed British  scenario but teaching your children one side of the puzzle and missing out vital information that would later shape your child and make them more informative about the past, the present and their future will make them more confident within themselves and hopefully jump a few hurdles IE bear traps while they are and I do mean the system. What I’m also trying to say is it’s not easy bringing up a biracial child especially without one parent being there and at times in a toxic relationship with their mum or member of the family or members. I know there are lots of happy white and black families out there who do a good job raising their kids and single parents too. But in a white surrounding with  one parent especially it’s easy for the white member of the family not to feel what racism feels like and how bullying can lead to a damaged child and later on adult and could make them backflip 10 times over by doing something crazy to the next person who tries them. This is unless they understand the whole story or even parts of it and fully understand what racism can do and feel like and how it affects them still to this day wherever you go and that goes for all races actually but actually they would probably make good parents, spouse or partners. The crazy thing and news flash I don’t even have kids but I was one once and I’ve read lots of books about baby care oh and I did a baby care course for a laugh and when I was deciding if I wanted kids I chose to have none and I’m forty and I still haven’t got any I’M FREE!!!!!!!!! Not only that I live in Bristol here in the UK and most people are with grips of the slave trade route which landed on the harbour side and also it’s quite multiculturaled city and people especially in the inner city like to get on with each other and share each other experiences like their festivals and a lot of talk about racism a open topic that is forever being brought up and I do mean that in a good way as it’s something that needs addressing until people get it right and more aware of racism and how it affects people. Mistreatment of others is not acceptable at it’s best and worse and being a right wing Nazi sympathiser should be a thing of the past but people like dare I bring the stupid bastards name up again Mr Stupid AKA Elon Musk likes to dance with the devil in the moonlight fire sounds like a start of a poem or song and someone go. I have no idea why we would go back in time when there is plenty of resources and people to meet to be stuck in this ignorant cycle and love to loath at the unknown or someone who is not the same colour as you makes me wonder are you that stupid do you need help or something I do wonder.