Black Visions Mix 3

Gas No LightAdvent House Mix
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  1. Test Card Clown 
  2. Sinister Egastas 
  3. Dwarf Star 
  4. Ashes Of The Future 
  5. Working At The Serpentine 
  6. Reflecting Suitcase 
  7. More Lead In Paint
  8. Sickness 
  9. We Live In Peace 
  10. Open Gates 

Black Visions Mix 2

Gas No LightBlack Visions II
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  1. Boiled Danger 
  2. Obsessed 
  3. Abduction
  4. Sea Goddess (Queen Of The Sea Alternative Version)
  5. Mediterranean Pasty 
  6. Panter Banter
  7. Economy  Slowdown
  8. Tariff Tangle
  9. Walking The Way
  10. Divide And Conquer 

Bandcamp News – New Mixtape Release; Synthia’s Mixtapes 4

BANDCAMP NEWS

20/05/2022 - New Mixtape Release; Synthia's Mixtapes 4

The last part of the series Synthia’s Mixtapes and is a free download on Bandcamp as they are tracks I once released and can’t put them out again as I’ve changed my artist name from Vision Of Colour to Gas No Light and those are the rules so I’m giving it away for free. The beats that I put on this mixtape are both upbeat and mellow tracks and all synthy stuff that are also instrumentals. There is a visual on its way which I’m uploading as we speak and that will be on my YouTube channel in the next hour or two so do lookout for it.  The idea behind the mixtape was a synthesizer robot with all the latest and rarest music gadgets and tools and one tool was to play music which is what the robot is playing synth beats. I jumped on the mic too for the tags as I wanted to make it a proper mixtape experience so I added that and other stuff to it so it felt like a mixtape. I know mixtapes are usually Hip Hop and R’n’B but I wanted to make something different and not that overdone or at least there aren’t that many synthesizer mixtapes I can’t think of any, so with the spare tracks and an idea I made up this series this is the last one of the series and I won’t be going back to it again.

Synthia’s Mixtapes – The Collection

May 20, 2022

A collection of synthy vibes in a form of mixtapes. I had lots of tracks I couldn’t release as on the major platforms like Spotify you can’t upload the same album, EP or track twice so I decided to make a mixtape and record my own shouts and stuff it was fun making. I envisioned Synthia being a music robot with all the music gadgets you can get to do with synthesizers and music in general. This is a free download and can be found on my Bandcamp page where all my free stuff is, come join me. 

Black Visions Mix 1

Gas No LightBlack Visions 1
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  1. Fascist Friendly 
  2. Blaise At Twilight
  3. Pandemic (Chernobyl Alternative Version) 
  4. We Live In Peace 
  5. Unwanted Church
  6. Music Is Music Dumb ****
  7. Frozen Web
  8. Plunge In The Pound 
  9. Injustice Of The Sirens 
  10. Mist (East Beach Alternative Version)

Music News – New EP Release; Late Nights

May 16, 2022

MUSIC NEWS

16/05/2022 - New EP Release; Late Nights

Late Nights is a House EP I made and is for the summer which is just over a month’s time, one month and one day to be exact. It is an upbeat club EP that I got the vocals and drums from off the internet and I made my own synthy patterns up but I did get the one-shots off the internet too. I called it Late Nights as I’ve been having a few of them lately but also in the past and like to spend my time making music and doing other stuff too.  I always find myself staying awake or at least staying awake till morning and then going to bed which is terrible I know but I have a funny sleeping pattern. I guess I’m used to all-nighters or late nights and I used to go out a lot but I’ve calmed down now and barely have the energy to go out or I’m too busy to go anywhere which is something that happens a lot but going out raving doesn’t help with insomnia or the fact that my life is kind of boring or though I do inject some fun into my life when I get really bored of my situation. But I don’t think I could go raving no more and do the early morning after-party that’s always a killer and takes preparation and a warm-up but I can stay awake for a long time if I had good sleep and that’s important, I mean sleep.

My Seven Mental Health Songs

May 10, 2022

MY MENTAL HEALTH JOURNEY

This week is Mental Health Awareness Week here in the UK so I thought I’d do something around mental health and something with music. But before I do that I’d like to talk a little bit about my journey with mental health and where I feel I am today. My experience with hearing voices came from an early age after an unfortunate event in my life I won’t get into but all of a sudden I was hearing voices and I was alone and in my own world for decades before I got help in 2016. But all before that I lived with hearing voices and having paranoid thoughts due to smoking the wrong weed called K2  and other synthetic drugs I didn’t know were synthetic but that was the worse stages of the episodes and thoughts that are invading and can get quite rough. But tIt caused me to act weird which as an embarrassed teen around that time I used to cringe at my outbursts but not now I kind of look pasts that and know I don’t do that and was just the young me trying to survive in the ever-changing world. The silly thing was I never told anyone that I was hearing voices and that was because I felt safe and it was always fun to wake up to do something I was also adventurous and I still am in a way but I was always on the go and loved each day with my dog and the few people I let into my life as I was paranoid but all for the good reasons and at the end of the day kept me safe and off the hard drugs which I’ve never touched and I mean non Class A party drugs like heroin or crack. It was also some other events in my life that made the voices intense to more I’m going die vibes which were fueled by outside thoughts and people it was bad but I always fought the devils and tried to do my best till it got too much and I kind of gave up for the meantime and focused on getting my mental and health together and get over all the things that had happened in the past. In 2016 I was admitted to a hospital ward for psychosis and I’ve been taking medication ever since which helps with the irrational thoughts and the episodes which I am grateful for. I’ve built my confidence up and my memory is getting stronger as I kind of lost my memory or at least I forgot about all the good things and concentrated on the bad which suffocated me and lead me down a dark and lonely path which was hell and somewhere I won’t be going back to as I wouldn’t let it get that bad again oh no. It makes you do outrageous things and the paranoid thoughts are intense and not something I enjoyed especially when smoking weed and taking some drugs which I did bring on myself but I was self-medicating and trying to cope in my own way while making great moves in life but as I said that came as a toll which was the stresses and lifestyle choices equaled to a more unstable me but it wasn’t the work. Somehow the paranoid thoughts got worse and I could no longer feel like I could work or even get out of bed there were days when I wouldn’t even go anywhere and was too paranoid to go to anyone I thought I was being watched and thought everyone was talking about me or wanted to do some sort of harm but to be fair this started at an early age but it came back and got worse each time with stuff I was adding up that didn’t even come up to the right total and now I think about it it was common math problems but being young and unknowing it was hard to judge it right and of course, my mind wasn’t in the right place though I was pretending it didn’t exist in the most difficult situations I choose when to listen to the voices as sometimes the information must have been my sub conscious talking to me like old memories but it came in the form of people in my head talking to me and it was good and bad stuff but mainly a mix of dark and light slash funny stuff.

I have cut off a lot of people I knew in the past like old friends as I wasn’t comfortable being around them and always thought negative thoughts about how they see me and so forth which soon came with evidence now we have grown apart and it’s been a long time so it’s the time apart that did it but no one makes the effort even me as I have seen they didn’t so it was kind of like well I don’t need this and left it for them to get in touch with me if they wanted but some people I left as I do not like to be the donkey of the group and made small because of my beliefs or where I was going or even been which is not here or there but I’ve been to a lot of good places which causes a lot of hate and I have my own band of haters but we all do so apparently it’s normal. Getting rid of toxic people and being with the people that make you happy not like a piece of poop but that is something I had to do to heal myself which was a long and drawn-out process also admitting and wanting the help that comes from you and only when I was ready which was after I was admitted and I realized I couldn’t even go back to the being the local nutter and try to revert back to when I was cooler and calmer which was certain times like being on holiday where it was easy to forget the problems I had but when I didn’t go on holiday which was must years I would go for walks or go out of the city for the day but I don’t really go anywhere nowadays. I’ve been thinking recently and I’m now looking for a change I don’t want fame and never wanted fame but I do want to be comfortable like most people where I don’t have to worry about certain things. But more importantly, I’m alone and looking for something to do instead of being in my room thinking and over making music which I now want to do a bit less which means not every day but I do worry people will forget me quick so that is why I post nearly every day. I mean I do like being alone I’m used to being alone and doing something as I like to be occupied and can’t be sitting down doing anything as I might have oversaid by now but that’s the other reason. I do vow to do something about it though and have made a few arrangements that will hopefully make my life better or worse but I’m a big believer in the new start it does take some work though but when I’m on something I’m on it. The truth is I stagnated for too long and now I’m trying to break out of that shell and try and do something new and hopefully meet more friends or meet old ones but I’m way over that paranoid feeling I’m more I have to grab the bull by the horns times and do it cos I can’t keep up with the isolation routine it’s numbing but I do speak to people though. The stigma of having a mental illness is something that I have also experienced throughout my mental health experience and even though we have come a long way it still is unheard of. I feel people are undermined or looked down on if they have a mental health problem and I also feel no matter how much you hear it can happen and you bet I did it even though I was “ill” like go to university which some people are doubting me because of my illness which is why I can’t forgive these people or want to know them for any more time I mean the haters, okay but my friends and family well I’ve seen enough.

MUSIC AND MY MENTAL HEALTH

From an early age, I used music not only to express myself but also to understand my pains and problems and mental health was one thing I used a lot which started with Queen I’m Going Simply Mad but went to stuff that wasn’t really about mental health but the love fall out and other tracks which I felt helped me to understand and overcome some of my problems. This is why I believe in music healing and believe songs can unlock your heartache and cure it. Of course, the dark side to it which there was a dark side on some tracks made me think more negative let’s just say but I tend to stay away from the negative songs and concentrate on the more club and of course, the ladies in the 90s rap game which I found helped me with some of the problems like haters. I played the keyboard and write silly songs and poems about my feelings growing up and that also helped me with my problems but that was inspired by the 90s heartbreak songs the point where I felt low due to my voices in the early 90s. It wasn’t really I’m going to sit down and listen to these songs and feel I was in the room and heard it and thought how I could use more of this in my life. When I listen to music I like to remember things and think music is good for bringing back your memory and the right song like that obscure song you were obsessed about or that one-hit-wonder you used to hit the town with which puts me in a sort of delusional state as it was so long ago and a one-off moment in time you say that was the best I’ll never forget but decades down the line you can hardly remember what day it is or some times how old you are I’m now 37. There is always that one song that stays with you but there are lots of songs that can strike memories the more decades you go back you can kind of see the past but it’s a quick flash to the past sometimes I’m standing in the room and that is due to heavy isolation way before they were doing it lol. I mean I use music for everything and listen to it a lot in my downtime when I’m not making music which I also listen to but I’ve recently started getting back into music from other people like from yesteryear and beyond and it’s surprising what I remember. I have a few playlists on my hub if you want to listen to them, it’s in the Testing Site section and it’s called Jukebox. Thankfully liking music helped me grow tastes that were different but it always helped me express how I was feeling which was always a good outlet to let it all go and as I said make me remember the younger me which was a chaotic time for me. My favorite genres for helping with mental health has to be House, R’n’B, and Hip Hop, and those are the three that helped me but in earlier years dance music from the 80s to 2005 and the old house helped me to understand people. That’s the thing I also think it’s good for younger people and kids to understand the world but people I mean I can play a track and feel like they were talking about someone I knew as it was so universal in the laungeue of hate or whatever it was. I mean I feel some people look down at their nose too much House is too gay, or some R’n’B is just for the ladies it’s just music, and as long as it does something like keep you going it’s a good thing as long as you like it that’s all that matters.  

Reggae from the 70s really helped me overcome problems I mean if you really want a genre that ticks all the boxes for mental health struggles reggae is the answer I mean it’s all about feelings and how they feel about situations and statements which I do miss having statements in fashion and in also music only cos everyone had their own identity or there were groups who dress a certain way but also have their own lifestyle. But reggae always made me happy and reminds me of a lot of good times it’s also good for chilling at home on a sunny day of course. I remember the words like kicking them to the curb which is something I still do to this day but I remember it like I was taking the advice of the drunk stranger if you excuse the phrase who would get drunk and tell you your truths as your ride home from the youth club it was sort of like that or though I thought that was a drastic thing to do at the time I got stronger. Sometimes I found myself kicking myself for not going with my gut when I listened to that one song so I did find it useful I will be like I’m going to be the next Fast Lane victim washed up on the streets and so forth or dealing with the haters which I have had a few. Listening to positive music helps with your mental health and can do great things for you I mean the one song I can think of well two actually is I Will Survive or Survoir which are two songs that seem to talk about a woman’s pains it could be anybody but granted I Will Survive is the more woman’s anthem but they are two songs anybody could listen to that will make you see the positive side if you ain’t feeling sorry for yourself and that is somewhere I have been but will never go that low again cos at the end of the day happiness does come from within and that means keeping yourself happy at all costs but not your kids though just throw that in there. I don’t really listen to sad songs when I’m down no more I just sit there it’s best not to feed it positive or negative emotion as it does lead to funny consequences and all that whatever talk just looks silly especially when you are not in the right state of mind I mean silence is something I begin to like and when I’m bored I have nothing else to do but to sit in silence but I think its good to have a bit of silence I mean I used to go the woods with my dog and just chill there and listen to the birds and watch the sky it’s really nice to get out and enjoy nature and have that alone time-space you probably won’t found in a city but that could be listening to music too. What I also like about music and mental health is it brings people together and it’s easier to talk about your problems there have been times in the past where I’ve seen a comment a low person on a sad song but it was either a desperate cry for attention or just someone lost but I was taken back by the sensible responses to the post and be like it’s still a caring world or it was now it’s getting sinister and remotely childish but less said about that but that’s the other thing social media is draining our souls and trust me I love all the platforms even though I’m never or never will be on them as I would probably struggle to found an audience and also I’m really not looking for celebrity status lol which I’m not saying I would have but I’m happy working in the back it somewhere I’ve always been in the back doing something either something that seemed pointless or something creative. I will leave a playlist that has a mental health theme to it and there is a couple about being lonely which goes with this year’s mental health theme which started yesterday 09/05/2022 and runs for a week here in the UK but there is a World Mental Health Day on the 10th October so if I can I do another blog post as it’s something close to my heart. hopefully, there’s a theme you know I love my themes and always doing something theme-based or I used to do.            

Music News – New EP Release; Way Thru

May 6, 2022

MUSIC NEWS

6/05/2022 - New EP Release; Way Thru

Way Thru is a vocal Jungle/ Drum & Bass EP I made not so long ago and is of the old skool nature as I like that more rather than the dubstep kind of stuff you get. I got the vocals and breaks online and I went for the more is less is more approach on this one I also started using the limiter to give it that full feel as I now notice without it the sounds are in the back and not distinctive enough to notice bits you wouldn’t hear without the limiter. I was going to make it all instrumental but I enjoy tracks with vocals and it’s more fun and I feel it sounds better so I added them in. I’ve been trying to get back into the harder Jungle and Drum and Bass as I noticed my tracks were more for relaxing pleasure rather than for dancing and even though it was at the correct BPM it came across as slow and relaxing and I hope this EP gets you moving in some way.  I plan on doing more Jungle/Drum & Bass soon as it’s soon the summer and I love to make and play summer tracks in the summer obviously and rave music has that summer appeal to it and is something I do every summer so expect more of that real soon over the summer and autumn too.